"Give me back yourself."

When he heard this, his whole body froze, and he slowly straightened up to look at me, and I looked at him too.

My gaze has never been so weak but determined, no matter how he looks at me, how long or how deeply, I don't look away from him, just look at him.

Then I saw a faint wave of anger in his eyes.

I know that neither as an emperor nor as a person can tolerate other people's words to leave, and once my desire to leave the palace caused him to be so angry, and now-

I still looked at him silently, watching him slowly clench his fists, his fingers rattling, and the green tendons on the back of his hands bursting up.

However, that cluster of anger slowly extinguished under such tension.

He looked down at me and was silent for a long time, finally exhaling a long breath and saying, "You have a good rest." ”

“……”

"I'll come back to see you."

After saying this, he walked out without looking back.

At the moment when he left, my tears suddenly burst into the embankment, as if I couldn't control them anymore, and they poured out of my eyes like crazy, and big drops flowed down my cheeks, and the hot feeling made my heart tremble.

"Cairen, ...... you woke up"

Mama Wu and they have been standing outside the door, and as soon as Pei Yuanhao left, they had the courage to push the door in, but as soon as they came in, they saw my appearance, and they were all stunned, and Shui Xiu subconsciously wanted to come over: "Cairen, don't cry, hurt your body." ”

Mama Wu grabbed her.

"Let the talented people cry for a while." As she spoke, she seemed to be a little choked, and seeing that Shui Xiu and Xiaoyu still wanted to come over, she said softly: "In the end, she is about to become a mother, this is a piece of meat that is taking away her heart." ”

"But—"

"She's been holding it all the time, if she doesn't cry, she'll get sick."

After saying that, she pulled Shui Xiu and Xiaoyu out and closed the door.

Mama Wu is right, I've been holding back, but at this moment, all the stubbornness and pretended toughness collapsed.

I was wrong, I was really wrong.

I thought that I could endure that there were other women in his heart, and I thought that I could endure all the intrigues in this palace, as long as I could endure this qiē and give birth to this child, I could still give myself and him a home.

But I was wrong.

In such an imperial city, how can there be warmth, and between such a father and mother, how can there be warmth? Even if this child is really born, what happiness can there be?

So, he left, with the last shred of warmth in my heart for that man, and left......

My tears did not stop, like the blood that poured out of my body that night, hot, uncontrollable, with irreparable sorrow and the deepest pain, so hot that I almost trembled, but I could not cry, all the cries were choked in my throat.

Pain, like a knife cut.

The incident of my miscarriage caused an uproar in the palace, especially the emperor lingered in Fangcaotang for three days without closing his eyes, and finally left without a word, which also made people outside talk about it.

But either way, it doesn't matter to me.

After the New Year, the weather became colder and colder, even if Mama Wu used so much charcoal to smoke the house warm, even if the thick brocade quilt was wrapped in a trace of wind that I did not see, my face was still pale, and my fingertips were as cold as ice ridges under the eaves outside.

Later, I heard Shui Xiu say that this time my miscarriage was very dangerous, and the appearance of the blood that night frightened everyone, I was like a leaky blood bag, silent, my face was pale, and most of the mattress was dyed red.

Perhaps because of this, my health became very poor, coughing all night, and my throat often oozed a salty smell, and even the bowls of hot decoction I drank seemed to be thrown into the cold pool, without a trace of movement.

Still, I know it's not the worst.

A talented person who has had a miscarriage, what is the worst, I can think of it.

However, what I didn't expect was that the first person to come to see me would be Xu Cairen.

When she walked in with a big belly, Yuwen and another grandmother kept talking about being careful, the child is important and something like that, Shui Xiu frowned as soon as they saw her, with an unhappy expression, Mama Wu was older and calm, and stepped forward to say a few words of greeting, I heard that Xu Cairen came to see me, and there was no choice but to move a chair to the bedside.

She sat down slowly, looking up at me.

"Are you alright?"

“……”

"I heard from the Imperial Doctor that you were seriously injured this time, and I brought you some supplements."

After speaking, she glanced at Yuwen, Yuwen glanced at me with disdain, and handed the box in her hand to Shui Xiu, who also snorted coldly before taking it.

My eyelashes twitched slightly, and I slowly lifted my eyes to look at her.

Compared with the past, her face was pale, thin and weak, but now she had a big belly and a little magnificent, her face was ruddy, and even her chin was round.

And Yuwen behind her, dressed better than before, even her nostrils were raised higher. I took a second look at her, and she also had a piece of jade jade toad tied around her waist, which was crystal clear and transparent, and it was worth a lot of money.

Although I don't care about what happened outside, and they didn't dare to sue me, but every day some palace maids from other palaces came to my window and loudly discussed what the emperor gave her and what he gave her, and it is not an exaggeration to say that it is hot.

The whole palace was staring at her belly.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but look at her high bulging belly.

I haven't reached this month yet, but before I reached out, I could feel the slight bulge in my lower abdomen, and I used to think about how clumsy I would be when I was about to give birth, and now - it's impossible.

Although my heart is dead, my eyes still turn red at the thought of the child.

Looking at my appearance, Xu Cairen said slowly: "People's hearts are flesh and blood, although you used to treat me like that, but as a woman, I also know how painful it is to have no children." ”

I looked at her slowly and heard her say, "Yue Qingying, if your mind wasn't so vicious, maybe this child wouldn't have fallen." If you are a good person, God will give you a good reward, how can you lose this child? ”

The brocade was held in my hands so hard that it was almost torn.

Shui Xiu's face changed as soon as she heard this, and she hurriedly walked over: "Xu Cairen, how can you say that our family is talented!" ”

"Isn't it?" Yuwen didn't show weakness, and sneered at each other: "Aren't your talented people jealous that our talented people conceived the dragon seed before her, so they still harm our talented people?" But now, retribution has come, isn't it? ”

"You-"

Shui Xiu's eyes were red with anger, and she was about to hit her as soon as she raised her hand, but Mama Wu hurriedly grabbed her, and Xu Cairen also turned around and said, "Yuwen, stop talking!" ”

There was a bit of trouble on both sides, Xu Cairen sighed, slowly stood up and said, "Forget it, I don't have anything more to say." Take care of yourself, I'm leaving. ”

With that, she turned and walked outside.

I silently turned my head to look at her, she looked like she was so pot-bellied, and she took every step so carefully, as if she was caring for the rare treasure in her body, and she couldn't bear to let the child be hurt a little.

It's all kids......

It's all mothers......

My fingers have torn the brocade quilt, my nails have been **** into my palms, and even my heart is trembling in pain, just when she was about to walk out, I said, "You have to be careful." ”

“……！”

She seemed taken aback and looked back at me.

This is the first time I have opened my mouth in the past few days, my throat is hoarse, and after I finished speaking, I coughed hard, and a pain in my lower body came, and Mama Wu hurriedly gathered around me: "Talented!" ”

You have to be careful......

I want to say this to me a few days ago, be careful, don't believe that anyone can protect you, I can't, even Amitabha Buddha can't, this child is in your body, only you can protect him.

You have to be careful.

Xu Cairen looked at me, still a little stunned for a while, and Yuwen behind her immediately said: "Yue Cairen, how can you threaten our family Cairen like this?" Even if your child is gone, it's not our talent's fault, let's send you supplements, look at you, is it still our talent's fault? ”

When Xu Cairen heard this, her face changed, she stared at me for a long time, and finally said: "You are really, you don't change!" ”

After speaking, he brushed his sleeves and left.

I sat there, suddenly smiled faintly, and leaned back to the head of the bed.

Shui Xiu and Xiaoyu were already so angry that their faces turned white, and they were scolding in the room, and Mama Wu kicked them out, then walked to the bed, sat on the edge of the bed carefully, and said to me, "Talent." ”

“……”

"The slave knows that you feel uncomfortable, but you don't care about Xu Cairen's affairs."

"......" I glanced up at her.

Mama Wu is also an old man in this palace, although she usually just likes to scold Shui Xiu them, and she often talks to me lightly, but from those dark gray eyes, I can see the wisdom and calmness precipitated by the years of lewdness, she looked at me, frowned slightly and said: "Everything is fate, no one is at all, and the people in the palace are the most resigned." Sometimes, though, it's not—"

“……”

She didn't say anything, but she just stretched out her hand to hold my cold fingertips, looked at the faint blood stains on her palm, and sighed.

At this time, there was another rush of footsteps outside, and Shui Xiu ran in.

Mama Wu hurriedly looked back at her, and said unhappily: "Didn't you go to the small kitchen to see the soup of the talented people?" Why are you back again? ”

Shui Xiu said: "Talent, the queen, and the concubine Niangniang are here." ”