"Director, you are busy first, I'll go first!"

"Hmm......" the director nodded.

Xiaojia hurriedly walked out of the director's office and couldn't wait to call the phone, but she still couldn't get through. Send a message again, and the dialog prompts the other party to refuse to receive it. Xiaojia understands that she has been blocked by Qingying.

"Ah......h A colleague stepped forward and asked with concern, "Xiaojia, what's wrong with you, are you okay?" ”

Xiaojia stabilized her emotions for a while, and then said to the colleague, "Oh...... It's okay, it's okay. ”

The colleague said, "Oh...... It's okay, there's something to talk about. ”

"It's fine, don't worry. Go ahead and leave me alone. Xiao Jia endured the anger in her heart, smiled and comforted her colleague away, and then returned to the office alone. Xiaojia looked at her phone blankly, and on the phone was Qingying's last message to herself, only the indifferent four words: Don't read, goodbye! Xiaojia can't accept such a result, even if it is really fateful, it shouldn't be broken up in this way, let alone such an ending. Xiaojia's heart is 10,000 not understanding, 10,000 not accepting, 10,000 unwilling, 10,000 worries and questions!

On this day, Xiaojia spent it in a muddy nightmare. At night, Xiaojia stayed awake all night.

The next morning, Xiaojia hurriedly packed her backpack, called Taili to ask for a long vacation, and then went straight to the train station.

When she was checking the ticket and preparing to enter the station, Hao Lei rushed to the waiting hall, she grabbed Xiaojia and asked angrily, "Tang Xiaojia, what are you going to do?" ”

Xiaojia said, "Go find Qingying." ”

Hao Lei asked, "Where do you go to find it?" ”

Xiaojia said: "Go to her hometown to find it." ”

Hao Lei asked, "Is Qingying in her hometown?" ”

Xiaojia said, "I don't know. ”

Hao Lei asked: "I don't know if you are still going, so what if she is not in her hometown?" ”

Xiaojia said: "If I don't look for her in my hometown, I will look for her elsewhere, as long as I don't give up, I will always find her." ”

Hao Lei asked angrily: "Tang Xiaojia, why are you so stubborn." Qingying doesn't want to see you, what can you do if you find her? ”

Xiaojia said: "I don't want to do anything, I just need to ask to understand." ”

Hao Lei asked, "Ask what?" ”

Xiaojia said: "Ask her why she didn't say goodbye and why she treated me like this." ”

Hao Lei said: "Does it make sense? ”

Xiaojia said: "I have to ask whether it is meaningful or not, I have to know how I died." ”

"I won't let you go to ......" Hao Lei snatched the ticket from Xiaojia's hand, and then tore it to shreds.

"Hao Lei, are you crazy......" Xiao Jia opened her eyes angrily and asked Hao Lei, "Why did you tear up my ticket?" ”

Hao Lei said: "Anyway, I just won't let you go." ”

Xiaojia said, "Okay...... You...... It's useless for you to tear up my ticket, I can make up for the ticket again. I can't walk in the morning, I walk in the afternoon, I can't walk in the afternoon, I'll walk tomorrow. Hao Lei, you can't stop me. ”

"You ......" Hao Lei was angry and annoyed, and scolded loudly, "Tang Xiaojia, you bastard!" ”

Xiaojia said: "If you say a bastard, you will be a bastard, anyway, I have to leave today." ”

Hao Lei was anxious, she cried and said loudly: "Tang Xiaojia, you don't have to work in vain, Qingying will not see you again." She won't let you find her either. Qingying is already very difficult, so don't you pester her anymore, okay?! ”

"What?" Xiaojia grabbed Hao Lei's shoulders and asked eagerly, "Hao Lei, what do you mean by that?" Do you know where Qingying went, and why did you know why she left? ”

Hao Lei nodded reluctantly and helplessly.

Xiaojia asked, "Then tell me, where did Qingying go?" Why did she leave!? ”

Hao Lei said: "Tang Xiaojia, you go back first, and I'll go back and tell you slowly." ”

Xiaojia looked at the crowd that hurriedly entered the station and sighed deeply: "...... All right! I'll go back with you. ”

……

"Now, let's drink some water first!" Hao Lei poured a glass of water and put it on the table.

Xiaojia said, "I'm not thirsty...... Hao Lei, I'm also back with you, can I tell Qingying where she went now? ”

Hao Lei said: "What's the hurry, you sit down first, and I'll tell you slowly." ”

"Oh......" Xiaojia said impatiently, "what are you sitting, tell me quickly." I'm going crazy. ”

Hao Lei took a sip of water, and then rubbed the crystal clear glass with her hand. Silent.

"You mean...... Hao Lei! Xiaojia urged again.

Hao Lei was silent for a long time and said: "Actually, I promised Qingying not to tell you, but looking at your current state, if you don't tell you, I'm afraid you won't give up." Well, then I'll have to break my promise. Qingying: The two of us met before we were ready to leave......"

"What?" Xiaojia hurriedly asked, "You've met." ”

Hao Lei said, "Hmm...... Qingying invited me to the café that day, and we talked for a long time there. Qingying told me a lot about her past, and also about her relationship with you. Tang Xiaojia ......" Speaking of this, Hao Lei changed her words and asked, "How much do you know about Qingying, especially her past?" ”

Xiao Jia looked at Hao Lei for some reason and asked, "Hao Lei, what do you mean by this?" ”

Hao Lei said: "Don't ask me what I mean, just tell you how much you know about her." ”

Xiaojia thought for a while and said, "About Qingying...... I...... I still know a little bit, but what exactly are you referring to? ”

Hao Lei said: "It's about feelings. ”

Xiaojia said: "About the ...... feelings? As far as I know, Qingying never seems to have officially talked about a boyfriend since she was a child, or rather, she has never been in a relationship at all. ”

Hao Lei asked, "This is what Qingying told you?" ”

Xiaojia said, "Yes...... Yes! What's wrong? ”

Hao Lei said, "Don't you think it's strange? ”

Xiaojia asked, "Strange?" Strange what? ”

Hao Lei said: "Qingying is such a beautiful girl and is so good in all aspects, she is in her twenties, and her emotional world is blank, don't you think it's strange?" ”

Xiaojia said: "This ...... I've actually asked this before, but Qingying didn't answer me directly. Hao Lei! Is there anything you can say directly? Don't keep beating around the bush, won't you? ”

Hao Lei said, "Okay...... Then I'll tell you everything. Qingying hasn't been in love for so many years because she went through a terrible thing when she was a child, which left a huge shadow in her heart, so that she still rejects any contact with her from men. ”

"Something terrible?" Xiaojia asked in astonishment, "What terrible thing has Qingying experienced to her?" ”

Hao Lei bit her lip and said, "Qingying...... Qingying was sexually assaulted by a man when she was thirteen years old. ”

"Ah......?" Hao Lei's words undoubtedly exploded a thunderbolt above Xiaojia's head. Bits and pieces of the past all came to his mind. So many sleepless nights, Qingying's tears, Qingying's desire to speak and stop, Qingying's tenderness and rejection of herself...... And so on, these confusions left in my heart seem to have found the answer all at once. "Qingying ......" Xiaojia was almost crying, "Qingying, what has she experienced?" Which bastard is it? Which brute bullied her, I'm going to fucking kill him!! ”

Hao Lei said indifferently: "It doesn't matter who it is, it's all in the past." The important thing is that this incident is a nightmare that Qingying will linger for the rest of her life. She is afraid of contact with men, and she can't accept any man's intimate behavior towards her, not even holding hands and hugging. ”

"So that's ......" Now Xiaojia finally understands why every time she touches Qingying, she will dodge uncomfortably, and finally understands how much psychological concealment Qingying can overcome by accepting her hug. Xiaojia asked, "What about ...... Then why didn't she tell me all this, let me bear this with her. ”

Hao Lei smiled bitterly and said, "You stupid Tang Xiaojia!" How can she say these words as a girl. What's more, Qingying pays so much attention to her own image, especially the image in front of you. She doesn't want to spoil her image of purity in your mind. ”

Xiaojia said: "No...... Qingying is of course pure, all this is not her fault, she is a victim, how can she not be pure?! Don't...... Is it for this reason that she left me without saying goodbye? ”

"Hmm......" Hao Lei nodded, and then continued, "Qingying also tried to overcome this obstacle in her heart for you, but she failed. Qingying feels that she can't give you perfect love, let alone a normal love life or even a married life. So she opted out. Hehe......" Speaking of this, Hao Lei smiled self-deprecating and helplessly, she said, "Qingying also told me to take good care of you when she left, she said that we are more suitable, let me help you forget her." But we all know that this is not possible. And that's exactly what happened. ”

"Hey......" Hao Lei sighed softly and continued, "Okay, the words that I have held in my heart have been spoken, and my heart is much more comfortable." I just feel so sorry for Qingying. Tang Xiaojia, when Qingying left, she specially told me to stop me no matter what, so that you don't go to her. She really doesn't want you to go to her, and she doesn't want you to disturb the peace of her family. Qingying hopes that it is best to let this end all this in a shallow way, without arguing, without quarrel, and leaving each other with something to remember. Okay, this is the truth of Qingying's departure, you can choose for yourself where to go. ”

…… Xiaojia stood up, walked to the window, and stared blankly at the sky outside the window, where a flock of small birds were flying happily. "Hao Lei, do you know where Qingying went?"

Hao Lei shook her head and said, "I don't know...... She didn't tell me, I didn't ask, she just said she was going to a far away place, and she said that there were dreams to wait for in that place. ”

"Okay...... Xiao Jia said with a gloomy expression, "Hao Lei, I'm a little tired, so I'll go back first." ”

Hao Lei asked with concern: "Xiaojia, are you okay?" ”

Xiaojia smiled lightly and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine." ”

Hao Lei asked cautiously: "Then do you still want to find Qingying?" ”

Xiaojia shook her head and said, "Don't look for it, since she doesn't want me to go to her, then I will respect her opinion." ”

Hao Lei said: "You can think of the best...... Life must go on, and some people are destined to be just passers-by in our lives. ”

"Hehehe......" Tang Xiaojia smiled infinitely sadly, then turned around and left in great stride.