Chapter 158: After all, he is his own family
When Lin Yi heard this, he immediately felt ripples in his heart because of this word in Chu Hua's mouth.
And this touch made his thinking, which was already a little dull due to the pain, begin to become active at this moment.
After that, he suddenly got out of that state of infatuation, and when he came out, he stood up and pressed his hands on Chu Hua's shoulders excitedly, and kept saying, "Can I?" Am I eligible for this? ”
And when Chu Hua heard these words, the sour feeling in his heart became even stronger.
And once again he felt unfair about the man's situation.
He felt that Lin Yi obviously had such an amazing life, but he was still so helpless at this moment.
Even something that ordinary people think is ordinary is a luxury for him.
Lin Yi is a father, but he can't see his daughter because of various restrictions.
And as an ordinary person, because of those restrictions, he can only be trapped under this blue sky, except for a very small time, he will never be able to get out of this blue sky.
Therefore, Chu Hua can also understand Lin Yi's mood at this moment.
He could also understand why Lin Yi was so excited.
Chu Hua nodded immediately after hearing Lin Yi's words, and then said softly in a choked voice, "The doctor has already said that there is no problem, we can go out." ”
"However, the doctor also told me that it is best not to go out in terms of your body, but today is indeed a suitable weather to go out, and whether to go out or not depends on your own choice."
When Lin Yi heard this, he immediately nodded, and almost without hesitation, he began to find his coat.
Then he gave Chu Hua an eager look and motioned for him to follow him.
And when Lin Yi made this move, Chu Hua immediately understood Lin Yi's choice.
In his heart, he couldn't help but sigh again how empty and simple Lin Yi's heart was at the moment.
And he has been by Lin Yi's side all these years, in fact, he thinks he knows Lin Yi.
He felt that such a radiant genius definitely had lofty ambitions that ordinary people could not imagine, and some goals that ordinary people could not imagine.
That's why he has been driven step by step to his current position.
And he is also called the god of economy by the people in the circle.
But the more he went to the back, others found that Lin Yi's world was too simple.
And that's what drives him all the time.
He just wanted a future for his wife and daughter, and he never thought about his future.
So he doesn't have those lofty ideals and goals at all, and the only thing that supports him may be those two identities.
And at this moment, Chu Hua also confirmed his conjecture through Lin Yi's choice.
Lin Yi is indeed so.
Just like at this moment, he chose to see his daughter without hesitation.
Just like before, he didn't listen to the doctor's advice and rested. I still have to educate my daughter.
And the reason why he is bound by this restriction is only because he thinks that the price paid for going out is different, and it is not that his time is reduced, and it is very likely that his time will stop flowing completely.
That's why he never made that choice, and when he learned that today's outing might reduce his remaining time, but wouldn't stop his time, he would make that choice immediately.
So after thinking of this, Chu Hua couldn't help but start crying again.
It's just that when he followed behind Lin Yi, he could feel the heartfelt joy emanating from Lin Yi's body, so he was also trying his best to restrain himself.
Even if you keep crying, don't make a sound.
He felt that thinking of Lin Yi's mood would make his experience of going out this time worse.
And Lin Yi, who was walking in front, because the functions of his body were far inferior to before, he couldn't notice that Chu Hua behind him was crying silently because of him.
But when Lin Yi got in the car.
When he saw Chu Hua who got into the car with him, he still felt that Chu Hua's mood was a little low.
However, Lin Yi didn't ask Chu Hua why.
Because even if he couldn't guess the specific reason for Chu Hua's low mood, he could guess that Chu Hua must have such emotions because of himself.
And this picture he often saw after telling Chu Hua the secrets of his body.
So Lin Yi didn't think about anything in his heart at the moment, he was only thinking about one thing.
He said silently in his heart.
If he knew that he would treat Chu Hua as half of his family now, he wouldn't have told him about his body.
Maybe he shouldn't have been let follow him in the first place, and he should have kicked him far away.
But at this moment, Lin Yi thought of what the doctors had been telling him.
Although he hired the medical team on a day-by-day basis, which meant that the longer he lived, the more money those people would get.
But there are still some doctors who persuade him to stop all treatment because of his physical condition and enjoy the rest of his life to the fullest.
Then choose euthanasia when you can't stand the torture of illness.
But Lin Yi has always refused, and it is not only because he is infinitely pessimistic about the future of all doctors, but also a little optimistic.
More so because he doesn't think the final result matters.
The most important thing is the process in it.
If he chooses to die without pain, then he will not see the pictures he has experienced.
And he felt that these pictures, these experiences, although they made him painful and tortured, he still felt meaningful.
After all, the world after death is a void, and when the time comes, he can't even see these pains, these pictures, he can't feel them.
And just as Lin Yi was thinking.
Vehicles are also gradually moving into the city.
After entering the city, Lin Yi could clearly feel that his body seemed to be beginning to react slightly.
It may be because of the noise of vehicles on the road, which upsets him.
It may be because the air in the city is far less clean than the place where he is.
It may also be because of his complicated and uneasy mood at the moment, after all, he is about to see his wife and daughter.
So Lin Yi couldn't tell what kind of reason his body was reacting to.
But he didn't reveal this information.
He was afraid that after he told this information, Chu Hua, who was originally hesitant, would immediately change his mind in his heart.
Thus firmly and unequivocally let him return to the manor.
And Lin Yi was disdainful of anyone's orders, but Chu Hua was different.
Because after all, he is his own family.
So it was precisely because of this that Lin Yi did not tell Chu Hua about his body's reaction.
It's like a child who is afraid that because he told his family member that he was sick, he would be restrained and not allowed to play outside.
And Lin Yi also cares about Chu Hua.
So he didn't want to hear Chu Hua's nagging.
Since Lin Yi learned that his body had changed, he thought more and more things, and became more and more sentimental.
Thoughts are also becoming more and more complex, and emotions are becoming more and more difficult to control.
And as time passed, his body's various functions gradually declined, and he was obviously much faster in feeling the passage of time.
Sometimes he was a little stunned, and a long time would pass.
But Lin Yi felt that time seemed to slow down again at this moment.
He also had a thought in his heart that he hadn't had for a long time.
He wanted time to pass faster.
I want to make the vehicle faster.
He wanted to see his wife and daughter sooner.
It's right now.
Lin Yi, who was looking out the window, suddenly saw a middle-aged man who seemed to be a husband and wife.
At the moment they were spreading tarpaulins on the ground, and then began to take pieces of goods from their carts and put them on the ground.
After Lin Yi saw this scene, he suddenly felt a touch in his heart.
And this feeling is something he rarely encounters.
But it happened many times today.
Everything that had happened around him could barely touch him, and his heart gradually became numb.
But today he was touched many times.
At this time, the speed of the car slows down due to the onset of rush hour.
So Chu Hua on the side also noticed that Lin Yi had been staring out the window.
He couldn't help but be a little curious, after all, he had never seen Lin Yi care so much about one other thing.
When he saw this expression on Lin Yi's face, it was either because of his wife or because of his daughter.
So Chu Hua even had a conjecture, he thought that Lin Yiji saw his wife and daughter on the side of the road, so he had such a look.
But after Chu Hua followed Lin Yi's gaze, he found that the roadside was just a simple stall.
Except for the couple who set up the stall, their clothes were a little torn, and the things they sold were relatively old, and they didn't seem to be any different from the small vendors around them.
Therefore, Chu Hua couldn't understand for a while why Lin Yi was touched by this incident.
But when he saw the child next to the couple, the goods they had picked up with them, and the neatly arranged on the ground, he had a thought in his heart.
At this time, Chu Hua suddenly heard it, and Lin Yi on the side made a whimpering sound.
And when he looked over, he found that Lin Yi had tears running down the corners of his eyes at this moment.
Lin Yi was indeed touched by the little girl who was about the same age as her daughter.
Because in his eyes, when he saw the little girl, he thought of his own daughter.
Chen Chuxue once had such an experience, dirty, embarrassed, and at a loss for the future.
Lin Yi thought of this little girl's future at this moment.
And because this is the time for children of this age to go to school.
So Lin Yi also guessed that the little girl had to stop receiving education because of family reasons.
Therefore, Lin Yi seemed to see the future of this little girl.
Because in this era, although reading is not the only way to rise, it is also the biggest track for these low-level people.
It is also the most relatively fair track.
But because of her family background, this little girl even lost her qualification to step into this track.
He also thought about his daughter's past, and thought that his daughter might be in such a situation at the beginning.
So he couldn't help but feel a little afraid.
He was also extremely glad that he had cheered himself up at that time.
I'm glad that I made the decision to change the future of my wife and daughter.
Otherwise, even now he may be able to live a normal life.
But when he sees this in his life, he absolutely loaths and hates the former self.
And that feeling Lin Yi couldn't imagine how it would make him uncomfortable, and he didn't want to think about it, and he didn't want to experience it.
At this moment, Lin Yi was also more determined about the path he had chosen before and the choices he had made.
He will always follow this path, he will not change the trajectory of his life, and he will try his best to complete this road.
And at this moment, my family program group is on the scene.
The audience in the auditorium fell silent again because of this fragment of memory.
Especially when they saw Lin Yi's expression in the car.
And when he looked out the window at the family of three.
They seemed to have read the very deep thoughts that had been buried in Lin Yi's heart at this moment.
also vaguely felt what kind of decision Lin Yi made in his heart at this moment.
So after a brief silence, the audience began to sigh again because of this memory fragment.
"I didn't understand why Lin Yi was touched by the pair of vendors with children outside the window, but now I feel that I seem to understand because of the little girl that the pair of vendors carried."
"Lin Yi is probably because of this little girl's empty eyes, and although he is sensible and helping his parents and actively doing what he can, there is no light in her eyes."
So Lin Yi saw that at this moment, this little girl did not have any ideals in her heart, and she was very at a loss about her future, and maybe he thought of his daughter because of this little girl, and thought that his daughter might have become like this.
"Yes, this little girl doesn't have a school uniform on her body, and this is the time to go to school, she is not at school, but she is here, and she is setting up a stall with her parents to live."
"This proves that this little girl dropped out of school, and if their lives hadn't changed much, and his parents hadn't changed their minds, maybe the little girl wouldn't have had the opportunity to study."
"Then this little girl will become very miserable in the future, at least her life will be subject to a lot of restrictions and constraints, and many things will not follow her wishes."
And maybe Lin Yi has been insisting on helping his wife and educating his daughter in the days that followed, probably because he was touched by seeing this scene, he thought that his daughter would never have such a pathetic life like this little girl.