Lin Hua thanked Chunhong, she was in a hurry, and she had no choice but to come to the cold rain and the wind in the evening......

After the high school entrance examination, it was the seventh month of the solar calendar, and there was a lot of work in the rural fields. Xiao Yi has a lot of land at home, his father is sick again, he and his brother are busy hoeing grass in the field all day long, waiting for the news of the high school entrance examination, and at the same time thinking about their beloved Liu Yun.

One evening, the head teacher sent an admission notice, saying that he was not admitted to the first middle school by three points, and if it was a freshman, it would be enough, and he was admitted to the eighth middle school. Xiao Yi briefly asked about the admission situation of the next middle school, basically they are repeat students, and the places given by ordinary township middle schools are small, and it is too difficult for new students to be admitted to the first middle school. Xiao Yi took the notice, the first thing that came to mind was Liu Yun, he wanted to tell her immediately, listen to her opinion and the future plans of the two, didn't have time to eat dinner, changed his clothes and rode a bicycle and went out.

Xiao Yi has been to Zhenzhuang many times, and the location of Liu Yun's house is very familiar, just at the head of the village, he doesn't dare to go directly to her house. At this time, it was already dark, he parked his bicycle on the side of the road, and quietly walked outside the courtyard wall of her house, the courtyard wall was not high, just enough to show half of his head, he saw the lights on in the north house, it should be eating, but what to do next? When he was thinking about it, Liu Yun came out of the door, he was so excited that he forgot to say hello for a while, Liu Yun didn't know if it was telepathy or heard movement outside before coming out, and shouted "Who" twice and went back to the house. Xiao Yi regretted it for a while, why didn't he have the courage to shout out and stop her? If there was another chance, he would definitely call her, but he waited anxiously for more than half an hour, but the opportunity never appeared again, and Xiao Yi had to return in a huff.

The admission notice required that the registration time was very tight, Xiao Yi hesitated, he still wanted to find Liu Yun again, and wanted to be together whether he was in high school or reviewing, but his mother took into account the actual situation at home and insisted on letting Xiao Yi go to the eighth middle school, dispelling his idea of wanting to repeat again, he thought about it and finally had to accept it.

Xiao Yi looked down on the eighth middle school in his heart, he felt that it was a shame not to be admitted to the first middle school, and he felt sorry for Liu Yun, which he identified as a failure in the high school entrance examination, and identified it as the goal of taking the test with Liu Yun was not achieved, and this idea was very strong in the first semester of high school, especially after learning that Liu Yun went back to resume classes, which made him feel even more shameless to face Liu Yun, in order to create a quiet review environment for her, he decided to try not to disturb her and let her review with peace of mind. At the same time, he also secretly determined that he would study hard in high school, learn a way, and then go to her, he firmly believed that the relationship between them would not change, Liu Yun would wait for him, and would wait for the day when he succeeded or succeeded together, because he once swore that if he had a good future in the future, he would never change his mind. How did he know that this was all his own thoughts, in the emotional world of two people, unilateral conclusions without communication are often self-righteous, not to mention that they are still so young, and everything is variable.

With a new environment, new teachers, new classmates, and new courses, Xiao Yi officially started his high school life, but Liu Yun was missing from his side.

Xiao Yi's entrance score is the second place in the class, and he is enthusiastic and positive, and he was elected as the class president soon after he entered the school, but he didn't care much about these, and the failure of the high school entrance examination stung himself from time to time, reminding him not to be emotional, to focus on the overall situation of his studies, and to give himself and Liu Yun a chance, but he couldn't suppress his thoughts about Liu Yun, not in his free time, but most of the time, thinking about the person he thought about for a long time, he tried to use Qin Guan's words to motivate himself: If the two love for a long time, How could it be in the morning and twilight, but the actual feeling is in line with Li Qingzhao's words: there is no way to eliminate this feeling, so I frowned and went to my heart......

Once in a dream, he dreamed that he was walking on the road with Liu Yun, the road was very long, there was no end, Liu Yun didn't drive him back again, they just kept walking, talking and laughing, they were so happy...... When I woke up, I still had a lot of aftertaste, and I was in a good mood, and I felt how good it would be if it were reality. Even so, he still stubbornly insisted on not contacting Liu Yun, not asking, not writing, let alone going back to see him, he deliberately closed himself, thinking that this would allow him to get rid of this contradictory state of mind, but he didn't expect that a small message would change his obsession.

One night, Wei Jing, who was also admitted to the eighth middle school, came to Xiao Yi and handed him a letter, saying that it was written to her by Liu Yun and wanted him to read it! Xiao Yi took the letter, returned to the classroom and couldn't wait to open it, read it word by word, and felt that this letter was written to him, and the scene described in Liu Yun's letter kept coming to mind:

...... Dear Xiaojing, I heard that you all went to No. 8 Middle School, and I want to go too, but my family won't let me, so I can only come back here to review...... The environment here is suffocating, but there is nothing you can do to change it...... Now I am no longer so carefree, more like a small grass in the desert, where I am alone......

Seeing this, Xiao Yi couldn't suppress the thoughts in his heart, what so-called persistence, what obsession with success, all of them were left behind, he decided, he wanted to go back, to see Liu Yun, to see the person who worried him......

No. 8 Middle School and Junior High School are in adjacent townships, more than 10 kilometers apart, after school at noon on Saturday, Xiao Yi went home to put down his things and rode his bicycle to the junior high school, he knew that the junior high school would only be released after two classes in the afternoon.

There is a drill on the playground outside the junior high school, and it has been more than four months since I left here, and everything is still so familiar. Seeing him come back, the classmates he knew came over to make a noise. While talking and laughing, he saw Liu Yun walking past the crowd with a solemn face, Xiao Yi felt that she should have seen him coming, and felt a little uneasy.

After school, Xiao Yi didn't go over to look for Liu Yun, but went to wait for her on the way home. After a while, Liu Yun and several other female classmates rode over together, and when he was about to stop her, she had already seen him, so she got off the bicycle and pushed the cart over.

"Why are you here?" Liu Yun asked.

"Come and see" Xiao Yi smiled, deliberately looking relaxed, not at all like a reunion after a long absence.

"How was your life in high school, I heard that you were the class president?" Liu Yun pushed the bicycle forward, Xiao Yi also pushed the bicycle to catch up, and the two walked side by side.

"It's okay, that's it." Xiao Yi still seemed careless, pushing the bicycle and leaning towards Liu Yun.

"Don't squeeze me" Liu Yun was obviously unhappy, and pushed two tightly, opening up the middle distance with Xiao Yi.

Xiao Yi's heart tightened: What's wrong? I haven't seen each other for a long time, and the two people are estranged?

There was silence for a while, as if the two were thinking about something, or looking for the next topic......

This is the road they used to walk together, Xiao Yi knew that the road back to Liu Yun's house was still long, and he didn't seem to care too much.

After walking for about two hundred meters, the two chatted a few words, Liu Yun never had a smile, Xiao Yi felt the solemnity of the atmosphere, but he didn't come up with a solution for a while. When he arrived at a fork in the road, Liu Yun stopped the car and said coldly: "I'll go home from the road ahead, you can go back too!" ”

Xiao Yi was stunned for a moment, he originally wanted to have a good chat today, although the atmosphere was not good at first, he felt that he was slow to heat up, and he believed that it would get better after a long time, but he didn't expect Liu Yun to not give him a chance, the two had such a good relationship, even if they were awkward, they had never quarreled, this was the first time she had treated him like this, and she didn't want to stay with him for a while when she came to see her from afar, did she think that she hadn't contacted her for so long, she had changed her mind, was this to break up with herself? In an instant, the pain of failing the high school entrance examination, the pain of lovesickness, the unexpected meeting scene, etc., made him have mixed feelings, and he was speechless for a while, tears unconsciously welled up in his eyes, he didn't dare to look directly at Liu Yun, he has always played the role of a strong man, especially in front of Liu Yun, I am afraid that I will not be able to control my emotions if I go down again, how can I let her see her tears, and then choked up and said, "I'm leaving, you study hard in the future!" After riding for more than 100 meters, he stopped, wiped a few handfuls of tears with his hands, and rode home with remorse and regret......

Seeing this side, Xiao Yi thought that although Liu Yun did not make it clear to him, it was almost the same as breaking up, because he believed in love at first sight, believed that the two were happy, did not confess at the beginning, and did not need to be so clear at the end, everything was clear in his heart. He began to regret himself, thinking that it was all caused by his stubbornness, not explaining the situation, not contacting her, it would make her misunderstand, it would make her sad, and finally led to the end of the breakup of the two.

In the winter of that year, the weather was often gloomy, sometimes as long as more than half a month, and it was also reflecting Xiao Yi's mood, one by one pictures appeared in his mind, what remained unchanged was the breakup conclusion in his heart, he once felt that he was a person who could take it and put it down, but he became so pale and powerless in the face of reality.

Many years later, Xiao Yi often recalled this paragraph, blaming himself for being young and ignorant at the time, not understanding the girl's mind, he went to the eighth middle school and didn't tell Liu Yun, and didn't contact her after going to high school, Liu Yun was angry, and what he said was angry, if he could bear to coax him and explain his thoughts, maybe it would be another ending, but the hairy boy back then, with low emotional intelligence, stupid mouth, was in that situation at that time, how much he could see clearly, how much he thought, he would only take it seriously.