Shen Xixun's head was groggy.

After falling asleep, she had a lot of dreams, and many fragments that could not be spliced together were like fragments, making people confused.

She couldn't remember why she was crying in her dreams, she was very sad, she couldn't stop being sad, she was really choked.

By the time she woke up again, it was already the next day.

She was in a trance for a moment before she could see where she was.

She was lying on the big bed in Xichen Mansion, her brows furrowed slightly.

"What's going on? Why am I here?"

"I went to pick you up at Shen's house, you have a fever and just retreated." Lu Zhan sat aside and said.

"Shen Hao......"

"I know, he was cremated today, do you want to go?" Lu Zhan asked.

Shen Xixun choked in his throat and shook his head gently.

"It turns out that this is all true, I woke up in Xichen Mansion, and I thought it was a dream."

"He walked away without any pain, it was a relief for him."

"He's good to me."

Shen Xixun said that his gaze moved elsewhere, not wanting tears to fall.

Lu Zhan gently stroked Shen Xixun's head and said softly, "If you want to cry, cry out."

Shen Xixun continued to shake her head, she didn't want to cry anymore.

This is Shen Hao's choice, he must not want her to cry like this.

"Over the years in the Shen family, Shen Hao has been quietly guarding me. We didn't talk much, but he didn't talk much to everybody, so it seems that what he said to me was a lot." Shen Xixun thought of something in his mind and laughed lightly.

"He cares about you. By the way, his death hit your adoptive parents hard, and I went to pick you up yesterday to see that they are in a bad state."

"Shen Hao grew up in the palm of their hands, at this moment, Shen Hao said to leave, they definitely can't accept it."

"He's just a different form to protect you, like the brightest star you can see in the middle of the night."

"The day before yesterday, we went to Xiyuan for dinner, I wanted to ask him, but the words came to my mouth and I took it back, if I asked and looked for him, maybe it wouldn't be like this."

"All the results are not a thought, Shen Hao has also been premeditated for a long time, and it doesn't matter if you look for him the day before yesterday." Lu Zhan comforted Shen Xixun.

Shen Xixun sighed, at this moment, even if she blamed herself, she couldn't get anything back.

"Are you hungry, get up and get something to eat?"

Shen Xixun still shook his head.

It was as if she couldn't say anything other than shake her head.

She closed her eyes, ready to lie down for a while.

Shen Hao's death made her really feel that the living people had completely left her side, real and illusory.

The private doctor looked at Shen Xixun again, and there was no big deal.

As soon as Shen Xixun lay on the bed, he lay down for another three days.

In the past three days, she has been maintained by nutrient solution, and Lu Zhan, who is not superstitious, even found the master of Lingyin Temple to show her.

Three days later, Chu Chu came to Xichen Mansion.

She sat next to Shen Xixun and said, "Xunxun, I've heard everything. Brother Shen Hao is gone, you are still alive, you don't want to go with him, do you?"

Shen Xixun heard Chu Chu's voice and was provoked by her to cry without tears.

"Since you don't want to go with him, you should take care of yourself, so that you can go to see him every year during the Qingming Festival and the Spring Festival, talk to him about your heart, and burn more money for him, otherwise what will happen to the flowers he doesn't have below? You can't watch the eldest young master of the Shen family suffer from poverty, right?"

Shen Xixun was so amused by Chu Chu that he was sad and wanted to laugh.

"But I don't think it's true." Shen Xixun said.

"When my mother died, I didn't think it was true, and until now, after so many years, I don't believe it." Chu Chu shrugged, and there was a flash of sadness in his eyes.

"I'm fine."

"Then you get up, eat, do you know how much Lu Zhan worries about you, look at him, you haven't eaten or drunk for the past three days, and he can't eat."

Shen Xixun propped up his arms and said, "I'll get up."

"Gotta you." Chu Chu said, and picked Shen Xixun out of bed.

"I always feel that I have no feelings for the Shen family, I have told myself before that one day Shen Songyan and Fu Naiqiu are going to die, I will not shed tears. At this moment, I was so sad that Shen Hao was gone. Shen Songyan and Fu Naiqiu are his own parents and parents."

"What about my parents."

"Yes, what about my parents and my parents." Shen Xixun thought of Lan Xingkai and Bai Wanjun, and couldn't help laughing at himself.

"Shen Hao grew up in the palm of their hands, and he is still unhappy, why do you say that?"

"Don't think about it, you're not him, you don't know why he's unhappy."

Shen Xixun changed his clothes and went downstairs with Chu Chu.

Lu Zhan raised his eyes and saw Shen Xixun coming downstairs, so he immediately came over to hold her shoulder and said, "Chu Chu still has a way to invite you down."

"Can't stand her nagging." Shen Xixun said deliberately.

"Yes, yes, I nag, my nagging is worth a lot, others want me to nag, but not yet."

Shen Xixun finally smiled.

On the seventh day of Shen Hao's first seven, she went to see Shen Hao.

She also finally understood why there were photos on the cemetery, if not, I was afraid that after a long time, she would not be able to remember what the other party looked like.

Just like now, just a few days, Shen Hao has become what she imagined in her mind.

It wasn't until he saw the photo that Shen Xixun sighed softly, it turned out that Shen Hao looked like this.