Teacher Yu Jianguo talked to me for a long time, and finally he said to me: "Your biggest entanglement now is that you hate him and all the things he has done to you, but you are helpless against him, you are ruthless, and there is no other way to punish him, so you have to destroy yourself to get liberation." You promise me never to do that again, as long as you get out of this psychological shadow, you will slowly feel that God is fair, you believe me, as long as you live well, you can see the day when he will be retributed. ”

Listening to what he said later, I think he was right. So I said to him, "Thank you. ”

He smiled and said, "The best way to thank me is for you to come out of the shadows as soon as possible, so that can be regarded as an affirmation of my professionalism." ”

I didn't speak again, got up and prepared to go. He suddenly said to me, "If you don't mind, sometimes we can go out together, find a place with beautiful mountains and rivers, breathe fresh air, or climb a mountain and exercise." Stretch your emotions too. ”

"Isn't that good?" I said with some hesitation. For some reason, my department felt that his suggestion was a bit inappropriate. We go out together, and I always think that other people gossip. Since I got divorced, I tried to avoid contact with men.

"What's wrong? Are you still afraid of what others will say? Living is for ourselves, not for others to see, as long as we behave properly and walk right, we are afraid of what others will say. Besides, I'm widowed, you're divorced, you're all single, even if others have any ideas, what does it matter, we can't hinder anyone. Besides, even if we are alone together, nothing will necessarily happen. "He seemed to see through my thoughts. Therefore use words to relieve my worries.

Listening to him explain everything, I felt a little embarrassed, as if I was very dark in my heart.

So I found myself a step down, so I said to him, "I don't mean that, I just want to say, do you have time to go out every day at work?" ”

"My work can be solved by phone, besides, if I want to have time, I have time, and being with you is also work, if you can be happy and live again, that is my greatest success. So it's just a different way of working, don't think about it. ”

"I didn't think much of it, okay, I promise you, we can go out for a walk together when we have time."

"Isn't there time now? Let's go out now, shall we? Teacher Yu proposed.

I looked at him with some surprise: "Aren't you tired?" We've been talking for so long, don't you even want to rest? ”

"What's so tiring about talking? I don't think you can get tired just talking, right? If you're tired, you can go again tomorrow, what do you think? But I think the weather is pretty good today, so it's good to go out now. ”

Listening to his words, I also want to go out to breathe, because I really don't want to go back to that home, although I can't see Zhang Xu when I go back now, but I don't want to see Zhang Xu's mother, and there is a possibility that I will see Zhang Xu's sister, because she often goes to Zhang Xu's house to see her mother.

Instead of seeing their family, it is better to go out and walk around with the teacher Yu in front of you. As he said, we are all single, so not having to worry about being misunderstood by our families is the biggest benefit. Don't think of him as a man, just as a woman, and we'll spend a boring time together, I thought to myself.

"Okay, I'm not tired, listening to what you said, not only did I not feel tired, but I also felt very good and happy, so let's go out now." I say.

He was very happy to see that I agreed, and he was very happy, and he looked like a child who had won a prize. I don't know why he's so happy to see it, maybe he's happy to make me feel better. It's like when I was making clothes, I made a particularly beautiful dress by myself, and then put it on someone else's body, although I didn't wear it on myself, but I felt a great sense of accomplishment when I saw it. I guess what he feels right now should be a sense of accomplishment, right? After all, I, the one who wants to die, can cheer up and agree to hang out with him. I am the result of his work.

"Then you wait for me for a while, I'll pack up, and then we'll go out together."

"Okay." I agreed, sat down with him and waited quietly for him.

He lives in a small two-story house, and he receives patients who need consultation on the lower floor, so probably the upper floor is where he lives, right? Because I saw him walking upstairs, and this man has a big heart, so he is not afraid that I am a bad person, and if he dares to let me stay alone in his house, are I not afraid that I will lose something?

He came down quickly upstairs, and I saw him wearing a sportswear and a pair of travel shoes. Because of the casual dress, people look younger and more energetic. It's not like a middle-aged person, it's like a big kid.

When he stared at him, he seemed to be a little shy and said to me, "Why, don't you look good when you see me like this?" A little stunning? ”

I was amused by one of his jokes: "It's a little amazing." It's not just amazing, it's just a country and a city, Mo Shangren is like jade, the son is unparalleled, it's you, right? "I'm deliberately exaggerating.

"Don't say it, after listening to your words, I'm still quite useful, I don't think it's an exaggeration. Because there is a shih hat in the eyes of a lover. Maybe that's what I look like in your eyes. ”

It's all a joke anyway, so I didn't take it to heart either. Because in my heart, I will never fall in love again in this life, so there is no difference between seeing a man and seeing a woman. I don't think he's just a joker, and of course such a good person wouldn't think anything of someone like me.

Since you know that the other party doesn't have any ideas, it will be much more natural to talk. There won't be any other thoughts.

I just smiled at his joke and didn't answer. He said to me, "Would you like to go back and change your clothes?" I'll send you back with me. ”

"Forget it, even though there is nothing between us, and I don't want to live for anyone else, but if you send me back, I think someone in the village will gossip about me the next day. After all, people's words are terrifying, and you have to worry about a little, you are a man, you don't care, I still care a little, besides. I'm wearing jeans and travel shoes now, whether it's walking or climbing, it's quite convenient, so I don't need to change them at all. ”

After listening to my words, Teacher Yu looked at the shoes under my feet, nodded and said, "Yes, as long as it is convenient to walk, there is no need to change anymore, it is troublesome, and it will delay time to go back to change clothes." It's better to leave early. ”

After the two of us had decided, we were ready to go. As he was leaving, he asked me, "So where are we going first?" ”

"I don't know about that, because I've never been out before, so I don't know what's going on. It's up to you to decide. ”