The most beautiful scenery is the waning moon reflected in your tearful eyes, the farthest distance, the step you turn around and take away, and the sweetest heartache is our wordless look at each other at that time - Ling Li

If I were smart enough, I would have guessed that no matter how much effort I put in and how much life I sacrificed, it wouldn't get you a glance back. If I am smart enough, I should understand that some people, no matter how reluctant they are, can only become passers-by, and some loves, no matter how reluctant they are, can only go to hell. Unfortunately, there is never a "if" in this world.

Three years after you left, our second encounter was not beautiful but bloody, but the scene when you turned to look at me was fixed in my mind forever, and the scene when you passed me became a wound in my life that can never be erased.

"Yin Xun, do you remember me?"

I turned to look at your departing back, your steps did not have a trace of panic, your body did not tremble a little, as if you did not hear my call, as if I had never appeared in front of your eyes, as if I had never been in your memory. At this moment, I don't know what kind of force made me rush to you like crazy, hugging your body tightly, as if the next moment you will completely disappear in my life, the temperature transmitted from your body is the only warmth in my life, it is still the same as before, so easy to invade my frozen heart, let my tears die.

"Yin Xun, I miss you, all these years, I have been thinking about you every day, I am eager to meet you, thank God for letting me see you again, but Yin Xun, you can't stay here anymore, the police are looking for you, you run away, run away, don't come back, ...... forever"

I felt your hand cover my hand, and the touch of that hand was the same as back then, at that time, every time you would hold my hand tightly, and the little hand curled up in your palm, giving me an inexplicable sense of security. But this time, instead of holding me as tightly as usual, the big hand ripped my hand away from the master's body, and all the safety and happiness collapsed at this moment, endless pain, tears □□ like a tide, and the figure still faded away, and finally disappeared from my already blurred vision. Once again, I watched you leave, without a word, without a single expression, and my already broken heart was once again broken all over the ground. I know that love is the most incomprehensible thing in the world, because it is never fair, and some people say that in love, whoever loves more deeply and heavier will suffer more. I think, that's right. I look down on those who commit suicide for love, and despise those who see their lover as the whole world, but I can't laugh at it, because I'm that kind of person, and what can make me sacrifice a qiē in exchange for your peace is your peace.

I don't know if meeting you again is God's compensation for my failed love, I only know that I finally saw you again one night three months later, when I was standing across the road, watching you throw a man covered in blood in the casino in a uniform, your expression was faint, and you couldn't see a trace of waves, like you were used to such a scene, like you were standing on your body with only ketchup instead of blood. You like this, it makes my heart ache inexplicably, I don't know, what the angel who guarded me had to go through to become a bloodthirsty demon, I just felt heartache, the pain was so bad that I couldn't breathe but I could stay awake, I think I finally knew why God would arrange for us to meet, it wanted me to see, how I destroyed a pure and kind heart, how I created the most miserable fallen angel, how I ruined a boy's supposed happy life. This time, I no longer have the courage to take a step, seeing you now, I suddenly understand the meaning of life, maybe from the day we met, it was destined that I would owe you, you killed for me, sacrificed a lifetime of happiness for me, this is your calamity. And the meaning of my existence is to bear all this on your behalf, and to return you to a safe and stable life. Yin Xun, please believe me, I will give you back happiness, Yin Xun, thank you for appearing in my life, thank you for protecting me, and thank you, now forget me.