Chapter 63: The Past (Part II)
Yin Zibo made tea for Ye Ling: "Then you broke up like this?" No wonder you said that she hated you and wanted to take revenge on you, it was really bad, and after enjoying the late watch, she kicked people out in the middle of the night. β
Ye Ling shook her head: "No, if it ends here, then the past will be over, after all, the relationship is not deep, and the degree of heartbreak is limited." β
Ye Ling continued: "I drove her away and deleted her phone number, in order to forget her, I was crazy during those days, as long as I had time, I would mess around looking for women, but no one could give me a feeling in her body." She turned all other women, more experienced than her, more coquettish than her, more professional than her, into improvisation. The size of the organ is innate, and although the master key can open countless locks, only the original one can turn freely when it is opened. β
"But one night, when I left the office, I felt a little hungry and walked into a wonton shop across the street from the company building to get some late-night snacks, and it was almost midnight. I suddenly noticed that she was inside, cowering in the corner with her head down, trying to avoid my attention. I was taken aback, pulled down the magazine she was covering her face in, and asked her why she was here. She couldn't answer, she was ashamed and sad, and she was about to cry. I asked her if she hid here every day watching the lights in my office. She said no, she couldn't help it by accident and came over, not because she wanted to disturb me. β
I relented and called wontons to come over and eat with her. After eating, I took her home. At that time, it was late autumn, her body was cold and cold, I unbuttoned my clothes and held her in my arms, warmed her with my own body, and at the same time gave her a hot bath, less than half a month after separation, she lost a lot of weight, I was very distressed, I was afraid that she would get sick. Her tears fell on my chest, cold and cold, and I felt her tears seeping into my skin and dripping all the way into my heart. β
"I was originally a man who had been in the midst of thousands of flowers and didn't touch his body, but that night, she made me hesitate and couldn't bear to leave. I held her in my arms all night long, at a loss, not knowing how to compensate her for the hardships she had suffered. β
"I told her not to visit me in the office anymore. I'll call her again, but I added that I have a lot of women, so don't expect too much from her. I asked her to find a boyfriend, and the next time we meet, she must report to me if she has asked someone to introduce her partner, whether she has gone on a blind date, and if she doesn't find a boyfriend, I will not meet her again. β
She agreed, and honestly began to ask others to introduce her partner, while going on a blind date, while continuing to wait for my call. In order to get rid of her, I tried not to look for her, I dated other girls, and told her that I was dating other girls for prostitution, she was in pain, but she desperately endured it, didn't say anything, just was on call, and she endured it until my heart hurt. I asked myself again and again why I was hurting her so much. If she doesn't want anything from me anymore, why can't I be nicer to her?"
"After a while, I'm going to attend a charity fundraiser. That kind of fundraising banquet, there is nothing real in it, the man's waist bag and the woman's chest are padded with toilet paper, a bunch of fake antiques, worthless fake jewelry, imitation crafts that just appeared last week, a bunch of fake philanthropists, fake celebrities, plus fake executives like me who are mixed in and send business cards everywhere to talk about relationships. But it's best to bring a female companion to such a banquet. So I called my girlfriend and asked if she had time. It wasn't a weekend, and she said she had to go to work and couldn't leave. Actually, I can go alone, but I don't know what's wrong, I called her by magic, Ling Ran said as soon as she received the call, but she is now wearing the uniform issued by the unit, and she has to go home and change her clothes first. β
"I went to the banquet place to wait for her, and after a while, she arrived, well-dressed, elegant and showy. I took her to talk to various presidents, general managers, lawyers, reporters, this long, that long, around, she talked decently, was generous, advanced and retreated, smiling and smiling, and her ability to socialize was ten times better than my girlfriend. She stood beside me, her appearance and temperament were very outstanding, and when someone asked, she had a good academic background, work, and family background. I was really happy and proud that day. I finally found a female companion who I could bring in in a formal social setting. β
"The more I looked at her that day, the more I liked her, the more I looked at her, the more I loved her, and suddenly I was horny. She was immediately sensitive, and it was in public, but I was so swollen that I couldn't take a step. In the end, I took her to run around in the aisle, looking for no-man's corners everywhere, and finally released it at the safety staircase, just a few minutes, I was afraid that she wouldn't enjoy it, and as a result, she was immediately ** in passion. This is the beginning of our random search for a place**, unmanned small box, bathroom in the bar, semi-dark doorway, elevator, small kiosk in the park, there was no private car at that time, I sometimes borrowed a friend's car, we played on the side of the road in the downtown area"
"I wanted to thank her for taking such a leave of absence for me to come to the social scene, and I asked her what she wanted. She said she wanted to be willful again, if I could satisfy her. I said yes. She said that she has been looking for a blind date these days, and there are many enthusiastic people who have introduced her, but the men she has met are not as good as one, they look crooked and cracked, and they talk nonsense with a mouth, desperately boasting about how they are valued by the leaders, and what royal relatives and relatives are in the family, talking to idiots in their dreams, and going on a blind date with this kind of person is simply trampling her self-esteem back and forth. Her colleagues commented on the photos of her blind date, which made her feel particularly shameless. She asked me if I could pretend to be her suitor once to pick her up from work and let her colleagues see that she also had a high-class man to chase. β
"I thought it was funny and hilarious, so I said yes. I wanted to give her a romantic evening, so I prepared for a week, when the best car a taxi company could rent was an Audi, but a friend of mine who was a tax collector at the tax office drove a Mercedes that I didn't know from which company. I asked him to borrow the car, drove it to the car wash to wash it and wax it, and then I took the yellow roses imported from New Zealand in a suit and tie to pick her up from work. I deliberately arrived a few minutes early to make an appearance in her business hall. I said hello to all her colleagues and superiors. In full view of everyone, I took her to the car, opened and closed the door for her, and drove away under the big eyes of the crowd. β
"I took her home. I had the hourly staff clean the room thoroughly, I had bought candles and balloons, she pruned roses, put them in vases, and I cooked her steak for dinner. Actually, I am now learning, I chose Western food because Chinese food is more difficult, in fact, I burned it very illegally that day, I was ashamed of such a good steak, fortunately, the steak can be eaten half-cooked, we took the knife and cut it indiscriminately. β
"After dinner, I put water in a bubble bath for her, which was still a novelty in China at that time. She soaked in the water, I lit candles, played music for her, and I bathed with her. She suddenly threw herself into my arms and began to cry, saying that she didn't want other women to enjoy it like this. I swear I won't do this for any other woman, it's all hers. In fact, since that night, I haven't had any other woman. At first, she didn't know this, and I was afraid that she wouldn't want to find a boyfriend if she found out. I was afraid of delaying her, so I deliberately hid it from her, but after a while, I couldn't hide anything, because as long as I could squeeze out a little time, I would be with her, she knew my whereabouts well, and all my time, physical and energy were dedicated to her, and I could not mix with other women. I told her that I was a man who didn't get married, and we said we would only be friends, but my relationship with her was completely white. β
"I bring her to all social occasions and I introduce her to everyone as my girlfriend. All of her classmates, colleagues and relatives knew about me, and although I hadn't officially visited her parents, her blog was full of pictures of the two of us. She likes to show off, and she has to upload it for a meal with me, so she almost openly posted nude photos of the two of them. β
"She understands me everywhere, satisfies me on call, thinks about my thoughts, caters to my preferences, sensitive, gentle and delicate, and smart and witty, the days with her, always laughing, always heart-to-heart, always passionate, we don't need to speak, a look to know what the other party is thinking, we talk all for jokes, laugh at each other, those witty years, those times that can be understood without words. β
"We fell in love with the most passionate. I call her whenever I have a little time, even in the middle of two meetings, or half an hour before my flight. In fact, more than a year was my busiest time, I was a VP at that time, I was waiting for a promotion, and I had already passed the sponsor exam, and I was looking for an opportunity to obtain a qualification. The boss of the company has high expectations for me, and I try my best to perform, because if I can't meet his expectations and can't complete the work he assigned, there will be someone else who can do the job. If I want to get to the core, I can only fight upstream. I have a lot of work pressure, I have a meeting to catch up with the manuscript and travel continuously, everything is squeezing my sleep time, but in that case of lack of sleep and physical overdraft, my ** my physical fitness has been exerted to the extreme, whether it is just off the plane, or 72 hours of overtime in a row, as long as she comes to me, I can be passionate and full of physical strength, and I can fully satisfy her every time. Seeing her flushed face was amazing to me. β
"Because I'm too busy and too busy, in order to cater to my time, her life is completely messed up, her drawers are full of leave notes, no matter what kind of strange places I go to on a business trip, no matter how hard it is, she does everything possible to come to see me, sometimes she takes a plane, plus a long-distance bus, a rickshaw, and a two-legged walk, it takes more than ten hours, thousands of miles to see me, but the time between the two is often only one or two hours, she has to rush back. I sometimes go on a business trip for half a month and a month, and when the weather changes, I buy clothes at the local market casually, and I wear a cold dress, no different from the locals, she smiles every time she sees me, I am really like a dirty dog. She slept with me in a rat-infested hotel infested with rats and cockroaches, and washed my clothes by hand. She was reluctant to eat the food she brought me from Beijing, so she stuffed it in my mouth, and she ate all kinds of things that were difficult to swallow in the local restaurants. β
"I can't express how grateful I am. I didn't give her anything, no promises, no guarantees, no compensation, but she paid for me wholeheartedly, no matter the cost, no return, no reason, no regrets. What she did for me, none of my past girlfriends could do, and together they couldn't do it, who could be like her, whether it was dawn or late at night, whether it was going to work or sleeping, as long as I had time, as long as I had the need, she could come quickly, rain or shine, no matter where I went, no matter how inconvenient the traffic was, how bad the conditions were, how difficult the road was, she would come to my side and comfort my loneliness. In our line of work, because the working hours are too long, the pressure is too great, the whereabouts are too unstable, and the men have the problem of chaotic sex life, it is difficult to maintain their boyfriends and girlfriends. Even if we have a high salary and a good room for growth, the people with superior conditions will still leave us, because they have other options and don't have to hang themselves from our tree. Only she has been by my side for two whole years, which makes my heart warm, and no matter how busy and hard I am, I feel that I belong. β
"It was in that deep affection that I began to worry, afraid that such days would not last long. I felt that she wanted to get married, she was very eager, and even a little anxious, in fact, she was only 23 years old at the time, but she was a girl, and she was born in a proper family, she always wanted to get married, and she couldn't spend it with me forever, I was afraid that she would suddenly tell me one day that she had found a marriage partner and wanted to break up with me. I began to vaguely hint to her that if she stayed with me, in a few years, I could consider marrying her. I even accompanied her to take a personal photo album, which contained wedding photos hinting at our future. At the company's Spring Festival dinner, I gave the company the highest honor to me. A Parker gold pen was given to her in public, implying that she was my fiancΓ©e and that I would marry her."
"Then why didn't you marry her at the time. Yin Zibo was strange and interjected.
Ye Ling was slightly stunned: "I didn't want to get married at that time, not because I didn't want to marry her, but because I didn't want to marry any woman." I don't have time to deal with family relationships, deal with my mother-in-law, buy a house and decorate to prepare for the wedding."
Yin Zibo stared at Ye Ling speechlessly.
Ye Ling smiled bitterly: "Yes, I'm a little dissatisfied with her. She worked in the securities department of the bank at that time, with a very high salary and a very good salary, obviously a golden job that everyone was jealous of, but she was hanged, and she was not fired because it was a state-owned enterprise. Yes, she took time off for me, but her attitude was not because of me, but because she didn't take her work to heart at all. She has a good family background, maybe because of this, she is used to being lazy. But this is not a big problem, men generally do not expect their wives to have much success in their careers, it should be said that I am so busy, it is good that she has an easy and secure job, and she can take care of her family, not to mention that it is still high salary, high welfare and high stability, which is simply great. β
"But you don't think so. Yin Zibo muttered.
Ye Ling thought for a moment: "That's the case, rational judgment and personal true feelings are sometimes contrary. Intellectually, I know that her job, IKEA IKEA, is very suitable for a man like me with a busy job, the terms of the best wife, but in terms of personal preference, I prefer the woman I admire, just like Ling Ran now, her self-confidence and authority make me even more intoxicated, stimulate all my desire to conquer, and at the same time make me feel insecure, stressed, and afraid of losing. It's not that she didn't have a bad past, it's just that she didn't put pressure on me in the past, there is no motivation without pressure, and she didn't give me a sense of urgency to marry her. I just thought I was going to marry her, it was just a matter of time, I loved her so much, and she was in such good condition, should I have a reason not to marry her? Of course not. But I don't have any reason to marry her right away, she's still so young, is it necessary to enter the marriage so early, she's obviously so smart, she can take advantage of her youth, improve herself, and spend time on falling in love, it's understandable, after all, it's the best youth years in life, but it's a little too early to spend time on husband and children, especially when I was so busy, she married me, and she was homeless, giving birth to children, I was so busy that I didn't have time to sleep, I didn't want her to get a child out so early to make trouble. β
Yin Zibo sighed: "Brother Ye, I understand, to put it bluntly, she was still not attractive enough at that time." β
Ye Ling carefully distinguished the feeling in her heart, and nodded slowly: "Yes, although I love it very much, I am very moved, and I cherish it, but it is true that there is still a lack of charm, and it does not put me in a state of admiration from the perspective of looking up." Men also have vanity, and men also want to show off their wife's various excellences when mentioning their wives. At the same time, she loved me so much and made me so sure that there was no worry of losing in my subconscious. Although I said what she would do if she met someone else to marry, it was only for her anxiety about wanting to get married. I knew in my heart that no matter what man she met, as long as I called her, she would definitely turn back, and I had no pressure to compete. But I do plan to marry her, and in a few years, when I am promoted to the position of director, I will not be so busy, and I can think about family life. At that time, I expected that I would definitely rise to this position in 5 years, and she was only 278 years old at that time, which is the best age for a girl to get married, mentally mature and emotionally stable, which is much more suitable than entering marriage before the age of 25. β
"I understand, I don't want to get married now, no woman gives me the urge to get married, and no woman gives me the fear of losing her if I don't marry her. Yin Zibo nodded, "Then you have such a good relationship, how can you divide it?"
Ye Ling was in pain: "Because she studied abroad, she found another boyfriend after a week in the United States." β
Yin Zibo was surprised and let out a slight "oh".
Ye Ling sighed: "There was an incident, she was pregnant. I have always been very careful about contraception, I am not a good man, but people can not be inferior, but not inferior, I don't want women to suffer because of me, let alone Ling Ran, my safety measures are very in place. In fact, because of my debauchery in life, when I met women, except for Ling Ran and my official girlfriend, I always put on a condom without touching it, for fear of infection. In Ling Ranna, I wore a condom at the beginning, but later because I liked the feeling of yin and yang blending with each other too much, I could only let her take medicine, and I carefully selected the medicine. She was young at the time and often careless, so I kept staring at her and eating, and as a result, she was still pregnant, and the contraceptive pill was only 80% reliable, and the reliability was too poor. β
"She found out she was pregnant and told me that I was angry, angry that she was careless, angry that I was too careless, and I told her to get rid of it quickly. She didn't say a word, and immediately went to make an appointment to have a fetus, I originally said that I would accompany her, but it turned out to be a temporary emergency overtime, and I couldn't leave at all. By the time I was done, it was late at night, and I rushed to her house, where she was lying motionless on the bed. That night I knelt under her bed and held her in my arms, and it was very distressing."
"Why don't you marry your son?" Yin Zibo asked.
Ye Ling looked at him: "Because that's not the right time to have a baby." First, she had been taking birth control pills, and her pregnancy was the result of contraceptive failure, and the fetus she conceived in this case was likely to have all kinds of problems; second, we were not in a position to raise children at that time, and I was too busy to take care of my family, let alone children. She has to go to work, my parents, her parents are still working, and they are very busy, if they have a child, they can only rely on the nanny to take care of them, so that they have children without a plan is not responsible for the children; third, psychologically, she and I are still too young, I was 27 at the time, she was just 23, both of them are still at the end of puberty, they are not mature enough to be fathers and mothers, if the child is really born, we will not be competent parents. β
Ye Ling shook her head: "Having a child is a major family plan, and the consequences are far-reaching, I don't want to make mistakes in the chaos." This kind of contraceptive failure to have a child, it is resolutely not wanted, even if Ling Ran and I were already married at that time, in that case, I would ask her to have an abortion. I don't regret asking her to kill the baby at all, I am sad to let her get pregnant unexpectedly and make her suffer so much. β
"However, maybe women and men think differently, after all, the fetus is in the mother's womb, not with the man, and it is the woman who suffers from the abortion, not the man. The next morning, she told me that she wanted to study abroad and improve herself. I couldn't react in my head, I couldn't figure out whether she had this idea for a long time, or if she was stimulated by the abortion, or if it was both, how could she suddenly think of it? But at that time, it was a fever to go abroad, and everyone who had some conditions wanted to plating that layer of gold. She is so young and wants to go abroad to further her studies and improve herself, do I have any reason to oppose it? Of course not, I said, "Okay, you go, let me be proud of you." β
"She graduated from Shanghai Foreign University High School, and her English foundation is very good, and that year she spent all her time with me reviewing English and preparing for exams. I was glad to see her work so hard, and she finally knew what she had to do. The day she left China, I had an important meeting and couldn't go, so we said goodbye a day early. β
"That night it was supposed to be okay, she spent the last night in China with her parents at her parents' house, but suddenly she came to my house at two o'clock in the middle of the night, and we lingered all night, all night, and we hugged each other tightly, not wanting a trace of air to exist between each other. I said, "I'll wait for you to come back." She just replied; I thought she meant that well. β
"I know that many girls change their minds as soon as they go abroad, and after going abroad for a few months, they suddenly marry someone else without notifying their boyfriends, and this kind of thing is more than one or two cases among my undergraduate classmates. Because as soon as the girls arrive in the United States, they will be picked up by boys as soon as they get off the plane, all of them have high degrees from prestigious schools, and all of them have bright futures. As soon as the girls landed, the boys who picked up the plane reported to themselves, that one was a doctor from MIT, this was an MBA from Harvard, this was an electronics engineer at Microsoft, with more or less stock subscriptions, and that one was a senior vice president at Goldman Sachs, with an annual salary of tens of thousands of dollars. At this time, girls, especially beautiful girls, will find: Wow, there are too many men who are worthy of being my husband, which one is not better than my previous ticket, which one is not more promising than my previous ticket, and which one is not more expensive than my previous ticket. β
"I have similar worries, but since her going abroad is a foregone conclusion, why should I fight against fate. It's not that I can't keep it, it's that I've gone through a thousand sails, and I'll always come back, I have the readiness to change her mind, but I also have the confidence to wait for her to come back, after all, we love each other so much, so compatible, from ** to soul But, I never expected that she went abroad for a week, and found a blonde and blue-eyed foreign boyfriend, and the photo was posted on a blog, all kinds of hugs and kisses" Ye Ling couldn't go on, and gritted her teeth.
"Damn, how can Ling Ran be like this, water-based poplars, women are really fucking water-based poplars" Yin Zibo was angry.
Ye Ling was silent.
"Then, Brother Ye, you married your ex-wife later. Yin Zibo said.
Ye Ling nodded: "Not long after she left, my colleagues knew that I had fallen out of love, and they were very angry with me. β
"I'm at peace myself, because I didn't expect her to stay with me that long. Isn't it normal for a girlfriend to leave for a job like ours, isn't it logical, not to mention that she went to study abroad, and women went to the United States, which was a meat bun beating a dog, and there was never a return. Moreover, I thought about it carefully later, in fact, her change of heart has always been very symptomatic, because I myself was too blindly confident, thinking that she loved me so much that I couldn't do it, so I kept turning a blind eye. I have repeatedly hinted to her that she will stay with me forever, has she ever taken over the stubble? never, she just copes with it, sometimes she doesn't even have a well-mmm, it just deaf ears, and I'm still there with confidence. I said that I accompanied her to take photo albums and wedding photos, and she gave me a roll of the eyes, what are you doing, what does it have to do with you. Later, although she filmed, she also stuffed it into the drawer, and she didn't take it seriously at all. You know, it took a whole day to take pictures, I can spare a whole day, how difficult it is, in fact, only she loves me is true, as for love is inseparable, who is indispensable in this world, and the earth will still turn the same without anyone It is my own obscenity. β
"My colleagues know that I have fallen out of love, and even my boss has come to care about me, and he may be afraid that I will be emotionally unstable and affect my work. Actually, I didn't, she was gone, and I could just bury my head in work. I put all my time and energy into my work, at that time I was about to be promoted to SVP, I was in the inspection period, I had to perform well, I worked until late at night every day, and went to work the next day full of energy, which was not affected at all. β
At this time, the boss suddenly said that he wanted to introduce me to a girlfriend, told me the girl's conditions, and showed me the photos. As soon as I heard it, I knew: it was her. Before I went on a blind date, I was ready to get married, and unless I knew that I couldn't get along with the girl at first sight, I would definitely marry. Whoever she marries is not a lifetime, not to mention that she has a good father. β
"I was at a critical juncture for promotion, and it wasn't just a matter of promotion. It was the first two years of the 21st century, and there were large projects allocated by the state directives everywhere, and the national brokerage companies were lying down to make money, but this monopoly advantage only existed at a certain stage, for example, now, the national brokerage companies were not good, the business volume was insufficient but everyone was doing a big project, and everyone was doing their own small part, which was basically at the technical level, and the real core content was the channel. As an investment bank, it is standing in front of the golden gate of wealth, but only the one who holds the channel is the one who holds the golden key. At that time, huge opportunities and great wealth are in front of you, if you grasp it well, open that channel, it will go up, if it is not opened, it will be time to change. β
"I was 28 years old at the time, the upside has been completely opened, it depends on how fast I walk, if I can get into the core of the project, open the passage, I can continue to climb Mount Everest, if I walk slowly, then, now my past colleagues, with whom I have taken the sponsor exam but did not get the qualification certificate, there are many people, they just go to the office every day, bored all day long when I am about to go up, someone puts a shortcut under my feet, do I have a reason not to go? Unless I don't like that girl, then I won't push myself. I don't have to take shortcuts anyway, and there is more than one girl with a good father anyway."
"I went on a blind date, as soon as I met, the girl was very cute, and I liked it a lot, so I didn't have any ideas, Ling Ran left at the end of July, I got married at the end of October, life is like this, who is not a passerby. Ye Ling finished speaking, in a daze.
"Well, Brother Ye, you're right. Yin Zibo agreed, but after a few seconds, he whispered again, "But, Brother Ye, you are divorced now, and she has returned to China, but she now has another boyfriend." β
Ye Ling's heart ached sharply, and she glanced at her watch: "Well, it's been an hour, it's time for her to come back." I've got to go first. Zibo, I asked the secretary to prepare the documents, you can arrange it, make an appointment, and everyone will sit down and sign the documents together. β
Ye Ling hurriedly walked away