It was raining heavily.

I dragged my suitcase and walked out of the train station.

From Shanghai to Yushan, I have never taken such a long train in my life, and it takes seven hours to train, and my back hurts.

Maybe the heavens also felt that the Han family's sins were unforgivable, and even punished me, so the weather didn't stop.

The person who came to pick me up didn't even bring me an umbrella, and my first reaction was to be angry, but then I also realized that I was no longer the high-ranking special assistant in Shanghai, and there was no Han family behind me to shelter me.

Until—Liu Xia hit the umbrella above my head.

For the first time in my life, a woman took the initiative to open an umbrella for me.

The umbrella is separated from the torture of the drizzle, and I don't have to get drenched in the rain, which is indeed much more comfortable, and it is not so cold.

After a few days of rain and rain, she couldn't burn paper for Qi Zijin, so she could only bring things for the burning sacrifice every time she came.

The weather was strange that day, and I didn't say a few words to Liu Xia, the sun came out, and it was still such a magnificent spectacle, and my mood was also soothed a lot with the golden sunshine.

That day, I also realized that I was clumsy and couldn't even burn paper.

It was Liu Xia who helped, and I knew how to light a fire in wet weather.

And then ...... The work in Yushan is getting smoother and smoother, and there are more and more intersections with Liu Xia and Liu Hui, and I also understand why Qi Zijin likes to mix with Liu Hui.

Because I, like Qi Zijin, like to contact Liu Hui.

Liu Hui is warm-hearted, but also a little confused, sometimes he can't deal with the contradictions with some units above, he will come to me to ask for ideas, sometimes he will say a few angry words, and then talk to himself, coaxing himself, making people laugh.

Working with Liu Hui is easy and pleasant, but I know that my eyes are always drawn by another person from time to time.

Liuxia.

A quiet and gentle woman.

When you tell or ask someone to do something, you always speak softly.

Liu Hui said that Liu Xia had attended a Peking Opera training class before, and later her family learned that Peking Opera was not easy to employ, so she obediently returned to school.

No wonder.

Although she was born in the countryside, her demeanor is very good, and she is even more dignified and polite than some celebrities in the imperial capital.

I don't know why I couldn't help but observe her, and even told her privately that I don't need to call me "Director Han" anymore, you can call me "Lin Feng" like a friend.

Of course, I also lied to her, the name "Lin Feng", only my family would call me that.

Liu Xia still minded being called that, and avoided me, and I could feel that she was deliberately distancing herself from me.

Actually, I really want to ask, when she and Qizi Jin first met, was she so restrained?

Thinking of the time when they met in front of the tomb of Qi Zijin before, Liu Xia called him "Zijin".

"Director Han" and "Zijin", you know the disparity as soon as you hear it.

I also thought about whether it was a bit immoral for me to have a different emotion towards Liu Xia.

Qi Zijin is my best friend, and Liu Xia is his girlfriend......

I'm also struggling.

But looking back, the deceased is gone, and Liu Xia will have to think about his future in the future, and maybe another man will participate.

Why, then, can't it be me who participates in her future?

But when I think about it, I think I'm a little bit of a self-righteous and self-deceptive old mistake.

Why do I think that if I want to, others must listen to me?

Maybe it's just my wishful thinking, and Liu Xia doesn't have any other thoughts about me at all.

Just like at the beginning, I didn't love Yan Yiyi, but I had to convince myself to love her.

I don't know how Han Ji managed to convince himself to "love" someone he knew he didn't love, even though I had given myself a lot of hints, but I still couldn't.

I tried my best to please her, to coax her, to pretend that I loved her, to try to fool her, and then to let her help me complete my grand plan.

But Yan Yili is also a smart person, and of course she knows what I really think.

She also knows that what I love is not her Yan Yiyi, but Yan Jianshe's daughter.

At that time, I was so confident that I felt that I could control Yan Yi in the palm of my hand, but now facing Liu Xia, I no longer have the confidence or conceit I had at the beginning.

Liu Xia can live better without me, on the contrary, if she and I are not clear, I will become a burden to her and cause her trouble.

It's not what I want to see.

Nowadays, I don't have to convince myself to "love" someone.

also gradually understood Han Ji's move to push Ai Zhiyin and Han Haoxuan away at the beginning, because it was out of instinct, for no reason, just didn't want the other party to get hurt, it was just like this, there was no other purpose.

In order to fulfill the long-cherished wish of praying for Zijin, I came to Yushan.

Now, I'm thinking about whether to stay in Yushan for the sake of Liu Xia.

But I was also deeply troubled, and I was afraid that my actions would cause her a lot of trouble and disturb her life.

I was going to tell her the truth about my intentions, but Liu Xia was smarter than I thought, and she, who had read all the joys and sorrows of life, seemed to notice my "abnormality".

She said that people like me who fly in the sky should not be pulled down by people like her, and then rolled into the dust and rubbed in mud.

And I want to say that at this moment, there is no longer that Han Chi flying in the sky.

There is not much difference between people, everyone is almost the same. It's just that class, family background, region, living environment, and means of production divide us, so don't think how great I am, and worship me on the altar, you must know that on the altar, there are not only "gods", but also "sacrifices".

And I have long been reduced to a "sacrifice" of some kind of struggle.

Now that the class is solidified, it is difficult to get the class jump without the blessing of the family.

My background only ensured that I would not fall to the bottom of society at a low point.

I don't need Lyuchara to pull me, I'm already covered in mud at this moment.

……

In just half a year, the road has also begun to be repaired, and the children's schooling has also been done by Qitan, including the problem of school bus purchase, which is basically determined, and everything is on the right track.

I finally realized my original intention of coming to Yushan immediately - to complete the unfinished business of praying for Zijin.

It's just that the Chinese New Year is approaching.

My mother called from the imperial capital and said, "Your second brother has come back to see me, and he is okay working over there, just ...... I thought that he and his bosom friend couldn't do it like this. I asked him to chase his bosom friend back, but he wouldn't. You're all so old, you can't always be single, can you? I advised your second brother not to look for another one, and he also turned his face with me. ”

I smiled and said, "Mom, don't worry about the second brother, he only has the second sister-in-law in his heart now." As for whether to chase it back, I think the second brother must have been moving, and it depends on when the second sister-in-law nods. But...... The second sister-in-law may not necessarily forgive him. ”

Mother sighed, "I don't care about him, anyway, there is already Haoxuan, so I don't worry about it." What about you? When are you going to get your wife done? ”

Me: "I don't have time to think about that." ”

It's a shame I lied.

Mother: "I used to think that if I was looking for a wife for you brothers, I must find someone with a very good family background, but now, ...... Our family itself is in tatters like this, and it's good if others don't laugh at us. You too, don't look at the master and the low, meet a similar girl, let's be together. ”

Me: "Yes. ”

Mother: "Hurry up, you are thirty-six, turning Chinese New Year's Eve thirty-seven, you think Haoxuan is almost ten years old." ”

Me: "Mom, don't worry, I can definitely solve my own business." ”

Putting down the phone, I also started to have a headache.

For marriage, I recognized Yan Yili from the beginning, although I rejected marriage, but I didn't think about being with others.

I've been stumbling all the way to now, and I'm confused myself.

I was thinking about it before, just don't get married.

But when I think of my mother saying that Haoxuan is ten years old, I can't help but sigh that Han Ji, who is the same age as me, has a ten-year-old son, which is really enviable.

If you hadn't gone your own way, you might ...... I will also have a ten-year-old child now.

Thinking of "child", I suddenly remembered that Liu Huixuan was able to serve a bowl of food by himself recently......