After listening to Mr. Yu's words, I was relieved a lot, and when I thought about it carefully, in that marriage, I really didn't have anything to be sorry for him except for sometimes losing my temper with him. Suffering and suffering with him, thinking about him with delicious food, feeling sorry for him when he has something, except for complaining to him when he is angry, he has not done anything to be sorry for him.

"I think all your unhappiness should be caused by your second marriage." Teacher Yu said.

"Yes, in my first marriage, although I occasionally feel guilty, I don't dwell on it anymore."

"Then you can talk about the second marriage." Listening to his words, I don't know why, I suddenly had a feeling that I didn't want to say, I always thought that saying such heartwarming things in front of a stranger was like being stripped naked in front of someone else and being visited. So I was a little hesitant.

Teacher Yu saw that I was silent and didn't speak, he probably guessed my thoughts, so he didn't chase me, but waited there quietly.

After thinking about it for a while, I was a little embarrassed and said, "I'm sorry, I really don't know where to start." ”

"You don't have to be in a hurry, you don't have to have any burden, if you want to say it, you can say it, if you don't want to say it, then tell me when you want to say it. I'm still the same sentence, I'll be waiting for you at any time and listen to you. The phone is turned on for you 24 hours a day, and the message will be replied in seconds. ”

"Thank you, you're really dedicated." I say it from the bottom of my heart.

"Yes, I do this business, which is originally a service industry, and I have to be responsible for my customers. I hope that everyone who finds me can come out of the psychological shadow in good health and happily.

I still don't want to talk about this bad marriage, but I don't want to sit like this all the time and delay other people's work, after all, people are not just me.

So I said, "Otherwise, I won't say it yet, I really don't know how to say it, and I have a headache when I think about it, so I'll go back first, and I'll come back to you later when I want to say it." ”

"That's fine, but, I think, it's nothing. There are so many bad things in this world, and I think there are probably many people who are more terrible and worse than what you have encountered, and there is nothing difficult to say. It's like, what if a woman is married and the doctor who delivers the baby is a man? Shall I have him deliver the baby? In fact, a doctor is just a doctor, it is a profession, it has nothing to do with gender or anything, he is responsible for treating you. Answers to your questions. Of course I'm not a doctor, you're not a patient, we can even be friends in a hotel. By the way, do you remember when you were in a hotel? ”

Teacher Yu suddenly told me about the hotel. As soon as I mentioned the matter of the hotel, I was released from the nervous and tangled emotions, and I suddenly relaxed, I said, "I also mentioned the matter of the hotel, I regarded you as a bad person that day." ”

"Really? Actually, I don't look that bad, I really don't look like a bad person. How can you think I'm a bad person? Is it because I'm talking to you? ”

"Of course, how can a good man you don't know be connected with a good person if you talk to you? I didn't expect you to be a psychiatrist. ”

"I'll tell you a secret, I really didn't think you had a mental illness. I accosted you out of a man's curiosity about a beautiful woman drinking alone, so you were right to think I was a bad person. Teacher Yu said with a smile.

Of course I knew he was just joking, and for someone my age, there was nothing pretty about it. It's okay to say it's beautiful, but that was once, and now I feel like I'm really old, and I don't want to look at myself in the mirror anymore. Especially in the past few years, it seems that I am much older than before.

"Don't be kidding, at what age are you still beautiful?"

"Really, I don't lie to you, I really thought that way at the time, so it's still necessary for a woman to be a little wary. A sanctimonious person like me has crooked thoughts, let alone a man? He said half-truthfully.

"Do you also use sweet words to treat patients?" I asked.

"Yes, whatever it takes, as long as it makes you happy. If you are happy, won't my purpose be achieved? But I'm not really talking about it. I originally wanted to be honest with you, but if you don't believe it, forget it. ”

"Whether you're telling the truth or not, I'll admit it, I'm actually quite happy to hear it. Maybe this is a common problem of women, everyone likes to hear others say that they are not beautiful, even if they are really not beautiful, but they also like to listen. Therefore, many people on the street now greet each other with the word "beauty", whether you are beautiful or ugly, or whether you are old, the word "beauty" does not actually represent beauty, but represents a gender. I said, strange that I was talking in front of a strange man. Although he is a counselor and I am just one of his patients, talking to him is as easy as talking to an old friend for many years. Probably because no one spoke to me for so long, finally there was someone who could talk to me and listen to me.

"I'm really touched that you can say these things to me, it seems that you really regard me as a friend. I hope you will be the same in front of others as you are now, and you will find that the world is still very beautiful. So don't dwell on things you shouldn't. ”

It seems that he is still subtly enlightening me psychologically.

Whether he treated me like a patient or a friend, I suddenly wanted to tell him what had happened. I didn't dare to tell anyone about these things, and even when I was in a lawsuit with Zhang Xu, I didn't want to tell the lawyer about the things he did to me. Now I have the desire to say everything and spit it out as soon as possible.

"Teacher Yu, don't you want to hear about my second marriage? Then I'll tell you about it. I said.

He didn't seem surprised by my decision, probably because he thought I would definitely talk to him, which was probably his confidence, his confidence in his profession.

"Okay, you name it, I'll listen, and see if you have any questions I need." He said calmly.

After listening to his words, I mustered up the courage to say all kinds of things that Zhang Xu did to me, including during the marriage and after the divorce, I told him the process and even the details of every lawsuit with him. I talked there for a long time, and I don't know if he is annoyed, and I don't know if he wants to hear it, anyway, I just want to confide, I want to say all my grievances, as if I said it, I won't be wronged.

I just listened like that, never interrupting me in between. When it came to the sad part, I choked up, as if this doctor was my relative, as if he could help me with all my misfortunes.