Song Xusheng returned to Lucheng, and the people were a little silent. Liu Yiyi said: "Those who are gone are gone, and those who are alive still have to live, how to live and how to live." Song Xusheng sighed and said, "That's what I said. Liu Yiyi said: "In fact, it is a relief for the patient. Song Xusheng said: "That's what I said. Then he sighed and said, "She was a widow at the age of thirty-two and brought us up, so why didn't I let her live a good life for a few days?" If only I had money, it would be no problem to live a few more years, but even if I died, I should have died in the hospital, only in my fifties. Liu Yiyi said: "You are looking backwards." Looking ahead, if one day your son has some illness, you will sigh and stop talking? Song Xusheng stood up suddenly, walked back and forth, and suddenly stopped and said, "Cruel, cruel." To find a way, is to find a way. He also said, "Am I going to Yan Fulin?" ”

Yan Fulin, Liu Yiyi knows and has seen it. He was Song Xusheng's junior high school classmate, and he didn't study in high school, so he went to society to mix. First, I rented the façade of a vocational school to open a rice noodle shop, and after two or three years of school expansion, the façade was demolished. He resolutely refused, let out the wind outside, saying that he was a member of the underworld, and put two firecrackers in front of the door in the middle of the night, and the next day when he met people, he whispered, I did it last night, and my wife played it in her hand. Looking at his wife's hand, sure enough, the gauze was hanging. When asked who fired the gun, the answer was vague, it seemed to be related to drug trafficking, and he repeatedly told not to tell others. This news spread all over the school, and no one dared to say anything about forced demolition. The Public Security Bureau sent someone to investigate, but he sent him away. The school found him a new façade, much larger than the original, and paid for the renovation before he moved in and opened a decent restaurant. After a few years, he made a small fortune, handed over the restaurant to his wife, and went to the suburbs to open a small chemical factory. He asked Song Xu to go to the chemical plant several times and promised to give shares. Now Song Xusheng was moved, but Liu Yiyi didn't agree, she said: "You can't be bold enough to get involved with him, right, who is he?" You won't spit out the bones and dregs after you eat it. Song Xusheng said: "Yan Fulin is actually very righteous, much better than Director Chen, and you won't believe it." Liu Yiyi still shook her head, feeling that this idea was too ridiculous. She shook her head, and he couldn't help it.

Liu Yiyi asked Song Xusheng to accompany him to walk around the street, and said, "There is a musty smell in your house, why don't you feel it?" The mood was already wet, and the hair grew more and more when I stayed in it. When I got to the street, Liu Yiyi took a fancy to a jacket and asked Song Xusheng to try it, which was very good and bought. I took a fancy to a pair of pants and bought them, and another pair of shoes I bought them too. Song Xusheng said: "I didn't bring the money out, and the money will be given to you when I go back." Liu Yiyi said, "Didn't you advance five hundred yuan for me?" Song Xusheng said: "You still share that money between you and me?" Liu Yiyi said: "Then don't share this money." Song Xusheng said: "It's more than five hundred." Liu Yiyi said: "What do you mean by being so clear?" Song Xusheng said: "Oh, you are a woman, I should buy it for you." Liu Yiyi said: "Then I will wait for that day, and when you buy me a fur coat, I will not say that I want to give you money." Song Xusheng said: "I have to work hard, I really can't be a man if I don't work hard, a man has no career, and it's useless to say anything." The last time I went to your house, I was so stressed. What is your family's impression of me? Liu Yiyi said: "General." Song Xusheng said: "I am very satisfied with the general." Liu Yiyi said: "It's generally not very good, do you think!" Song Xusheng said: "I was very satisfied if I didn't drag me out with a mop." I really have to work hard, and I really can't be a person if I don't work hard. It's not easy to be a man! Then he said, "When will we go to the district and get the certificate?" Liu Yiyi said: "Everyone else is kneeling with roses and proposing, you can tear it at every turn, pull it, that's a piece of cloth?" And he said, "None of the houses have a decent set of houses, and they sleep in the streets at night?" Song Xusheng snorted a few times in his throat, as if he was stuck in a fish bone, and didn't say it.

Walking on the street, Liu Yiyi has a special feeling, and she feels that half of the happiness of being a woman lies in shopping and buying things related to being a woman. There are no major events in this era, and there are no major events in my own life, and being a happy woman is the biggest thing. Everything related to being a woman, clothes, skin color, bodybuilding, figure, as well as eyebrows, eyes, chest and waist, calves...... Of course, there is also a home, a house, children, and a man who feels sorry for himself, and this is the essence of life. Otherwise, where else would we find the meaning of life? There are too many temptations, and there is too much desire to buy, but unfortunately the wallet is too thin, like a malnourished chicken. She remembered that she went to the women's market with Miao Xiaohui not long ago, and Miao Xiaohui said: "The things here are not of high grade, so I won't come next time." At that time, I didn't make a sound, but I was about to cry in my heart. At that time, she thought, if she married Song Xusheng, would she suffer for the rest of her life? If you're two years younger, as long as you're two years old, that's fine, and you can turn everything upside down and start all over again. What a precious two years! She stood by a shop window, pointed to the clothes worn by the models, and said, "There are so many good things in the world." As if Song Xusheng hadn't heard it, he pulled her hand and walked away from the window. Liu Yi looked back a few times reluctantly. On the way back, Liu Yiyi glanced at Song Xusheng from time to time, thinking, this person, just this person? I hesitated again.

After a while, Song Xu came to the dormitory, and Liu Yiyi was lying on the bed reading alone. Song Xusheng said that after the new house of the unit has been built, a batch of old houses will be transferred out, and if there is a marriage certificate, they can be divided into two bedrooms and one living room. Having her own house in Lucheng is a distant dream, and this dream can be realized immediately, but Liu Yiyi has no expected excitement in her heart. She said a few words, and Song Xusheng said, "What do you mean?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't know what it means. Song Xusheng said: "Then what do you mean?" After this batch, I don't know what year or month it was. Liu Yiyi leaned into the bed, wrapped her body tighter with a blanket and said, "I haven't thought about it yet!" Song Xusheng spread his feet and opened his hands and said, "Look at this person, do you see clearly?" That's the guy. Liu Yiyi said: "Such a big thing, don't you allow me to think about it for a few days?" Song Xusheng said: "You want to, three days." The fourth day is too late, I don't know. ”

Song Xusheng left, and Liu Yiyi immediately called Qin Yixing and told him about the matter. Qin Yixing said: "It's okay, there aren't many good men like this." Liu Yiyi said: "I don't think he's any good." And he said, "Why can't you find a more wonderful one when you see you dead?" Qin Yixing smiled and said, "There will be no miracles." If a miracle happens, a comedic miracle is followed by a tragic miracle, and you better not fantasize. Liu Yiyi thought, isn't this the story of the two? She said: "A woman, she is not at the end of the mountain, if she has no illusions, is that possible? You say, you look at me like a man, without a little color, look at me like a stranger, have I reached the point of exhaustion? Qin Yixing laughed a few times and said, "Don't have any illusions." Liu Yiyi said: "That means that I have ......" Qin Yixing interrupted her and said: "I didn't mean that, I saw in the newspaper yesterday that an old lady in her sixties was still asking for marriage." He also said, "I saw a book yesterday and flipped through it in the evening, and when you take it and read it, it may be a little inspiring." Liu Yiyi asked what book it was, and Qin Yixing said, "You'll know if you read it." Liu Yiyi asked him to send it over, and Qin Yixing said, "It's such a long way." "I agreed.

At the door of the securities company, Qin Yixing parked the car and had no intention of getting out of the car. Liu Yiyi was thinking about whether to get in the car, Qin Yixing said, "Many people are waiting for me." "Hand out the book, it's a book of "Love Encyclopedia". Qin Yixing said: "I have marked all the key points. He left, Liu Yiyi stood on the steps and flipped through the book, and for a while he didn't see any markings. She took out her mobile phone to call Qin Yixing, and Qin Yixing said, "You will see it if you look at it, I don't remember where it is." Liu Yiyi turned the pages one by one, and turned to more than 300 pages, and sure enough, there was a mark with a red pen, and there was only one sentence: "Girls who are over twenty-five are easy not to break up with their boyfriends." "I flipped it down, and when it was over, it was gone. Liu Yiyi was a little unhappy, didn't she deliberately poke her sore spots? took out his mobile phone and wanted to scold Qin Yixing a few words, but the mobile phone was pinched in the palm of his hand and calmed down. In any case, this represents the thoughts of many men, and it is also Qin Yixing's concern for himself. He would rather travel so far to send it than directly say that this is a man's carefulness and thoughtfulness. She kind of hated the author of the book, men were sensitive enough in this regard, why bother to strengthen this emotion? Women are stressed enough, so why put more pressure on them? Thinking like this, she called Qin Yixing and scolded the author. Qin Yixing said: "Don't you think he cares about you? Liu Yiyi said: "What's wrong with being twenty-five? At the age of twenty-five, he did not break the law, and at the age of twenty-seven, he did not break the law. Qin Yixing said: "Don't believe the of those beautiful writers, twenty-five years old, how young, it's a high-value check, overdraft it first." She is a beauty and a writer, you are an ordinary person, you should always think about the future for yourself. Twenty-five is a high-value check, that's her own idea, this check is not so reliable, every year that passes, it depreciates a bit, and it goes into garbage time in a few years, unless she is a super beauty. Liu Yiyi said: "I don't want to hear your words." I'm going to be like you, and I'm going to find a lover when I'm forty years old. Qin Yixing said: "A forty-year-old man's career has opened, and he has matured, which is the climax of finding a lover." Forty-year-old woman looking for a lover? And he said: "Time is cruel to everyone, and even more cruel to women, and it is the greatest and most legitimate cruelty that everyone has ever faced." Liu Yiyi said: "I don't think about this problem, it's useless to think about it." Qin Yixing said: "When a person has a head, he thinks, who told him to grow a person's head?" After the age of forty, I feel that time is passing faster and faster, and everything has just passed, that is, a year, and it is too late to sigh. And he said, "I don't think it's useful, you want to be useful, you have to make decisions, don't you?" Liu Yiyi said: "No! ”

No, partially. said so, I don't have such a heroic confidence in my heart. She knew that Qin Yixing was right, people can't gamble with themselves, just like you can't gamble with the market when you speculate in stocks, the more you gamble, the more you lose. She saw that some customers, holding a stock, did not throw 12 yuan, and even more refused to throw 11 yuan, but it kept falling, falling to more than 3 yuan. She thinks about falling in love, no, it's not in love, it's looking for a partner, and finding a partner is the same as trading stocks, always taking the previous level as the standard, and in the end it will be a failure. Liu Yiyi thought of Ah Yu, and the more she went to the back, the more unwilling she was to compromise, and she proudly claimed a few years ago: "I will not give up the standard because of my age, there is always someone waiting for me in the world, just like I am waiting for him." "I've been heroic for a few years, and I don't say it anymore today. After waiting for the disappointment, she carefully planned to poach Mr. Yuan, feeling that she had a clear advantage over his wife in every aspect, and seemed to be close to success, but the result was still hit hard. I have been with Mr. Yuan for seven years, and when the final showdown, Mr. Yuan told her not to entangle, but she didn't listen. After so many years of youth, is it just like that? The matter almost killed people and ended in turning their faces into enemies. For the body that has begun to get fat, on the one hand, she goes to the bodybuilding gym every day, and on the other hand, she claims: "Who stipulates that slim is beautiful?" A modern woman should not see herself through the eyes of a man. Whatever men want me to be, I don't. Liu Yiyi was once excited by her declaration, but in the end she saw the weakness and paleness in it, so much so that it was ridiculous and pitiful. Who doesn't aspire to an ideal man who loves himself deeply? This is the greatest expectation of a woman in her life. But who can change his vision? There are no miracles, and you can't imagine miracles happening to you. Instead of singing about enduring loneliness, it is better to lower your posture and accept a worldly happiness. Liu Yiyi is very sober at this point, and after waking up, she has a kind of spiritual power, a kind of cruelty with reason.

It seems that he has made up his mind to get married. After making up his mind, he thought about it again, and felt that it was not very steady, so he called Qin Yixing again. Qin Yixing said: "Sooner or later, you have to make up your mind, and it's better to go early than late." Since he said so, it would be wishful thinking for himself to seek comfort from him. Liu Yiyi said: "Okay, listen to you." He hung up. She immediately remembered that there was another thing she had forgotten to mention, and dialed over again and said, "I have seen small advertisements on campus before, and some things can be repaired, do I need to repair them?" It's not expensive anyway. Qin Yixing laughed. Liu Yiyi said: "You are still laughing, this is a lifelong thing." He's going to hate me for the rest of his life, and I don't want him to have an excuse to look down on me. Qin Yixing said: "If you want me to say that there is no need, he has experience and he will know that you are man-made." Does he have experience? Liu Yiyi said: "What do you say? Qin Yixing said: "So I said forget it." Liu Yiyi said: "Then forget it, anyway, I didn't ask him." And he said, "Will he remember it in his heart for the rest of his life?" Qin Yixing said: "Now the men have figured it out, as long as the person in front of him can satisfy him and be satisfied, he has no choice but to forget it, why bother with himself?" Who's the only one? Liu Yiyi said: "That's for a girlfriend, right?" He doesn't care about the person he marries? Qin Yixing said: "Unless he has no desire for you." Liu Yiyi said: "It's so boring to think about it, it's really a partnership, I will get married once in my life, and I will get married like this, I really don't know how to live in the future, you want me to get by!" Then he said, "Shall we meet again after that?" Qin Yixing said: "Yiyi, are you really so bold?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't think I have much courage. Qin Yixing said: "Yiyi, aren't you afraid of being sorry for others?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't feel sorry for him, who told him to chase me?" Qin Yixing snorted a few times and said, "Forget it, Yiyi, forget it." Men aren't as stupid as you think, and I don't want anything to happen. Liu Yiyi pursed her lips into the microphone and said, "Forget it, I think people want to rely on you." ”