Chapter 22: Goodbye Beisheng!
Light? Mediocrity!
Wind and water? Ordinary is precious!
Xinghe didn't find out where her advantages were, and she couldn't maximize her advantages, she decided to set a long-term goal for herself, ten years later, she must become a rich man, not relying on the "charity" of her family, she must start with what she likes, further her studies, and ensure that she doesn't fail the course during the school period, and use her spare time to specialize in astronomy or write essays.
Xinghe liked to look at the stars in the sky when she was a child, and she especially enjoyed being alone looking at the stars in the sky in a daze, always for a long time, thinking that she was "talking" with the stars, which may be the object of not talking to for a long time, and giving the words in her heart to every lonely star.
A folk song that Xinghe likes very much is called "Lonely Star", and there is a hot comment that is very touching: your extroversion is just hiding the sadness in your heart, every lonely star is like an extroverted lonely patient, all you see is his pretended forced smile, just like the song sings, you can't see my reddened eyes, that's all, you have to be a happy person.
All thoughts are the galaxy, and in the galaxy is you;
All thoughts are life and death, and there is no you in life and death;
All thoughts are for life, just to see you again;
All thoughts are death, just to not see you;
lost the hearts of the deceased, leaving her alone;
It is thought of as loneliness, and loneliness is also gratifying.
She wants to explore the universe, have infinite imagination, dissect the essence of loneliness, and live an interesting life in the hot and cold world.
And the plan to write the essay is the summer vacation after graduating from the third year of high school, the unforgettable Beisheng gave herself a lot of inspiration, she decided to use simple words, warm stories, first take herself as an example, and then record every subtle story around her, warm everyone who reads the article, even herself, resonate together to fight against all kinds of darkness in life, and encourage everyone who is deeply saddened and unable to extricate themselves out of the haze, if the heart is sunny, they are not afraid of sadness.
Since the long-term goal has been established, you are not afraid that there is no direction in life, start with writing, since you want to write, you can't avoid reading more, consulting more, so that you have ink in your stomach, so Xinghe loves to stay in the library more and more, loves to read books, from the four famous books of literati from various countries to the "Reader" and "Yilin" in recent years, and then to "Flowers Undefeated" that inspires the third year of high school to heal the third year of high school students or listen to some inspirational radio before going to bed, I will also read the works of other online writers to learn some expression skills and short words that make people think deeply, so that they can enrich themselves all the time, so that every day is poetic, fulfilling, and happy.
Nothing is easy, when Xinghe decided to start writing, he found that what he wanted to do turned out to be not a few seconds of fantasy, not three minutes of heat, not just a few days of reading a book and insisting on writing for a few days.
"You are persistent" is the mantra of the junior high school Chinese teacher, she has always kept it in mind, she envies Dong Qing's perseverance and talent, appreciates Han Xue's highly self-disciplined life and temperament, a good day should start with a happy mood, so no matter how urgent and important things are, Xinghe will always appear on the playground track at half past six in the morning, and will always appear in the various reading rooms of the library when there is no class, there is no nap time, and she sleeps less than six hours a day, She is in the code word, or in the library, she may not be able to see it for a day or two, but she really certifies this sentence "Reading is not useless, every meal you have eaten since you were a child, and finally cast your current self, just like every book you have read, will eventually help you become a better version of yourself, pregnancy is like pregnancy, you can see it after a long time".
Xinghe didn't dare to think about anything, because as long as he was idle, when he stopped studying and stopped reading, he remembered all kinds of trivial things in life, how to get along with his roommates, and what form he would get along with his father in the next few years, Learn a variety of ways to motivate and increase your confidence, such as giving yourself a thumbs up in the mirror every morning and whispering to yourself that you are great, smiling at yourself, no one sees, this kind of behavior is not stupid, but it makes Xinghe's view of himself change, in the past, Xinghe always carefully observed and cared about other people's emotions everywhere, ignoring his own feelings, and now, it's time to start loving himself, observing the advantages that can be used, and being sensitive to the emotions of others is also the best ability to alleviate contradictions.
The roommates are accustomed to the life of Xinghe not in the dormitory every day, as if Xinghe is nothing in the dormitory, and after a long time, the matter of isolating Xinghe has been diluted, and they are too lazy to gossip anymore, and live their own lives plainly, Wang Lu under the influence of Xinghe, she also began to look for what suits her and what she likes to do, she feels that it is a good choice to be a friend of Xinghe, she has learned from Xinghe that she is a girl who constantly strives to improve herself and constantly work hard to change her shortcomings, and it is a blessing of God to meet such a friend, At least that's what she thinks.
"I will always be true to myself and run towards ideals and freedom with the stars and the moon."
This is the signature of Galaxy on WeChat QQ and other software, in the days to come, the freedom and gentleness, the firmness and love, and the next mountain and sea world.
"We are like seabirds and flying fish, there may be a moment, the bird tries to touch the earth, the sea fish venture out of the water, at that moment, the brief encounter between us is already a very fortunate thing, not everyone in this world can be chic and free to mix in the same eternal time, that is, not all fish are suitable to live in the same sea."
Xinghe may think of Beisheng again, look down on feelings or something, take out a normal heart to treat the feelings between him and Beisheng, whether it is a friend or a stranger, after all, the "sea area" of life is different, the "feed" of feeding is different, no contact and no disturbance, it is just right to be here, it amazes the youth, softens the years, and purifies the galaxy.
I believe that each other will live well, maintain the original intention, kindness needs to be moderate, and gentleness will eventually become addictive. Goodbye old man! Goodbye Beisheng!