In the third year of high school, drinking coffee and eating instant noodles, sitting in the city built by rolls, sleepless until the third watch in the middle of the night, I was also confused and painful......

The most regrettable thing when I was a student was probably that I didn't read books well, and the people I liked couldn't be together, and I couldn't live the way I wanted.

The most regrettable thing about Xinghe is that he hasn't seen Beisheng once!

The college entrance examination is approaching step by step, in other words, it is Xinghe who is moving towards freedom step by step, she is more excited and looking forward to it in the face of pressure, in fact, the mood of more than 20 days away from the college entrance examination, it is false to say that it is not complicated, but Xinghe has already thought about it, whether there is a future or not, "going out" is the future she wants, no matter whether Beisheng goes to the appointment or not, she must see Beisheng.

"I hope you are the last person, but the annual ring and youth can't bear to recognize each other, one lamp and one city to find a person......" The day before the college entrance examination, Xinghe, who lived alone in a hotel near the test center, saw a strange call, I didn't know whether to answer it, I hesitated, but I still picked it up, the other end of the phone did not speak, Xinghe habitually said "Hey", "Hey", Xinghe heard that this was Beisheng's voice, but I didn't know what to say, Beisheng didn't speak.

After being embarrassed for more than ten seconds, Bei Sheng said: "I will go to the test center on a cloudy day, and I will do what I promise you." Come on for the college entrance examination! With that, he hung up the phone. Xinghe didn't know why, tears would flow from the socket of his left eye, and he couldn't figure out why this tear was so bitter when it reached the corner of his mouth.

Someone said: "Being together is not called love, you like him, he likes you, you can't be together, that's love." ”

Xinghe also took a long time to become white, and the relationship between Xinghe and Beisheng does not seem to be an ordinary friend, there is a pain in the dark, like love.

This night, Xinghe did not review, but revisited the movie "Passing by Your World", the blood on Chen Mo's face after driving into Xiaorong's car, Xiaorong's voice when he was on behalf of Chen Mo, the corners of Lizhi's mouth when she said that she hated others lying the most, the tears in the corners of Mao Shiba's eyes when she proposed, the smile on the pig's head when she was pulled back from the bathroom by Yanzi, the expression of Yanzi crying when she sat on the bed in the dormitory, the look in her eyes when she said she wanted to be closer to him during the interview, all the original reasons for all the sadness, happiness, sorrow and joy were all because she wanted to be close to that person, Meet that person, be with that person.

Perhaps, it is too early to think so much, but it is true that I have a beautiful vision for the future and Beisheng in my head, and I still don't have the correct understanding of the true face of reality. Insomnia to two o'clock, and finally in his mind Beisheng's sentence that he would go to the test center and fell asleep in a loop.

The next day, Xinghe went to the test center an hour in advance, as the time for the Chinese test is getting closer and closer, there are more and more people piled up outside the school gate, parents, teachers, friends and volunteer traffic police brigades outside the school gate, etc., Xinghe only wants to see Beisheng among many people, but he doesn't know what Beisheng looks like, he didn't think much about it first, and answered the college entrance examination questions seriously, for fear that the wrong word would affect the score, so he encouraged himself while thinking about the answer, and did his best to get through it, and he was "free".

Two and a half hours later, Galaxy walked out of the examination room in the crowd of many candidates, and a volunteer outside the school gate handed a glass of water to Xinghe, "Come on for the college entrance examination!" This seems to be an ordinary sentence that can no longer be ordinary, but it has such a great power to warm people during the college entrance examination.

Xinghe looked for Beisheng's figure everywhere, she dreamed that Beisheng would be in the most inconspicuous place, a place that ordinary people can't notice, but Xinghe was wrong, not that she wanted to be wrong where Beisheng was, but Beisheng was just passing by the test center, but the dignified seven-foot man didn't have the courage to see Xinghe, in Beisheng's heart, he loved her miserably, and she also loved him miserably.

Xinghe didn't dare to have too many emotions, just showed disappointment, this city, none of her so-called "friends" were intimate to Xinghe, and her parents didn't want to talk about it anymore, but soon, in two days, she could be liberated from the college entrance examination, and in two months, she could be liberated from her family, Xinghe thought to herself, it's beautiful.

After the college entrance examination, Xinghe had a good rest for a few days, and found a job as a tally clerk in a supermarket not far from home.

Since Tianhe was born, Xinghe is no longer his father's "biological daughter", only Tianhe in his father's eyes, only the youngest one, but because there is no son to inherit his career, since Tianhe grew up day by day, his father's attitude towards Tianhe is also as indifferent as his two sisters, cold, and people can't get close. Xinghe's stepmother couldn't figure out why Lu's father showed such an attitude in the family, this was not what he looked like when he first met him, in fact, the current Lu's mother also knows that Lu's father likes his son, and his biggest wish is to have an heir to inherit his career, but there is no way, at such an old age, it is impossible to have another one.

Lu's father just has such an attitude towards his daughters, he is still relatively good to himself, and he doesn't treat anything badly, but he loves that person in his heart, not her, Lu's mother knows it, and she is also sad, but for the sake of the family, as long as Lu's father doesn't mention divorce, life can go on like this.

Beisheng's WeChat is still in the Galaxy WeChat address book, and Beisheng's phone number was also saved the day before the college entrance examination, the two of them tacitly understood that no one spoke, even if there was no misunderstanding before, it would be like this after a long time, not bothering each other, thinking about each other, before the two said how thick their cheeks were, at this moment, the lie was exposed without shame, she thought that he still cared about his goodbye that time, and cared about saying those words when he was uncertain about life and death; He thought that she would hate herself after knowing who she was, and she didn't have the courage to say that thing to Xinghe in person, which the two of them hadn't said for a long time.

Xinghe is now "emotionally free", and he can decide his feelings without taboo, no matter whether he has seen Beisheng or not, Beisheng has been imprinted in Xinghe's heart, Xinghe has always suspected that Beisheng is Chen Bei, but there is no evidence, and she doesn't care who Chen Bei was before, when she really walks into Beisheng's heart, let Beisheng enter her heart, she doesn't care about anything.