After discussing going to the district to register the next day, Song Xusheng said, "Do you still want me to send you back tonight?" Liu Yiyi said, "Have you ever left me?" Song Xusheng said: "Why not? That might have been half a year old. Seeing that you are so steady, I think it's okay, it's good. ”

Liu Yiyi behaved very restrained that night, she didn't want to give Song Xusheng the impression of experience. Song Xusheng didn't ask too much of her, and she didn't seem to know what it meant to perform well or badly. After finishing the matter, the atmosphere was suddenly a little stuffy, Song Xusheng was lying on his back, his hands folded on his chest, and he lost his passion in advance. Liu Yiyi didn't speak, waiting for him to ask questions. But Song Xusheng didn't ask. Liu Yiyi was still a little disappointed, anyway, it was better to ask now. She observes his expression, thinking that he is the kind of selfishness that most men have, and that he is completely passionless when the matter is over, or does he have a pimple in her heart when she thinks about it? She decided that she still wanted to have a settlement tonight, so she tentatively said, "What's the matter, you? Song Xusheng said: "Not much, I feel sad, sad, very sad." Liu Yiyi understood, and immediately asked, "What's upset about?" Song Xusheng said: "She still asked me, what if nothing happened." Immediately he said, "Loose." ”

Liu Yiyi felt as if she had been hit, and her body trembled. She thought of everything, even the words that he said directly related to a woman's body and embarrassing, but she didn't expect him to say that. She shrank down to the side of the bed and said, "Do you feel wronged?" Song Xusheng said: "Isn't there a little grievance? The words "a little" made Liu Yiyi feel down-to-earth and said: "If you feel wronged, you tell me today, it's still too late." I don't want to wait until tomorrow to leave here with the reputation of a divorced woman. The word "leaving" seemed to have a lot of power, and Song Xusheng muttered: "Such a big thing, do you want me to be happy?" Liu Yiyi said: "How big is it? You say a word. Song Xusheng said: "You can get as big as you want." He also said, "When I think that every detail is a copy, I can't get over it." Liu Yiyi sat up, fumbled to put on her underwear and said, "Then you can think about it yourself here, as big as you want, and as long as you want." She rolled over from Song Xusheng and sat on the edge of the bed to put on her coat. Song Xusheng also sat up, leaned on the head of the bed, looked at her, and did not make a sound. Liu Yiyi thought as she wore it, what if he really sat like this? Thinking so, she slowed down a little, as if her trousers didn't fit well. Suddenly, she sped up again, put on her clothes, stepped on her high heels, lifted her satchel, and glanced at Song Xusheng with her spare eyes, he was still sitting so indifferently. Liu Yiyi felt a burst of hatred in her heart: "Okay, you are ruthless." "She wants to gamble, and she can only gamble. Since it is a gamble, the heart must be ruthless, and if the gamble is lost, it will accept fate. She didn't look at Song Xusheng, and walked to the door. Holding the doorknob in his hand, he couldn't help but say, "Think about it." "Ruthlessly pull the door open. Song Xusheng suddenly jumped out of bed and grabbed her who had already gone out. Liu Yiyi said: "Why don't you let me go? Song Xusheng said: "You come in and say, come in and say." Liu Yiyi said: "I don't want to say it." "Struggling to leave. Song Xusheng said: "Come in and say, you see I don't have a single piece of clothing." At this time, there was a sound of footsteps in the corridor, someone came over humming a minor tune, and Song Xusheng pulled it violently and slammed the door shut.

Song Xusheng put Liu Yiyi on the door, looked at each other, panting, and didn't speak. After a while, Song Xusheng said, "Did that person see me just now?" Liu Yiyi said, "You go and ask him." Song Xusheng picked Liu Yiyi up by the waist, and Liu Yiyi kicked her feet in the air and said, "What are you abusing me for?" If you have something to say, it's here! Song Xusheng put her on the bed and said, "Okay, say it here." Liu Yiyi sat up, straightened up and said, "I'm like this, if you have something to say today, I won't want to hear it tomorrow." Song Xusheng stood in front of the bed, crossed his hands on his hips and said, "I didn't have any mental preparation, I was too unprepared." She was so scared for so long, I thought she was *** a few years old, so calm, really a good girl...... You won't let me touch it for so long, what does that mean? Isn't that deliberately me off? Liu Yiyi said: "Think I'm such a casual person, right?" Song Xusheng said: "Everything is gone, what else is not casual?" Liu Yiyi pointed a finger at him and said, "Do you have it?" You? Song Xusheng was stunned for a moment, and immediately said, "Do we have anything?" Liu Yiyi said: "It's not you, are we talking to ourselves?" It's so unfair. Song Xusheng was asked, took a few breaths and said, "Anyway, anyway...... Anyway. I've trusted you for so long, what a big deal. Liu Yiyi said: "I used to have a boyfriend, and you don't know it." You have a girlfriend, and I know that. Song Xusheng said: "As soon as you say it, half a catty and eight taels? Song Xusheng sat down, glanced at Liu Yiyi, and then looked at him and said: "The madness before marriage is the preparatory school for romance after marriage, I used to be absolutely relieved of you, you are so good Why am I worried so much?" In the future, I am absolutely not at ease, who knows what you think about those things? It's a trivial matter, it's ordinary, it doesn't matter? Can such a woman be a wife? It's scary, it's horrible. Don't blame me for being too strict with you in the future, I don't want to be a fool. Liu Yiyi immediately said: "How strict you are with me, I will be as strict as you are." Song Xusheng said: "I'm not stingy, it's not that I don't trust you, I really don't want to wear a hat of a certain color." ”

The two reconciled, turned off the lights and went to sleep. Liu Yiyi's mobile phone flickered on the table, flickering in the dark. Song Xusheng said: "Someone calls you." And he said, "What are you doing when you turn it to silent?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't want others to quarrel with me." "Don't pick it up. After a while, it flashed again, and Song Xusheng said, "You go and pick it up." Liu Yiyi thought that it was so late, maybe Qin Yixing called, and said, "I'm too lazy to pick up, it's annoying." Song Xusheng said, "Then I'll take a look." And he turned on the light. Liu Yiyi immediately got up and picked it up. Qin Yixing said: "Why don't you answer the phone for half a day? Where is it? With whom? Do? It's so late! Liu Yiyi was thinking about how to answer, Qin Yixing said, "Is it Song Xusheng?" Liu Yiyi realized his wit and immediately said, "Yes." Qin Yixing said, "Is he by your side?" Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." Qin Yixing said: "It's so late, aren't you going back?" Liu Yiyi hesitated for a moment and said, "Yes." Qin Yixing said: "That's good, good." Good night. "I closed the line. Liu Yiyi was still holding her mobile phone and said, "Manager Guo, don't worry, things won't make a big deal." When he turned off the machine, he saw Song Xusheng looking at him suspiciously, so he said: "In the afternoon, the two people in the company had a conflict, and Manager Guo called to verify the situation and asked them if they had said something like that." Song Xusheng said: "Your manager is really a manager, it's more than eleven o'clock to verify the situation." Liu Yiyi said: "Who told him to be so annoying?" The next time you meet him, you give him advice and ask him not to call so late. Seeing Song Xusheng's inquiring look, his heart moved, and he handed him the mobile phone and said, "Why don't you call him now, he hasn't slept yet." Saying that, his heart jumped a few times, what should he do if he really hit it? If you want to bet, you can only bet, you can dance on a tightrope, and you have to dance well, that is the winner. She saw him holding his mobile phone and hesitating, so she urged him to say, "If you want to call, call immediately, and he will sleep later." Song Xusheng took his mobile phone to look for the number just now, and Liu Yiyi said nervously: "Even if it spreads all over the company tomorrow, everyone laughs at me for finding a man with a careful eye, and my heart is only as big as a sesame seed, and I am not afraid." I said he liked me so he was careful. Song Xusheng said: "I didn't want to be so stingy. Returning the phone to Liu Yiyi said: "You turn it off, and it will flash again after a while, affecting my mood, and I can't do anything." ”

Song Xusheng was tired and fell asleep while talking. Liu Yiyi removed his arm from under his neck, turned sideways and wanted to sleep, but he couldn't sleep. She thought, Qin Yixing knew about this, would he ignore herself? Will he be jealous? She feared that he would get angry with himself because of jealousy and ignore him. Thinking like this, I suddenly realized that what I was most worried about was that he was not jealous at all, very calm, and nothing. She imagined his demeanor after meeting, and all kinds of expressions came to mind, but she was not sure. Speaking of which, I know him well enough, but I still don't know sure. Anger is possible, and it's possible to do nothing. Looking back at myself, I don't know what kind of look I want him to have.

She told herself not to think about Qin Yixing, it was too unfair to Song Xusheng. But the more I think about it, the more I have to think about it, and there is a blind power in my heart, as if I can't get along with myself. She compared tonight's events with when she was with Qin Yixing, in some indescribable subtleties, no matter what, Qin Yixing knew herself better. has emotions with Qin Yixing, and he also feels moisturized. With Song Xusheng, I always feel a little astringent, astringent. After all, a woman's body follows her mood! She suddenly felt the power of those subtleties intensely, and that momentary feeling could determine the direction of things. The woman's body also has sensitive memories, hazy, light, as if there is nothing, but it is sharp and intense, with body temperature. This is too cruel to Song Xusheng, and too cruel to himself. I remember Dr. Guo said back then, I am not feudal, I don't care about your state, but I have to care about your mentality. These words come from a deep experience of things. Song Xusheng is really wronged! Unable to sleep, Liu Yiyi touched her mobile phone and wanted to see the time, but when the display screen lit up, she suddenly had a strong impulse, and she couldn't restrain it. She whispered "Song Xusheng", but without reacting, she gently turned her body sideways, covered it with a blanket, and sent a message to Qin Yixing: "I'm thinking about you." The display flashed, and the reply came quickly. Liu Yiyi thought that he hadn't fallen asleep yet, and felt a sense of relief, not only did he have sleepless nights. Lying under the blanket and seeing the reply is "looking forward". She was a little depressed, could it be that everything in the past was really over? She really wanted to send another letter to discuss this issue, so she looked at Song Xusheng and held back. Qin Yixing has repeatedly told himself not to take meaningless adventures because of momentary emotional impulses, to endure, to endure. Yes, he was right, bear with it, bear with it.

In the haze, Liu Yiyi felt a little heat on her face, and struggled to open her eyes, the sky was already bright, Song Xusheng sat in front of the bed, his head in front of her. Liu Yiyi said: "What are you doing? Song Xusheng said: "I haven't seen what you sleep like." Then he said, "Breakfast is ready for you, I'll report and come back and go to the district office together." He kissed her on the lips and put his hand into the blanket. Liu Yiyi said: "Okay, okay, okay." And he said, "They want to sleep a little longer." Song Xusheng went out, Liu Yiyi immediately took out her mobile phone, wanted to call Qin Yixing, heard the key open the door lock, and immediately put the mobile phone under the pillow. Song Xu ascended in and said, "Let me look at you for another minute." He lingered for a while, and said, "The milk will be cold, and I will bring it to you." He helped Liu Yiyi to sit up, took the cup and fed her to drink, and left.

Liu Yiyi waited for two minutes, made sure that Song Xusheng was gone, and thinking that he would be back soon, immediately called Qin Yixing. No one answered, and no one answered yet. I sent a message and didn't reply. Liu Yiyi gritted her teeth with hatred, wondering if he was with that Yan Yan again. In that case, forget it. Liu Yiyi lay down, feeling like a sinner waiting to be sentenced. She dialed Miao Xiaohui's phone again, told her feelings, and asked, "What should I do?" You said. Miao Xiaohui said: "To this day, if you want me to say that I really don't know what to say, what did I do earlier?" Liu Yiyi said: "How can I know some things? I shouldn't have had those experiences, they will all be painful memories in the future. Some people say that dating a boutique man is like smoking opium, you have to quit, it's difficult! And he said, "Say, you say, I will not blame you in the future for whatever you say, and if you don't say it, no one will tell me." Miao Xiaohui said: "I said it for your reference only, you should still be with Song Xusheng, and you are not the only girl who marries reason." Qin Yixing is good, but you can't get it, what's the point of that for you? You can't afford to play anymore. Liu Yiyi said: "Is it really that urgent? I saw Maggie Lee on TV the day before yesterday saying that she has been waiting for a fate for so many years, and she is a few years older than me. Miao Xiaohui said: "Do you dare to believe her words?" People are stars and can afford to play, and there are still people who want her at the age of forty. Besides, which night does she have no fate? She waits for a kind of fate, hey, hey, you dare to take it seriously when you show off on TV? At this time, there was the sound of a key opening the door at the door, and Liu Yiyi lowered her voice and said, "He's back." If you call immediately, you will say that you are Manager Guo and ask me to go to the company immediately. As soon as Song Xusheng came in, Liu Yiyi's mobile phone rang. Liu Yiyi answered the phone and said, "Manager Guo wants me to go to the company immediately." Song Xusheng said: "What did I offend him, and he couldn't get along with me like this?" Liu Yiyi comforted him and said, "Afternoon, afternoon." Tomorrow at the latest. Afternoon. Seeing that Song Xusheng stretched out his arm to stop himself, his body flashed, twisted again, and hurriedly walked out of the door.

Walking to the road, he looked back and saw that Song Xusheng was not following behind, so he took out his mobile phone and called Qin Yixing. Qin Yixing said, "Do you still have the mood to call me?" Liu Yiyi said, "What do you mean?" Qin Yixing said, "You won't tell me that nothing happened last night, right?" Liu Yiyi pondered and said, "Isn't that with your approval?" Qin Yixing said: "Yes." Does he care about you? Liu Yiyi said: "Can you not care? I thought about it lightly. Qin Yixing said: "I know that if he doesn't care, he will give in to his desires." He sighed again, "You're still wholeheartedly with him." Liu Yiyi said: "There is no enthusiasm at all, there is no enthusiasm for anything." Qin Yixing said: "Why don't you behave enthusiastically, aren't you very good at performing?" Liu Yiyi said: "There is no enthusiasm to show enthusiasm. Qin Yixing said: "This is your mistake." Liu Yiyi said: "It's not a question of whether it's right or wrong, if I say it's wrong to myself, can it be right?" He also said: "Qin Fart, you have made me miserable, I don't want to register." Qin Yixing said, "How can that be done?" No way. Liu Yiyi said: "Why not? I don't want you to be responsible. I don't think it's good to get married like this, how can I finish it in the future! One life, I only have this one life! Have mercy on me, have mercy on me! And he began to sob. Qin Yixing said: "In today's marriage, two people have too many experiences and memories, plus those countless comparisons, it is normal for the state to be in a bad state. With so many memories, how good can the state be? Don't think too much about the state, it's still the same if you change it, who will wait for you to be thirty years old? Have you waited for him? Liu Yiyi said: "The emotions didn't come up. Qin Yixing said: "Emotions are temporary. You have to see the situation clearly, there will be no better chance. Liu Yiyi said: "What if there is a better opportunity? Someone will always run into luck. Qin Yixing said: "Not before, will there be in the future?" Miracles don't happen in a vacuum. Liu Yiyi was very frustrated and said: "You mean that I can't touch it now, and I won't be able to touch it in the future?" Qin Yixing said, "Don't touch that, just in case." You must touch it, and who dares to tell you not to touch it? I hope you won't come to me crying and crying again. Liu Yiyi said: "Selfish." Qin Yixing didn't respond, and said, "What is in case, just in case is one in ten thousand." If a person lives a long life, there are 30,000 days, and three of them may encounter luck, do you dare to touch this luck? ”

After receiving the phone, Liu Yiyi stood there, not knowing whether to go left or right, she took a few steps to the left and a few steps to the right, and it didn't feel right, and finally stood under a camphor tree. She watched pedestrians come and go and felt like the most distressed person in the world. Alas, the heart is already broken and full of holes. Alas, isn't it just a lifetime? Is it worth taking it that seriously for a lifetime? With desperate expectations, Liu Yiyi dialed Ah Yu's phone again and told her feelings, vaguely hoping to get an unexpected guidance. Ah Yu said: "Yiyi, do you really need that piece of paper so much?" Marriage is really dispensable for an independent and self-respecting woman. If two people have love, why can't they love purely? Why not stay away from the blandness and obligations that are sure to be faced? Why can't you freely arrange your own state of life? Hearing these words, Liu Yiyi was a little disappointed, after all, she was almost twenty-eight years old, and she didn't have that youthful passion and impulse. I don't know what others do, but I know what kind of state Ah Yu's freedom and purity are. Ah Yu has despaired of men, and this despair comes from how many painful experiences. Now Ah Yu regards this unavoidable freedom and purity as an active choice, which can only be a tragic comedy, and she needs to use this comedic and pretentious open-mindedness to cover up her situation. Liu Yiyi said: "I'm not like you, I'm an ordinary person!" After chatting for a while, Liu Yiyi found an opportunity to interrupt Ah Yu's words and closed the line. Thinking that Ah Yu has often called to ask herself to play recently, and if she doesn't go, this kind of forced friendship makes Liu Yiyi a little disgusted and a little worried about her. The man's world is gradually closed to her, and the woman's world is gradually closed to her. Liu Yiyi thought, they are all family people, who has so much time to accompany her? I'm not a strong woman, I want to have a home and a child, I can't go to the state of Ah Yu. I thought again, is the call to Ah Yu just now a bit malicious, and I want to use Ah Yu's situation to push myself to make a final decision? If you think about it, if you can't think about it, you don't want to.

The late autumn sun shines through the leaves and shines on her face, with a cool warmth. Although she has irrepressible fantasies and expectations in her heart, Liu Yiyi still knows very well that no miracles will happen in this world, and she can't have illusions about Qin Yixing, let alone that "what if". Standing there for a long time, she knew that this was a futile struggle, took out her mobile phone and dialed Song Xusheng's number and said, "People have been waiting for you at the gate for a long time, don't you want to go?" ”