Miao Xiaohui is married, and her husband is the manager of a subsidiary company of the provincial coal department. After receiving Miao Xiaohui's call, Liu Yiyi's heart sank: "Really? Immediately realized that the tone was wrong, and said cheerfully, "Really? Great, congratulations! Miao Xiaohui said: "I don't think there's anything to congratulate." Liu Yiyi didn't dare to answer her words, pretended not to hear clearly, said a few words of "congratulations" in a row, asked the date of the wedding, and closed the line. Liu Yiyi felt a panic, her college classmates got married one by one, and they were busy going to their respective homes, leaving her alone, and slowly she didn't even have anyone to talk to. There is also a Ah Yu, her body is beginning to get rich, her mentality is getting worse and worse, she is almost about to become a resentful woman, it seems that men all over the world have enmity against her, and there is not much left of her calmness and elegance in the past few years. Liu Yiyi clearly saw the cruelty of time from Ah Yu, which so slowly but persistently erodes the value of women, making it greatly reduced unconsciously. This is reality, and it is not something that can be changed by anyone who is chic. Every time I see her, when Liu Yiyi talks about who she is in contact with, she must say who is not good, the more Liu Yiyi feels good, the more she says it is bad. Liu Yiyi had no choice but not to say anything, but she wanted to ask again, and she asked in great detail. In this way, Liu Yiyi didn't want to see her, but because there was no better person to talk to, she still didn't interrupt the meeting. Now that Miao Xiaohui is married, I'm afraid I can only endure Ah Yu's bad temper more.

Liu Yiyi went to the wedding, the pomp was very large, very luxurious, and the float was Mercedes-Benz. The wedding was held at the five-star Yintian Hotel, which is famous for holding aristocratic weddings. Liu Yiyi saw the names of Fan Ji and Manager Xue in the guest registration book, and saw them in the hall again. She thought, are there still a few invisible people in this bustle? Miao Xiaohui held her husband's hand, held flowers in the other hand, and stood at the door to greet the guests. When she smiled at Liu Yiyi, Liu Yiyi saw a little melancholy in the smile, which others couldn't understand. Liu Yiyi remembered that she attended the wedding of her mentor's daughter Ah Fang not long ago, and a couple met by chance sharing an umbrella in the rain five years ago, and they have been until today, and they are the only ones in each other's lives. Although they are all weddings, they are all luxurious, and the internal quality can be very different! Ah Fang or Miao Xiaohui, who is smarter? I remember that when I was at school a few years ago, I told Miao Xiaohui that girls have to find someone to be responsible for themselves after all, and Miao Xiaohui said at that time: "I don't want anyone to be responsible for me, whoever claims to be responsible for me, I will run away from him immediately." "Only a little girl is qualified to speak such heroic words!

After returning from the wedding, Liu Yiyi got in touch with the section chief who claimed to be the director. Qin Yixing was very unhappy when he found out, and said, "It's not good to find someone, you have to find a half-old man." Liu Yiyi said: "Isn't he a year younger than you?" And he said, "I don't dare look for it if it's not a half-old man." The handsome guy has been talking for two years, and he has lost his passion, saying that we are not suitable, who should I cry to? The ruthless one doesn't answer your call, lets you think for yourself, and kneels in front of you with a soft heart, asking you to let him go, do you say you don't let go? Qin Yixing said: "Still a liar!" Liu Yiyi said: "He said that it was a white lie, and he lied to me because he loved me, not that I was too lazy to lie." Qin Yixing said, "Do you love him?" You ask your own heart! Liu Yiyi said: "Who do you think I will love?" I love you, what's the use? Will you give my love a home? My love is dead, so it's okay, I won't be hurt, at least save my sadness! Qin Yixing said: "I've been with you for so many years, my desire for you is already secondary, and my biggest wish is that you can be happy in the future, if you are not happy, I will be heartbroken." Liu Yiyi said: "I don't dare to think about the word 'happiness' at all, is that what I think?" My happiness is in yesterday, in memory. Qin Yixing sighed again and again and said, "Are you really so pessimistic? Liu Yiyi said: "Do you still think I'm optimistic? He also said: "Anyway, don't talk about love, I think everyone is the same, taller, shorter, old, less, good, bad, all the same without feeling." Since you don't feel it, it's better to grab the money. Maybe Miao Xiaohui is right, she is so smart, she chose that way, she always has her reasons, right? Could she be wrong? I feel sad for her, and I have to be sad for myself even more when I think about it. I knew that sadness was always inevitable, so why bother to be in love? ”

Liu Yiyi is indeed in love with Qin Yixing, but she doesn't want to say it, for fear that Qin Yixing will look at her suspiciously. Alas, I don't dare to confess my true feelings, and I have to pretend to be very chic. She wanted to convince herself that this mood was unreasonable, which man was not a man, and who was a match made in heaven? It's just a chance encounter. It can be said that it is really difficult to leave him. I have made up my mind for more than half a year, but I still haven't left, and I can't leave. Her affection for him is ripe in time, and there is no other reason, time is the biggest reason. There are lovers in the world, who is a natural match with whom, is there really an invisible red silk thread? No. At the beginning, she approached him with the idea of finding someone to temporarily relieve her loneliness and help herself, but she was idle anyway. Who knows that once it starts, it will be endless, and the most colorful time of life will be put in. This relationship has been boiling for so long, it is hot when it is not hot, and it is ripe if it is not ripe. I didn't take my heart as seriously as I expected, and I clearly saw the prospect of no prospects. But a girl, the only man in her life, that love is natural, there will be no one, and you can't kill it if you want to. Love is a woman's instinct, but this instinct must be suppressed and stifled with reason, and you must always remind yourself that you can't be serious, you can't be serious, how inhumane and sad this is! Even Qin Yixing, while urging her to contact other men, followed her in the mall several times, and when he saw her holding hands with others, he sent a message on the spot to express his dissatisfaction, and then lost his temper afterwards, saying, "I didn't ask you to hold hands." Liu Yiyi said: "What is holding hands? Qin Yixing said: "That means you have more intimate actions?" Wear the clothes I bought for you to show others, I really am the stupidest fool in the world! Liu Yiyi said: "Why are you so unreasonable! Qin Yixing said: "Who is unreasonable!" And he said, "To be reasonable, the two of us should not know each other at all!" She said, "It's been three or four years, and I'm confused about what your feelings are for me." I can see that everyone else can see clearly, but I can't see you clearly! I admire you for standing by the river for three or four years, you don't get your shoes wet, you always have a detached posture, and your heart is so hard! Why can't I melt the iceberg in your heart for three or four years? He said, "I did what I had to do." She said, "Maybe I shouldn't be so serious, I should just see you as a man." My heart, my heart, why are you so cheap and so unlucky! You don't know how much I hate myself! "After arguing for a long time, it ended with a passionate performance.

Inseparable. But Liu Yiyi understands that as long as she is not separated, she and others will not be able to get along. His mood can't be transferred, and Qin Yixing will quickly discover the fundamental flaws of that person, and he has to admit that what he said is right, he can't be stupid if he wants to, and he can't be confused if he wants to. Liu Yiyi is very sober, this kind of relationship with no prospects, if it is not cut off with a knife, it will really have to pay the price of a lifetime, just like Ah Yu. When the time comes, when the youth is gone, what decent man will still treat himself as a baby? Youth is a resource, and this resource is consumed rapidly, depreciating year by year, even in months. Men are not stupid, they are poisonous in their eyes and hearts, they see things clearly and think clearly. If a man is not stupid, he can't be stupid, otherwise a stupid person will face to face with a person who is not stupid, and it will be strange if he does not lose to the flowers.

Liu Yiyi told Qin Yixing what he thought, and Qin Yixing said: "Yes, alas, yes. After making an appointment with the two of them not to contact each other again, Qin Yixing deposited her living expenses in her account every month. But the more Liu Yiyi blocked herself from contacting him, the more she wanted to contact him, and the itch that couldn't be scratched was more itchy than the itch that she could scratch. After struggling for a few days, I still sent a message shyly, asking how are you doing? The message was endless, and after dozens of back and forth, Liu Yiyi got up from the dormitory late at night and went to Kangding to see him, otherwise, I don't know how to get by this night. Now that he went, of course, what should have happened would have happened, and, moreover, resurrected the passion that had already been dull. Liu Yiyi knew that it was dangerous to go on like this, but there was no way. It's dangerous, there's no way. She remembered that Ah Yu had said that she couldn't find a good man seriously, so she could only snatch her husband from another woman, with the determination of the sea, as cruel as iron and blood. This is a life-and-death struggle, not only to rob a man's husband, but also to rob the father of a child, and to be prepared to pay the price of blood. Liu Yiyi imagined in her heart that she would rob Qin Yixing, and the step was to conceive his child first, and go to the woman named Zhou Shan with a shy stomach. Shameless, nothing. She thought about it seriously, and thought of every step, but at the moment when she was about to make up her mind, what could she do when she thought of Zhou Shan? I hesitated, and finally, I gave up. Although she can't do it herself, she still understands those girls who are desperate to fight, how much determination and courage it takes! But he didn't have that much determination, and he wasn't so cruel. Thinking about the past, except for being out, Liu Yiyi felt that there was no way out. Does it hurt? Pain. Is it miserable? Miserable. But the pain is miserable, and what needs to be done still has to be done. Does it hurt to peel the skin off the body? Pain. Is it miserable? Miserable. But it hurts so badly, you have to peel it.

Liu Yiyi asked Qin Yixing, who should he marry? Qin Yixing said: "Then you should ask your own heart." Liu Yiyi said: "I don't have a heart anymore, look at everyone is the same." My nerves were numb, and I only felt a little bit about their money. Qin Yixing said: "Do you feel handsome?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't feel it." Qin Yixing said: "What about the height? Liu Yiyi said: "I don't feel it." Qin Yixing said: "A little old? Liu Yiyi said: "I don't feel it either." Qin Yixing said: "Could it be that your feelings are all about money?" Liu Yiyi said: "Actually, I don't think money is so important, I don't feel anything else, so I have to feel money." Qin Yixing said: "Are you really so numb? Liu Yiyi said: "Did you lie to you? ”

She didn't lie to Qin Yixing. She really didn't know what she wanted. is about to be twenty-seven years old, and his heart is already porcelain and knotted. She is anxious to find someone to marry, not because of love, but because she can't marry if she doesn't marry, if she doesn't marry today, there will be no one to marry tomorrow. She has completely despaired of love, and no longer worships it as a dream in her heart. So, the remaining problem is to find a partner to run a home, that is, a place where you can go every day after work, and perhaps, more importantly, to run a descendant. Liu Yiyi has no hope for love, but she still has great hopes for a son, perhaps, a daughter. The child should have a father, otherwise it will not be fair to him. Because of this reason, she wants to find a decent person to marry herself, which is not an easy thing to do. She contacted the section chief, and some text messages were forwarded to Qin Yixing without knowing how to answer them better, and Qin Yixing replied and sent them to her, and she forwarded them to the section chief. This lasted for a while, but Liu Yiyi still felt too unfeeling, too wronged herself, and broke off the relationship.

What kind of person am I looking for? Liu Yiyi asks herself in her heart every day, asking and asking herself. She sent messages every day to discuss this issue with Miao Xiaohui, and sometimes she discussed it with Qin Yixing lying in bed. All the details of the possible people have been discussed, all the possibilities have been considered, and they still can't find the direction. And, the more it is discussed, the more it falls into greater confusion. The handsome guy doesn't dare to look for it, the risk is too great, it's enough to have Xia Weikai's lesson, it's enough. Those who have money dare not look for it, men want him to have money and not be bad, that is a super high moral requirement, can not be conceived, the bank manager said that men are attentive, the difference is only whether there is capital to spend money. There was a girl in the dormitory, two or three years younger than her, who was bent on finding a handsome guy with money. Liu Yiyi felt that she didn't know the dangers of mountains and waters, and reminded her a few words, but she felt that Liu Yiyi was jealous of her youth, and said, "Why is your heart so old?" ”

One night, Miao Xiaohui asked her to meet at Laoshu Coffee. Liu Yiyi found that Miao Xiaohui's body was a little bit of a sign, and said, "Why is it so soon?" Miao Xiaohui pointed to her body and said, "If he doesn't come, I'm still a free man, I was more distressed than you at the time, who should I marry?" As soon as he came, everything was solved, and that was it. Liu Yiyi said: "Do you dare to guarantee that his father is your husband?" Miao Xiaohui said: "It should be." He looked up again and tried to recall, "No, right?" Liu Yiyi said: "No? You're betting too much. Miao Xiaohui said: "There will be no ambiguity, right?" And he said, "Don't talk about me, but about you." That's all I have to say. ”

Liu Yiyi held the back of her head with both hands, tilted her head up, and the mirrored ceiling reflected their shadows, as well as the many people around her, as if it was a dream. She said, "Am I not like that? Miao Xiaohui said: "I called you today, I want to tell you, or I want to find someone with feelings." Liu Yiyi leaned back, leaned forward again, slapped the table and said, "The robber has taken his heart!" Miao Xiaohui said: "Speaking of experience, this experience is full of blood and tears. Otherwise, when you get married, you look at me, I look at you, and you have to think hard about what to say every day, and it's dry to say it, isn't it awkward? Liu Yiyi said: "I didn't expect you to be such a chic person to say such conservative words and find someone with feelings!" Miao Xiaohui said: "They don't know how thick the sky is," she said to a few girls next to her, "Don't we know?" I don't know which university the girls are, and if no one is there to discuss emotional issues, they are full of "give each other freedom", "don't entangle", "don't discover meaning", "don't carry the burden of feelings", and so on. Liu Yiyi said: "They think that youth is inexhaustible and can be dashing forever, but they don't know that God only gives her a few years." When the time comes, they naturally stop singing high-pitched. For women, the power of conservatism is much greater than the power of chic, they want to sing high-pitched, that is to help men, why are there so many stupid girls in this world! Miao Xiaohui said: "Women are as cheap as men these days. Liu Yiyi said: "I really hope that you will have a son and don't suffer from us." ”

Light music was playing in the hall, love songs one after another. Miao Xiaohui said: "Who can't sing dozens of love songs in this era, but why is love getting thinner and thinner? Liu Yiyi said: "Really, you see that I can sing so many love songs, but I don't dare to think about love at all." Teresa Teng has sung love songs all her life, did she get love? Miao Xiaohui said: "Modern people are too free, but they are too pitiful. And he said, "Aren't you in love with the reporter?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't know what that is, I definitely don't promise a little future, that's love?" Miao Xiaohui said: "Speaking of which, he is definitely good at the TV station, but for you, this is more dangerous." If you put him in the center of your heart and worship him, who will be able to enter it? If you always say you don't feel for anyone, then you won't have it. If you try it in your heart, if you erase the surname Qin, will you feel a little bit about others? Liu Yiyi closed her eyes, imagining the waiter wiping a bunch of fish bones from the table and said, "Maybe." Miao Xiaohui said: "Then you have to erase him as soon as possible." Liu Yiyi said: "How can you erase it?" Miao Xiaohui said: "How can you get close to others normally if you can't erase it?" Don't follow the old path of Ah Yu! Speaking of Ah Yu, Liu Yiyi was shocked for a moment, and a chill swept through her heart, saying, "I really don't want to think about that day." Miao Xiaohui said: "Then you hurry up." Liu Yiyi said: "My little head is moving every day. Miao Xiaohui said: "When a woman is looking for a partner, it is a gamble anyway, and there is no second spring anyway." The question is how to gamble, who to gamble on, and you can't gamble on a visible defeat. Liu Yiyi said: "Being a woman now is a defeat in itself, and it may be said that being born is a failure." What kind of world is this world? If time hadn't pressed me like this, I'd be like them," glancing at the girls, "I'm not afraid." It's a pity, alas! And he said, "It's so unfair." Miao Xiaohui said: "But you can't blame anyone, you can't blame your parents." ”

The girls were playing, as if they were going to a certain performance hall to watch the show. Liu Yiyi looked at their backs and said, "I really envy them for having the youth to squander them indiscriminately." Miao Xiaohui said: "It should be jealous that they have the capital to make mistakes, and they can't afford to make them in a few years, will it take a long time?" Years. The new human race will soon have a day when it will not be able to go down. Liu Yiyi chuckled, a little desolate and said: "I can't make mistakes, I must take the right step out, I have no capital, I can't afford to make a mistake." After saying that, she had a feeling of panic, and she hadn't enjoyed her youth much, so she couldn't afford to be wrong, alas. Miao Xiaohui said: "So Yiyi, you must be accurate this time, and if you don't see the devil, you won't hang the strings." Liu Yiyi said: "What do you mean by accuracy? I don't even know it myself. I used to know it, but the more I lived, the more confused I became. Miao Xiaohui said: "I still have to find someone with feelings." Liu Yiyi said: "I really don't know who I will have feelings for. Whoever found me, it was because his father and mother didn't do good things in their previous life. Miao Xiaohui said: "At least find someone who has affection for you." We don't talk about love, it's too noble, it's always okay to talk about affection, find someone who is affectionate, otherwise no matter how good he is, it's his own good, what does it have to do with you? Do you think you really got a share of his property? Liu Yiyi paused three times on the glass table and said, "Yes, yes, yes!" I still have to look for someone who has love. As if waking up again, he said, "Oh, there is love? I don't have love for him but I want him to have love for me? Is that possible? Is there a miracle happening, not a hoax? How many scams are staged in Lucheng every day! She remembered Miao Xiaohui's wedding, and it passed in a flash, "A person who doesn't believe in love goes to find love in a city that doesn't believe in love in an era when he doesn't believe in love, you see, this, how romantic this is, as if suddenly descended to a country of gentlemen and ladies." ”