After learning that Yan Yili had jumped off the building in the imperial capital, I was shocked.

She tasted what love was, so she was sure that she and Han Ji were not in love.

Later, after Han Ji signed the divorce agreement, he gave me all his property that could be traced, and even the contract of the trust fund prepared by Han Haoxuan was given to me.

I suddenly understood Yan Yiyi a little.

Just after Han Ji signed the divorce agreement, the moment he showed a relieved smile, I seemed to understand what love is.

Of course, this love is Han Ji to me.

I'm not as ignorant of love as Yan Yiyi, so I'm bent on solving.

I gave up on love like a piece of paper, and I locked my heart and lust because of it.

When Han Ji did that, I suddenly realized a problem - Han Ji loved me.

He had said that he didn't want me to know some of his things, especially about property, to protect me.

I didn't believe it before, but now I do.

After the news of the divorce with Han Ji was exposed, everyone thought I would cry, after all, Han Ji was not in a romantic situation for a day or two, they always felt that I was the one who was heartbroken, and they all felt sorry for me, thinking that I would cry and grab the ground, and if I found someone, I would complain that I was not doing well.

But I let them down.

I took Han Haoxuan and went home very calmly.

And also very indifferently attended Han Haoxuan's parent-teacher meeting and various activities organized by the school.

At that time, even my mother thought that I should be in an emotional depression after the divorce, and I couldn't do anything, and she wanted to attend Han Haoxuan's parent-teacher conference for me.

But I didn't, and I was even the same as usual, taking care of the three meals at home every day and taking care of everyone in the family.

Everyone was impressed with me and thought I was strong.

But why am I strong?

Because if there is no desire, there is rigidity.

I married Han Ji in the first place so that the Ai family could stay in the imperial capital and not be kicked out.

Soon after marrying Han Ji, I achieved this goal.

My mother's family is in full swing, my in-laws are powerful, and my children are very obedient, which is already my dream life for me.

I don't have much to pursue in my career, I just want my family to have a smooth career because our interests are one.

The Ai family will always be my last confidence.

I can only be good if they are all good.

I have never been short of money to spend, to the point where the Ai family is here, money is no longer something we pursue.

Because as long as you want, you can get anything.

All I want is for the Ai family to continue to grow and grow, and no one wants their own family to decline.

Also, I can't go it alone, so I put the interests of the whole family first.

I'm sure I've made myself stronger.

But why did I become cowardly again?

Because I was unfortunate enough to fall in love with Han Ji.

Like Yan Yiyi, I tasted the sweetness of love, and gradually understood Yan Yiyi's choice.

Although I am a little late-sighted, looking back on the past ten years, it seems that life has not been as bad as I thought in my head.

At least Han Ji respects me, and all the things we used to get along with just didn't rise to the level of love or not, but it seemed that getting along with him had always been pleasant.

He was a gentleman and didn't quarrel with me, not even talking to me out loud.

When he was in bed, as he said, his service was mostly of a professional nature.

He said that this is a treatment that only wives can enjoy.

I was dismissive of this at one point.

But now I have to think about it.

It's just that my sanity can't make me accept him again so easily.

Just because you fall in love with him doesn't mean you can forgive him.

The damage he did to me is permanent, I can't forget it, and I dare not guarantee that in the future, I won't show his sharp fangs and hurt him completely like when I first learned about him and Kan Tong.

During that time, it was very bad between me and him.

It is the moment when the relationship has fallen to the freezing point since we got married.

He didn't feel good, and I didn't feel good.

But I always can't help but want to attack him, I want to tease him, I used to think that he hurt my self-esteem, but now it seems that he hurt my self-esteem and the heart that cares about him.

It turns out that at that time, I cared about him......

I'm also an afterthought.

At the funeral of my grandfather and Haojie, I looked at him from a distance, and at that moment, I inexplicably felt the urge to cry.

I can't say why.

I just think that our relationship may be a little colder than before.

Not because he's wrong again, it's not because of anything else, but ...... The direction of reality does not seem to allow any more possibilities between us.

We each embarked on a path from which there was no turning back.

I thought I could rationally take Haoxuan and continue to go down, but the moment I saw Han Ji being taken to the public security bureau by the police, my heart was extremely terrified.

I kept muttering to myself.

No way? Probably not...... But why did he give me and Haoxuan all the property that could be checked...... Could it be true? No, it shouldn't be......

My heart jumps back and forth between affirmation and negation.

In the end, it was concluded that he, probably not.

Because believe in Him.

This kind of faith is born out of nowhere.

Even if I don't have a relationship with him, I have been married to him for ten years.

For Han Ji, I still have my own intuition.

It's just that...... Han Ji was taken away, why did I panic......

I think I cared about him and was worried about him, so after he was taken away, I didn't act like the confident and calm Ai Zhiyin before.

It's just that at the time, I still didn't relate the fact that I had feelings for him.

It wasn't until later that he came to my house and said he was leaving.

When I heard him say that he was going to the island city, my heart suddenly felt like someone had been thrown into a boulder, and the person who smashed it was a little out of breath.

At that moment, I also wanted to ask him why he suddenly thought of going to the island city, and why he couldn't stay in the imperial capital......

But I found that it seemed that asking was to no avail.

Besides, we are divorced, and I am not in a position to ask him these questions again.

After Han Haoxuan left, I thought we were just saying two words, but I didn't expect him to confess to me.

In fact, when I heard his confession, my heart was not as calm as it seemed.

My heart is already turbulent, and I can only complain about heaven and make people.

After ten years of marriage, Han Ji didn't fall in love with me, but after the divorce, he fell in love with me.

If the relationship had happened earlier, maybe we wouldn't be so embarrassed by now.

He confessed, and I was upset.

I know, I probably have some feelings for him, too.

But I don't want him to know.

Because even if you know, you won't change anything.

And I don't want him to think that falling in love with him is the same as forgiving him.

It's just that...... There is still a long time in the future, so let all the grief be worn away by time.

I'm not sure what will happen in the future, but I can't forgive him at this moment.

At the beginning, the prodigal son who couldn't be tied with marriage, let him bind himself in the future.

If he can't do it, there is no need for me and him to talk about it later.

Love can be very romantic, but marriage must be the least romantic thing, from now on, I can have love with Han Ji, but I will definitely never have marriage with him again.