At the lunch table, I calmly answered my father's inquiry.

The poisonous tongue dad took a sip of wine with satisfaction and didn't speak again, of course, my mother praised me immediately as always,

"Look at my son, since he was a child, I have seen this child to be different, he can understand everything, and he can change it. We can find anything, and let your sister introduce you in two days. ”

My sister didn't speak, but just looked at me thoughtfully, with a look of wanting to say something. Eldest sister, please continue your performance, I will cooperate with the play, but I have reservations about your character.

I had an epiphany after letting go of love. It turns out that love is also a practice, and if you let go, you will become an immortal. Nothing matters anymore, laughing at the ups and downs, the ebb and flow, the success or failure is just a flower in the water, a dream, these familiar truths, I really understand now. When people come to the world, they are cultivated through tribulations, and the Buddha's "letting go" and "emptiness after all" is the end of liberation, which is all the realization I have exchanged for love.

"You can push off my recent performance schedule," I said to Han Dongxu as I walked, "I'm tired of writing scripts and reciting lines every day, so let's take a break." ”

"Okay boss, but are you alright? Why don't I accompany you to the grassland to relax? No, let's go hiking the mountains or go to the beach. Daxu immediately changed his words.

Of course, he knew that "steppe" should not be mentioned again. It is no longer a place where dreams began, and revisiting the old place can only reminisce about the sinkhole that I once encountered, a big pit that opened love and was buried halfway.

"I'm fine, you underestimate your brother too much, my current practice is just a Zen staff away from becoming a Buddha, hehe."

"I don't think you're close to becoming a Buddha with a Zen stick, but a dog-beating stick in the hands of a beggar, right? It's no longer a show, don't you think it's time to go out and beg for some food? After all, you can only eat without spending money, and the Buddha will be hungry and faint if he doesn't eat for a long time, hahaha. ”

"Haha, what second senior brother? The master's robe and bowl have been stolen by the monsters, and the senior brother will blame you when he returns. "I also tease him, it is enough to have a confidant in life.

I've had a really comfortable week, and I don't have to worry about anything anymore. I don't feel hungry if I don't eat, I don't feel pain when I bump into it, it seems that I am really empty after all. I'm complacent, this Dao is all effortless, I get and get the Dao, I'm really born with wisdom. I started to communicate with myself, the world is a mess, wouldn't it be nice to play with myself, I won't hurt anyone, and I won't be hurt by anyone.

"Qiaozi, my buddy has opened a homestay by the sea, let's go play and stay for a few days?" Han Dongxu asked me on the phone.

"Yes." I replied very happily, because these days, I communicate so much with the other self who lives in my heart that I have nothing to say. After all, we have too many things in common, and we don't hide from each other, so it's not easy to understand. My best buddy suggested a change of environment, and of course it was fine. Daxu is the same as the me who lives in my heart, we will never hurt each other.

Now the traffic is really convenient, the mobile phone navigation is like a tiger with wings, and it takes more than three hours to get to the homestay by taking the highway. This B&B is really nice, close to the coastline, and you can hear the sound of the waves when you lie in the house.

"This is Qiaozi, this is Damin, and the owner of this homestay." Daxu introduced the two of us.

"Hello! Damin"

"Hello, it's hard work on the road, hehe, welcome the two to come and guide, enter the house and say, come, come" Damin is very polite, and at first glance he is a boss who can do business.

"How's business going?" After we all sat down, Han Dongxu asked.

"Generally, there are not many people who take a bath in autumn, they all come to the beach for leisure and vacation, eat some seafood or something, so there are not many people."

"Oh, there were a lot of people that weekend, right?"

"Yes, business is good on Friday and Saturday"

I have no intention of interjecting when I see them chatting, because I am very tired of talking, I have to open my mouth, and it takes a lot of time to listen, so I might as well go to the beach for a walk, and I should exercise my body. Because if I have attained enlightenment, I will go to heaven or Elysium, after all, the road is far away, and I still need a certain amount of physical strength. I sat on the sofa and began to wander, reverie was full of joy, it was better to be happy than to be happy, why should I ask others for what I could do.

At dinner in the evening, they drank vigorously. I had no interest in drinking, so I went back to the house early to lie down.

The waves crashed against the sand, and they hit my eardrums and my heart.

"If you come with Tian Yan, then this beach must not be left, and there are thousands of happy footprints." I was taken aback by the thought.

"I haven't thought about her for a week, what's the matter with you now? You crossed the line, you know? "The one in me is questioning me.

"Didn't Tian Yan and I say that we should be good friends, I think about friends, isn't it right?" I explained to the one in my mind that I was still quite adaptable.

"Oh, then you're doing the right thing, think about friends, of course you can."

I really didn't expect the one in my heart to be so easy to deceive.

"Thank you for understanding me so much, and for reminding me that I did the right thing." I still have to praise that me, who knows when I have to lie to him, I have to have a good relationship.

The next day, I didn't feel anything about the speedboat or motorboat, after all, I was also a quasi-layman. The prosperity of the world passed in a blink of an eye, and if I frowned, then I would have failed in my cultivation. But when I paid the 500 yuan boat fare, I suddenly felt a stab in my heart and it hurt, but this was definitely not because I failed to cultivate and felt sorry for money. I think maybe the boat was too fast, the wind blew my heart out, and it was sluggish, so I didn't react until now.

In the afternoon, I went fishing with Daxu and Damin. I was a little hesitant when I hung the fish food, should I hang it? Jiang Ziya is a straight hook, and I, a self-styled quasi-layman, use a curved hook, and I have fallen behind in the reserve of the gods for a short time. Let's just watch them fish, so that I don't look different, and I can have more time to appreciate, what is the autumn water and the same color.

After watching the waves and looking at the white clouds, and then looking at the seagulls flying up and down between them, I turned my head and watched these two buddies fishing for a while. Suddenly I understood, why did Jiang Shang's daughter-in-law want to divorce, do you have a little sincerity in fishing with a straight hook? Do you think a fish's mouth is a vice? Even if the fish wants to volunteer for you, how can its mouth have such a strong bite force and be lifted up when it bites a needle? Ziya, you are purely going to work and fishing, and you are all formalistic, so who can pay you a salary, how can you support your wife and children without a salary, can people not leave you. The poor family followed the wrong person, divorced in his 60s, but he couldn't get a cent of youth loss fees.

It was almost seven o'clock after dinner in the evening, and I went to the beach alone. Those pure self-cooked sea breezes, constantly teasing my dark hair behind my back, even the cute clothes and pants, were also encouraged by it like a pregnant woman, if it weren't for my lips closed, I see that they even dare to kiss my teeth, wouldn't they be able to tell the male from the female? Or are these sea breezes all female? When I walked back, they dared to stand up to me, and occasionally forced me to pause, and I fought them with relish, and I felt as if I had rejuvenated.

Suddenly a thought came to me,

"You boring sea breeze, since you have nothing to do, why don't you go and see for me, what is Tian Yan doing now?"

"What are you trying to do?" The one in my heart I immediately interrogated me vigilantly.

"You can't care" I feel like I'm gradually losing patience with the one in my heart, he always listens to the wind and rain, and worries about the sky.

As the night fell, the air began to cool. The place at the junction of the sea and the sky in the distance, it seems full of temptation in the darkness, people say that they are painful and happy, why don't I feel the cold and be happy today, and by the way, I can also explore what the temptation in the distance is. Thinking of this, I walked step by step towards the sea against the waves, and now it must be at low tide, because I have walked a long way, and the sea water has not reached my little belly.

Some of the chilly waves had already wet my shirt, so that they fit well and tightly wrapped around the master's body. And the owner of the clothes, gently gritting his teeth and enduring the cold, continued to move forward with a yearning for mystery, while the coast behind him was gone.

At this point, my mind seemed to be thinking about something, and it seemed to be full of blanks, and at the same time, it seemed a little involuntarily, constantly moving into the distance. After a while, I couldn't go any further, because the water was up to my neck.

The pressure of the sea made my heart and lungs feel constrained. With the help of buoyancy on my tiptoes, I jumped out of the sea with ease, and although I didn't have to fall high out of the sea, I felt very relaxed. I kept jumping just to experience this fleeting happiness, because this happiness has no spirit, no desire, no root, no source.

But the dark temptation in the distance has been hidden farther and darker because of my approach. I began to wonder, what the hell is it hiding in so dark there? Or black is its protective color, it just wants to be alone.

Suddenly I was terrified, because I had to keep standing on my tiptoes to get to the ground and keep my mouth out of the water. And I found that I couldn't make out the direction anymore, and there was a black curtain all around me, with only the occasional bright spot flickering in between.

It's high tide, it's definitely high tide, but in which direction is the coast?

In an instant, my cultivation and concentration were gone, because from head to toe, I felt like an empty shell, an emptiness that I had never had before occupied my mind. Whatever this puts down, what is empty, go to you. I have to live, I still have parents to support, I haven't married and have children, I still have the people I love the most.

Death had never been so close to me, and I felt like I could hear its gasps. After I came to my senses, fear began to spread from my heart to my limbs, Yan, what should I do, how can I go ashore?

"You look around in the distance and see which direction has the most mottled points of light, where is the shore. Now stretch your arms out and slide back in a straight line with your shoulders, while your toes touch the ground and move in the direction with the most points of light. Don't ski too hard, or you'll get stiff and weak quickly, and then you'll be able to move slowly with the thrust of the rising tide. ”

I settled down and started immediately, because I didn't have time to think about it anymore. I struggled to breathe through my mouth while my hands and feet glided slowly. After a while, although you still have to stretch your toes to touch the ground, it shows that you are moving in the right direction. Otherwise, if I had walked in the wrong direction at high tide, the sea would have submerged me.

Although I know a little breaststroke, I have frozen shoulder, and my arms become stiff when I swim about 10 meters, so I don't dare to swim in the right direction. But if I hadn't had this foundation, I'm afraid I would have been blinded a long time ago, and how could I have the courage to look for any mottled light in the distance.

After a while, my feet were finally free from tiptoeing. It's so comfortable to feel all the soles of my feet on the ground, and it's no wonder that people always say, who is born and raised, because soil is the root, and I will never leave the root that Mother Earth gave me. When my shoulders were still out of the water, I heard my name faintly coming from the sound of the waves, it must be Han Dongxu shouting, who else in this place will call me.

I was drenched, dripping sea water all the way to Damin's homestay, and of course, accompanied by the roar of Daxu beside me,

"You shitty calf is going to scare me to death, your mother sees that you are messy every day, and asked me to take you out to play and relax, but you almost lost your life, you want to kill me, you calf." Han Dongxu was quite scary when he started a fire, and his eyebrows stood up.

"Who knew that the tide would suddenly rise while walking, and I was almost scared to death." My mouth instinctively excused.

"You still know that you are afraid of death, I also count that you have completed your cultivation and returned to the West, but if you want to return to the West, don't bother me, how can you let me explain to your family."

"It's so easy for me to pick up my life, Daxu, you still say that about me, then we must discuss Buddhism."

"You can pull it and discuss it, don't be angry with me, shut up, please." Daxu's anger has not subsided.

"Don't be angry, listen to me, what do you say I belong to, I strictly abide by the teachings of all evils and all good, even if you die, you will go to heaven, you people don't even understand the true meaning of worshipping the Buddha." I've completely shaken off my fear and have smoothly entered the normal bar raising mode.

"Cut, if you know, you should know that Buddhism is to go to the West Heaven in Elysium, and Heaven is the destination of Christianity, big brother."

"Brother, you don't understand this, Western Bliss and Heaven are connected, and there is no limit to communication. If you think about it, the people who live on it are all great gods and immortals, and the entire high-speed rail allows them to interconnect, is this still a thing. ”

The highest level of lifting the bar is to ignore it and lift it hard, and if you can't lift it, you have to lift it if you can't find a stick, and the happiness of lifting the bar is a spiritual victory rather than reasoning. I'm a stewed pig's head now, and I'm left with a good set of teeth. This part of the mouth, I want to love it when I die.

"A few days ago, you looked like you were enlightened every day, and when you opened your mouth, you got the Tao from what kind of wisdom and bad roots, so when you encountered the test of life and death just now, how did you know that you were afraid of death?"

"Hey, it was just now, and now it's now. I'm now reborn in Nirvana, I know no, I still have a lot to do in my life, and when I'm done, I'll go to Elysium. ”

"It's also Nirvana reborn, I think it's just that your teeth have been reborn and become iron and copper teeth, and you are Ji Xiaolan."

I'm such a generous person, Daxu obviously buried me a little more, but I endured it and didn't get angry, who made my cold teeth tremble and make my mouth hard, and I won't take this matter to heart at all, I'm not a person who will repay me.