I thought you wouldn't come back, and I wouldn't have you in my life, even though I had never forgotten you, Ling Li, all these years

On the fifth day after you left, I was sure that you would not come back, at that moment I didn't know what else I could do, I didn't know what the point of my life was, so I tried to die, I had no money to buy medicine, so I had to find a knife in the dumpster, but I was too stupid, although there was a lot of blood on my hands, but I didn't die, I was sent to the hospital by a good Samaritan, and the doctor told me that if I cut a little deeper, I couldn't save it, as long as I cut it deeper, I could die, but I was too stupid and stupid, without you, I wouldn't even die, but you won't come back, never again。

Coming out of the hospital, I wanted to go to that uncle, he said that I could go to him as long as I wanted, he could give me a lot of money, but without you, money would be meaningless, but please forgive me, I decided to live, I want to find you, I want to ask why you hate me, I want to ask you if I die will you forgive me, but I need money to live, I can only go to that uncle, but God doesn't help me, when I go someone sues me that uncle died, was killed by a child, the child escaped, was not caught. I know that kid is you, and you really hate me and don't even give me the last hope.

Six years have passed, I am eighteen years old, in the past six years, except for the beginning I need to sell my body to make money, and I have been working as a waiter for the rest of the years, I know you hate me for selling my body, so I don't do it, but you still haven't come back. If it weren't for you appearing in front of me, maybe I would never see you again in my life. I still remember the day we reunited, you were wearing casual clothes, sitting quietly in the store, the table was the signature dish of the store, I knew that your life must be very good, I was very happy, I recognized you at the first sight of you, but you didn't recognize me, even if I was alone from ordering to serving, you didn't recognize me, I really want to ask you if you remember me, do you remember this girl named Ling Li, but I don't dare, I have lost all my courage without you. I think we are strangers, really strangers, you abandoned me when I was twelve years old, and chose to forget me, and I may not have stayed in your memory. If it was before, I would definitely tell you that I am Ling Li, the girl you once loved, but I have changed over the years, a life alone has taught me to be strong, I have learned to disguise, self-esteem is the thing I can't abandon the most, it is the only thing I have, I don't want to gamble with it, if I lose, I will have nothing. You just left like that, you didn't look at me all the time, and the tears flowed at that time, and then I realized that my tears were all for you.

People often say fate, I think we have it, people often say that there is fate, I think we also have. I never realized that my life was so miserable, I always knew that my life was too monotonous, and you were the only color in my life, and the only sunshine in my dark life, I don't know if the life of an orphan should be dead and silent, there is no hope, I only know, because of you, I have never regretted the unfairness of God. I think God pampered me, He sent you to me, although it is short, it can make me reminisce for a lifetime, and it can make me laugh and cry despite the pain. Yin Xun, I just want you to know that I have never regretted meeting you, even if I am just a shameless slut to you... □□。

For three months, I stayed at the door of the store every day, just hoping that you would come again, or see you passing by. But no, just like when you were twelve, you turned around and never came back. I thought you were gone again, I thought I was losing you again, if it wasn't for overhearing the whispers of my colleagues, if I hadn't heard the whole process, I wouldn't have known how hard you've been and how damned I am. I can finally understand why you hate me so much, I can finally understand why you turned around so resolutely, and finally know that it was a mistake for me to live, and my appearance was a catastrophe given to you by God.

"Hey, do you remember that good-looking male customer a few months ago?" "Remember, what's wrong?" "He's a murderer, and I heard he absconded in fear of crime. "Ah?!No, he doesn't look like a bad guy, and besides, it's too late to kill someone and escape, so why would he come to drink coffee?" "Who knows, anyway, the police are chasing him now, and I heard that they all shot him, so he should be caught." ”

A few months ago... Male customer... Homicide... Shoot... Shoot...

Yin Xun, that's not you, it must not be you, if so, why don't you run away and come to the store, I... That's not the reason, right, sue me, you didn't risk your life to spend an afternoon in the store because you recognized me, no, right, it must not be, it must not be......