It's been a few years, and Liu Yiyi got married, but she doesn't know where her heart is. When she first got married, her heart was not settled at all, floating in nothingness, and she couldn't say where. Since she didn't have any hope for love, she felt that she didn't need to pay sincerely, and even if she got married, she couldn't find a sense of home. With Qin Yixing and Xia Weikai, his appetite has been raised. Although she knows that her best years have passed, and she no longer has the capital to ask for so much from life, she can't see it and feel it, this is no way to do it. However, this did not prevent her from dealing with life with a sense of reality and sobriety, almost thirty years old, if she still sticks to her feelings, she must find that feeling before she is willing to marry, then she will go to the same road with Ah Yu, she doesn't want to have that day. This made her very regretful, and she was more aware of what a mistake she had made. It is too stupid not to look for a feeling that can be entrusted to a lifetime in the best years of one's youth, but to set the golden years on the side of other people's happiness, and you have to pay the price of your life for this stupidity. To this day, there is no connection with Qin Yixing at all, and this mistake is even more insightful. I once thought that he would miss himself for a long time! Will it? Liu Yiyi gave herself a cold-faced ridicule in her heart. In the past few years of dating, he has paid a period of love and money, and everything else, family, daughter, future, etc., everything, he has not lost the slightest. Let's talk about money, which doesn't hurt him, and he can't imagine that a man will be hurt because of a woman. Speaking of love, once had, the past is over, and it is passing away. As for herself, she has given the best thing in a woman's life, and she can never get it back, and this kind of giving is not for him to stop when the relationship ends, but to last a lifetime.

Fortunately, Liu Yiyi felt comforted that Song Xusheng was not such a unpromising man, and his success exceeded his expectations. Look at the family, the house is there, and the everything you want is there. Perhaps, in another two years, you can buy yourself a car and drive. In this case, no matter how much I have no feelings for Song Xusheng, I recognize him as the only man in my life. What can a woman do if she has a child? No matter how narcissistic Liu Yiyi is, she can also feel that the men around her are different from before, and they are still enthusiastic, but behind the enthusiasm is a kind of politeness that suggests distance, rather than the kind of unconscious passion that is difficult to suppress. Liu Yiyi felt the loneliness, loneliness, and tragedy when the flowers began to wither.

Because she didn't find a feeling in Song Xusheng, Liu Yiyi didn't have the passion to perform. Performing passion, this used to be the top priority between himself and Qin Yixing, a compulsory homework every time they met, in those four or five years, how many times did they express their passion, and now it has become a memory, a memory with body temperature. Sometimes Liu Yiyi feels that Song Xusheng should not be treated like this, which is unfair. However, can a woman's passion be pretentious? Yes is yes, no is no, I can't help myself, and I can't deceive myself if I want to. How many times, when she was with Song Xusheng, she closed her eyes and tried her best to imagine the past experiences, pictures, Qin Yixing, and Xia Weikai, she wanted to stimulate herself, which also made Song Xusheng even happier. But this kind of effort still came to no avail. For a woman to deceive herself and others like this, it is too hypocritical and too painful. Living in lies, we have to live in lies, how many women in the world live in lies! Song Xusheng began to have some complaints about this state, which made Liu Yiyi think of the experience he had had, and he also made comparisons in his heart, which made it even more difficult for Liu Yiyi to enter the passion. In fact, she knew exactly how to get him excited, the existing experience was enough, there was no need for more, and there was so much room to expand. But in any case, Liu Yiyi doesn't have that kind of emotion, and if she doesn't have emotions, she still has to perform emotions, which is too reluctant and embarrassing, and this kind of posture can only be done by those smiling women. Liu Yiyi thought about this question many times and finally gave up. Later, both of them gave up their efforts and reached a tacit understanding, so that things were expressed in a bland way, which is also natural. With this tacit understanding, it has become a rule, and it is impossible to change it again, besides, she is lazy in her heart, and she has no motivation to change.

After this quarrel, Liu Yiyi ignored Song Xusheng for many days. When he tentatively came to pestering her in the evening, she shook his hand away and said, "Don't make a noise." "Throw yourself to the side. According to her experience, since men want to quarrel, they will always come to quarrel, and it is not okay not to quarrel. She lay there waiting for him to come again, thinking about what she wanted him to say nicely, and what conditions to agree to, before she made concessions. After waiting for a while, Song Xusheng didn't come to make a noise, and there was the sound of flipping the newspaper behind him. Out of the corner of her eye, Liu Yiyi caught a glimpse of Song Xusheng leaning there reading the newspaper seriously, and a wave of resentment surged in her heart, and she couldn't suppress it even if she wanted to, and said, "Don't make noise, I'm going to sleep." Song Xusheng said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He lifted the quilt, slipped out of bed, took the newspaper and went to the living room, and immediately stepped back again, turned off the lights, and went.

Liu Yiyi lay in the dark, and the resentment in her heart turned into hatred. "He dares, he really dares! He said sorry to me! In her frustration, she wanted to find a reason, chased her to the living room, and quarreled with him. Don't pass, everyone! Liu Yi rolled over, stepped on the floor barefoot, ran to the door, and stopped. She stood there, trying to find a reason, but couldn't find it. Just ran over and quarreled, it was a scoundrel and a weakling, it was too cheap. Liu Yiyi returned to bed, thinking that in the past few years, I don't know when she started, she gradually lost her initiative, and her anger towards him gradually became invalid. When he first got married, he asked Song Xusheng to stand on the left, he wouldn't stand on the right, and those days are gone. Life is so realistic, and after a few years, the situation takes a sharp turn for the worse. Song Xusheng gradually came out, but he gradually lost his youth. When he wins the most valuable thing of a man, he is losing the most valuable thing of a woman. This reverse process has been thought of before, but today it will be their turn. I am not an exception, life is really too cruel for women.

Lying still, Liu Yiyi heard the muffled sound of the wind outside, like a giant's mournful whimper. The sound gave her an inspiration, and she got up, shivered, listened to the sound of the newspaper in the living room, opened the window in the dark, and a cold wind rushed in, and a slight stinging pain swept across her face. She immediately retracted into the quilt and listened to the sound of the living room, but there was silence. She waited for a while, but there was still a suffocating silence, she got up again, and gently walked to the door to look at it, and Song Xusheng actually slept on the sofa with her clothes. Liu Yiyi's heart sank and she felt a strong sense of loss. She stood against the door for a moment, coughing, which gave her another kind of inspiration. She went back to bed, coughed hard, coughed a few times, and listened, but there was no sound outside. She coughed desperately, almost yelling, and finally there were footsteps outside the door. Liu Yiyi immediately lifted the quilt and shrunk into a ball with her arms in her arms. Song Xusheng said in the dark: "Who didn't close the window? I turned on the light and wanted to close the window, but suddenly saw Liu Yiyi lying like that, and immediately pulled the quilt over to cover her. Liu Yiyi kicked the quilt under the bed, Song Xusheng picked it up and covered it again, and was kicked open again. Song Xusheng closed the window and said, "What are you doing here?" Liu Yiyi said: "Open the window, I'm stuffy to death, I want to ventilate!" Song Xusheng once again put the quilt on Liu Yiyi's body, and when he saw that he was about to kick it away, he pressed the corners of the quilt with both hands, and his whole body lay on the quilt and said: "What do you have to say, it's not you who suffers like this?" Liu Yiyi kicked her feet and said: "I just want to harm myself, I don't have the right to harm others, and I don't have the right to harm myself?" It's my right! Forget about death, what are you doing alive? Song Xusheng said: "As for it? What do you have to say? Liu Yiyi swayed around, trying to break out of the quilt and said, "Get out of the way, don't violate my human rights." When I die, you'll be released from prison, isn't that what you dreamed of? Song Xusheng pressed hard and said, "Why do you say that?" I still want a wife. Liu Yiyi struggled a few times and said: "There are so many people outside who can be your wife, you go and go!" Young and beautiful, she can accompany wine, sing, everything, massage and wash her feet, she won't do anything if you don't have money, she will do anything if she has money! Do! Song Xusheng smiled on it and said, "Yes, yes, but Qinqin's mother is only one." Liu Yiyi twisted her body and said, "I'm nothing but Qinqin's mother!" Song Xusheng straightened up and rode on top of her, took off his cotton jacket and said, "You asked me not to quarrel, I really don't dare to quarrel, and you have resentment." Got into the quilt, hugged Liu Yiyi from behind, turned her body over and said, "Okay, okay, don't be angry, find something happy to do." Reach out and untie Liu Yiyi's corset. Liu Yiyi still wanted to break away, but felt that her body was soft and had no strength.

At that moment, Liu Yiyi wondered if she should show more passion, like she had performed before, and also make things turn around. Thinking like this, she closed her eyes, and the image of Xia Weikai swept over her heart, and she immediately felt again how awkward and pale the passion from reason was. Besides, who knows if he is bearing his passion for an outside woman? This thought came to mind, and she involuntarily asked, "Are you okay?" Song Xusheng said: "It really affects emotions. He rolled aside and said, "I don't think you're a tasteless person." Liu Yiyi wanted to explain something, but finally didn't speak.

Taste is not interest, Liu Yiyi doesn't have any hope, pretentious interest is better than no interest. But I read the newspaper that AIDS is approaching the general population, which makes Liu Yiyi very worried. Who knows if you are living in this shadow? There is no way to confirm it, and it is impossible to even ask, and it is useless to ask. Not to mention so many other bacteria. Song Xusheng is becoming more and more indifferent to himself, which is a sign in itself. She saw the relevant report in the newspaper and wanted to take a red pen frame on it to remind him to focus on it, but she thought it was too obvious and too clumsy. What to do? After thinking about it, she thought of a way, first put the other news in the evening newspaper, what to pay attention to healthy eating, beauty methods, and outlined them with a red pen, and gradually turned to the reports she really wanted him to see. Sometimes I also say a few words directly: "You often go out on business trips, the bacteria are so abundant, so powerful, much more powerful than tigers, you have to be careful!" Every time Song Xusheng came back from a business trip, Liu Yiyi asked him to change all the clothes inside and out, even the towels. She wanted to give him the impression that it was extremely dangerous on the outside. Did that work? Liu Yiyi couldn't answer herself. Miao Xiaohui said: "A man is out on a business trip, so boring, there is a service phone in the hotel and ready-made tools for committing crimes, those women will come over with a phone call, and they will be sent to the door if they don't call, you want him to be so law-abiding, unless he is a really good man." "Is Song Xusheng a real good man? Liu Yiyi didn't dare to think about it, and she really didn't dare to think about things in the world.