The two of them made an appointment to meet. Xing Xinyue didn't have time to tour, chatting while walking. Chu Lingshan didn't understand what it meant, she just felt that the girl in front of her was very sincere, as if there was something wrong, and she couldn't find anything wrong, she always looked thoughtful.

Let you go shopping with a stranger, and please have something to eat at noon! It's kind of repaying you and getting acquainted. Chu Lingshan happily agreed.

Xing Xinyue told Chu Lingshan that she would leave the day after tomorrow, and when she was about to leave, she told Chu Lingshan everything about her, but she didn't say my name. I don't know why, I never tell others about myself, but now I don't hide anything about Chu Lingshan.

Asked Chu Lingshan, how are you now? Depending on the age, you should be married, do you have children?

Chu Lingshan hesitated for a moment, and under the influence of Xing Xinyue, her grief and anger turned into pear blossoms dripping onto her chest. Divorced a year ago. She has a child with her ex-husband, and now she is on her own. But everything is easy, at least no one beats her, scolds her, and she is slowly getting used to supporting herself alone, and now it's really a relief to think about it.

So did you have anyone else you liked before you got married? Xing Xinyue asked tentatively.

Chu Lingshan said frankly, there was once one, he loved me, I couldn't fully understand it at that time, I was still young and ignorant, I never told others, and I couldn't say it. Maybe I missed it, I was not willing to live, I would rather come out and find someone with good conditions to live, but it turned out that this is not the case. After so many years, it has been pressed in my heart, and if I can go back to the beginning, I will definitely not disappoint him. What are you talking about? It's all in the past. There's no going back, that's fate!

Are you still in touch? Why don't you tell him that maybe you're really destined!

Chu Lingshan smiled bitterly and did not answer. Then when are you leaving, can we still see each other?

Welcome to Shanghai to find me, we really have a fate, what is the name of that friend of yours, isn't he also in Shanghai? Maybe I know it!

Let's not talk about it, in such a big place, how can you say that you really know it! There are many things you can't think of. I'm going to book a ticket, I'll go back tomorrow, it's a pleasure to meet you, and I sincerely invite you to Shanghai.

Xing Xinyue, who returned to the hotel, rested for a while and booked a return ticket. Her heart was rolling, and her mind was full of Chu Lingshan, echoing her words and deeds, and her smile like a movie. As a woman, she can understand the pain and feelings of others, and the kind-hearted Xinyue is terminally ill, and she can sympathize with Chu Lingshan, who is also vulnerable. Because human beings have the heart to sympathize with the weak.

Life is like a magical magnet, there will always be attraction, there will be repulsion. The only thing you can control is your own choice, and you never distinguish between right and wrong. When you find that the path you choose is muddy, how do you know that if you don't choose this path, it will be flat!

Xing Xinyue made up her mind not to contact me, and I can clearly know her psychology, she doesn't want people to see her who is getting haggard day by day. My strong self-esteem kept me at bay with no end in sight. She didn't even want to show her unbearable pain in front of her father, and I doubt that no one could really enter her heart. Maybe the love is not deep enough.

Although she is very beautiful on the surface, has a good family background, has no worries about food and clothing, has a career she likes, and even does whatever she wants, I still feel very pitiful for her. Who can understand the pain in a person's heart! A person will never be whole, nor will he be perfect.

Xing Xinyue returned to Shanghai and went to the United States with her father, contacted a specialist in this area, and made a special trip for treatment. I was honored not to know about it, and it was not unusual for our relationship to actually live together after getting a marriage license and not having a wedding yet. I just felt like I was an outsider and hadn't really been able to step into her world. She must have been more painful than I was in this heart. The thought of her physical and inner pain made me feel powerless and heartbroken.

Love to the point of powerlessness. Heartbroken can't be on their own. I want to take the lead, but I don't know where the opponent is. There is no way to move forward, dazed and overwhelmed, but it can't and is not a bystander, and the kind of torment and heartache can only be experienced when you are in it.

After all, there are some things that you don't want to develop for good. An unprecedented loneliness envelops the already fragile soul, obscuring the sun without a single void, but you have to breathe because you are more than alone.

Without the slightest clue, I knew she didn't want to see me, but I couldn't stand still.

The sunset at dusk shone on the red horizon, and the curtain always ended with melancholy, and the afterglow was drunk and reddened. Resting in a style tavern, music can't drive away sadness but can help people drink. I hope I don't want to wake up when I'm drunk, I'm just lonely.

remembered that Xing Zhenyun said that his daughter would go back in the next few days, so he was not so worried. I guess I'm back now, and the deliberate avoidance has made me feel a lot that I'm an outsider, but I can't treat myself as an outsider to them.

I couldn't help but want to see Chu Lingshan several times, but I never made up my mind, I don't know what it means, what is the meaning? Maybe how many years of entanglement have never given up at all, thinking that the past is over, there is no past at all, afraid of really facing it, afraid of being left out again.

The more afraid you are to think of it, the more you will think of it, as the Buddhists say, there is nothing, and nothing is nothing. All the letting go is only a temporary let go, because there is no chance of intersection. It is impossible to live in vain time and miss every minute. Once you have the opportunity, how can it be as if nothing happened!

People have seven emotions and six desires, who can escape the shortness of this life and the contest between this emotion. When bad luck comes, it is never alone, it is all thousands of troops. I decided to go and see Chu Lingshan because I had never forgotten it.