The Queen Mother didn't seem to hear what I said, she still stared at the bowl of rice soup, and after a while, she said slowly: "You also like to drink this thing?" ”

Also?

When I heard this word, my heart moved, and when I raised my eyes, I saw the expression and gaze of the Queen Mother, and I immediately understood.

She always looks indifferent on weekdays, and she doesn't have extra warmth for anyone, but only when she mentions a person, she will break her peace and reveal that almost hateful aura.

That person is the Queen of Zhaolie.

I don't know what happened between the Queen Mother and the Queen Zhaolie, who made her eat fasting for so many years and recite the Buddha for so many years, but she couldn't calm the hatred in her heart, but this may be the endless grievances in the harem.

How sad, how ridiculous.

The Queen Mother was silent for a while, and then slowly came back to her senses from the past, glanced at me, and her indifferent gaze slowly softened.

She reached out and gently wiped the tears from my face with her thumb and said, "Don't be too upset. ”

“……”

"You are not the only woman in the palace who has suffered this kind of suffering."

“……”

"You at least know that your children are early in Bliss, and they don't have to suffer the hardships of the world; But some people don't know where their children are, they don't know whether they are alive or dead, and they can't let go of their hearts until they die. ”

I felt her thin fingers gently caress my cheek, and the tears wiped away, and I gradually saw clearly that her pale and silent face revealed an indescribable sadness.

Who is she talking about?

Could it be the Queen of Summoning Spirit? The emperor once decreed that he wanted to pass on the throne to the emperor's eldest son Pei Yuanchen, the emperor's eldest son was the child of Empress Zhaolie, but he never appeared in the palace, could it be that this is the case?

But why did she look so sad, as if every word was like a knife cut through her heart?

I said softly: "Queen Mother......"

Hearing my voice, the Queen Mother seemed to wake up suddenly, retracted her hand, and her expression became a little unnatural.

"Queen Mother, what's wrong with you?"

"Mourning, it's okay."

She shook her head, looked at me again, and said, "You have a good rest, the mourning family will come to see you again." The mourning family will also recite the mantra of death day and night in the Buddhist hall, praying that the child will be reborn in the poor family and live a happy life. ”

Cast into the poor and live happily for the rest of your life.

This sentence is really ironic!

With that, she got up and walked out, and I sat at the head of the bed, watching her thin, old back slowly disappear into the morning light at the door.

After a while, Mama Wu walked in again.

Her eyes were a little red, and she was holding a box of soothing incense in her hand, saying that it was explained by the Queen Mother, so that I could light it every day and sleep more peacefully at night.

With that soothing incense, I really sleep better at night, often sleep until dawn, I can't even dream, but in the morning they will always see some residual blood on the corner of my lips, but I am afraid that I will cough up blood at night.

They were all nervous, and they were only worried that I would leave a root cause of coughing up blood every night, but I didn't feel that it was difficult, on the contrary, the cold in my body was much better.

Winter is slowly coming to an end.

Although my body was better, the doctor still let me stay in the house to recuperate, it was still cold outside, and Shui Xiu and they kept persuading me to lie on the bed and do everything properly for me.

Actually, I know that there is another reason why they won't let me go out.

Although Shui Xiu and they have been hiding from me, but every time she comes back from going out, I can always faintly hear her muttering curses with Xiaoyu in the yard, I didn't care about it, until this evening, I just sat down at the table and drank a sip of the decoction, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a familiar figure walking in from outside.

When I looked up, it was Yuwen.

Yuwen walked in arrogantly and walked towards me so-so: "I've seen Yue Cairen." ”

I frowned slightly, didn't speak, Shui Xiu usually couldn't look down on her the most, so she immediately greeted her and said bluntly: "What are you doing here?" ”

"The slave is here to deliver something." Yuwen glanced at me, put the box in her hand on the table, and said loudly: "This is what our Jieyu rewarded Yue Cairen." ”

Jieyu?

As soon as I heard it, I immediately reacted - Xu Youling has been promoted to Jieyu.

Speaking of which, she is already on the verge of giving birth, and it is too late to be promoted now. I only responded lightly, and then I saw Yuwen snort coldly, turned around and walked out.

As soon as she went out, Shui Xiu had already run over and picked up the things on the table and smashed them on the ground: "What a thing!" ”

It doesn't matter to her now, Mama Wu immediately scolded: "What are you doing!" The talented people are still here, it's your turn to lose your temper! ”

Shui Xiu's eyes were red with anger, and she turned her head to look at me: "Talented! ”

I wasn't angry, but she startled me just now, and waved her hand lightly: "I'm tired." ”

Mama Wu has been standing next to her, and at this time she sighed and walked over, and said softly: "Since the talented person is tired, rest early." "I cleaned up the bed and served me to sleep, and lit the soothing incense, then turned his head and pulled Shui Xiu and them out, Shui Xiu earned twice, with an unconvinced look, and was still pulled out by Mama Wu.

All the candles in the room were extinguished, except for a small candle flame by the bed, flickering in the dark night.

The candlelight was so faint that it seemed to be extinguished at any moment, and I looked at the candlelight with wide empty eyes, trying to see when it would go out, but after a while I felt that my eyelids were heavy, and I fell asleep unconsciously.

When I woke up the next morning, there was a joke from Jingren Palace.

I heard that a few mice sprang out of Yuwen's house somehow, she was so frightened that she ran out unkempt without putting on her clothes, and knocked down the grandmother who served the queen, making a fuss, and was scolded by Xu Jieyu, kneeling in the courtyard, and still hasn't gotten up.

These words were passed on by the little eunuch who was doing chores in the courtyard, and Shui Xiu and Xiao Yu came in to serve me and get up, and told me the original thing, as if they were celebrating a festival.

I glanced at them and only shook my head faintly.

In the end, it is the child's heart.

When I think back to my age, I don't have such a heart, so I prefer to see them laughing happily and making trouble, although sometimes Mama Wu always says that I am used to them being lawless.

When I got up and cleaned up the bed, Mama Wu went down to order the medicinal food, Shui Xiu was still smiling, but when she saw the corners of my mouth, she pouted again, wiped the corners of her mouth with a wet towel, and said: "Cairen, why are you still coughing up blood, do those imperial doctors' medicines work?" Xiaoyu too, she didn't even know that you coughed like this, she was really a corpse. ”

I looked down and saw another patch of pink on the snow-white towel.

She carefully rubbed it for me, and suddenly seemed to remember something, bowed her head and said to me: "Cairen, the slave has something to tell you." ”

"Huh?"

"This morning, when it was the time of Yin, the slave seemed to see the emperor."

I glanced up at her, frowning slightly.

Yinshi, that is when the palaces open the palace doors every morning, someone will come to collect the toilets of the palaces, only the eunuchs who do chores will get up, at that time, the main owners of the palaces should still be sleeping, how could she see Pei Yuanhao?

Moreover, shouldn't Pei Yuanhao be in Jingren Palace last night?

Shui Xiu said again: "But the sky is too dark, and the slaves and maids don't see the truth, only the emperor is alone, and he disappears in a flash." ”

“……”

I didn't speak, and subconsciously reached out and touched the corner of my lips.

"Cairen, you said, the emperor he-"

I shook my head faintly, interrupted her, and asked, "Yinshi, how did you get up?" ”

"Huh?" She was stunned for a moment, her eyes widened suddenly, and she said hesitantly: "Slave maid - slave maid - slave maid, slave maid is to get up and go to the toilet." ”

I looked at her again, and she bowed her head a little weakly.

I looked at her, then at the dazzling pink on the snow-white towel, and suddenly felt very tired, and there was a feeling that I didn't even want to continue breathing, so I just waved my hand: "Forget it, it's okay to go down." ”

"Oh." She nodded, and was about to turn around and leave, but she seemed to be a little unwilling, and turned around and said, "Cairen, the emperor he-"

"You're mistaken."

She looked at me indifferently, and she couldn't say anything more, so she could only turn around and leave.

I sat at the head of the bed, staring silently at the incense burner at the other end of the room, the soothing incense in it had burned out, and only a wisp of curling smoke struggled to rise from it, and was immediately blown away by a light breeze.

For the people of Yerba Caotang, the day passed quickly, nothing happened, and it was another day.

When night fell, Mama Wu still brought me rice soup and medicinal food made in the small kitchen, and I drank a little of everything, but I didn't eat much, so I said to her, "I want to rest early tonight, you all go down." ”

"Huh?" Mama Wu was stunned for a moment, and immediately said, "Okay, the slave maid will clean up." ”

I waved my hand: "No, you all go down." ”

Mama Wu glanced at me, and then looked at Shui Xiu and them, and finally didn't say anything, and after a little tidying up, they all went down, and the door was closed.

After all the candles in the room were extinguished, only the candle at the head of the bed was still left flickering in my eyes, and every night I used to look at the candlelight, and then slowly fall asleep, and the same is true tonight, watching the candle flame flutter, as if a person was struggling.

I don't know when it's a head.

I don't know how long it took, the night was so dark that it seemed like an unbreakable black curtain, there was silence all around, there was not even insects and birds, and only his own breath was left in the quiet night, and there was a heartbeat.

I lay on the bed, staring at the curtains above my head with wide eyes open, quietly.

Just then, I heard a very light, very light footfoot, almost lighter than my breath, in the silence of the night, all the way to the door, and then the door was pushed.