"Do you know how I met her?"

Brother Snake suddenly said this sentence, which is indeed intriguing, but Zhen Hua didn't think about it so much, how did other husbands and wives meet and what does it have to do with him, he is just a person who should be forgotten, the sudden appearance may disturb their lives, should he leave, but after all, they saved their lives, and it seems inappropriate to leave rashly, but now he seems to need to answer Brother Snake's question, but he is really not interested in understanding the emotional history of other couples. Let's ask who would be interested in his ex-wife's emotional history, not to mention that Zhen Hua didn't have the slightest love for his ex-wife, it was just a formal husband and wife, so he had no reason to care about his ex-wife's feelings, let alone such an innocuous trivial matter as their acquaintance.

"That was fourteen years ago, I haven't retired yet, I was on a mission at the border, it was a barren forest, at that time my team members were all sacrificed, I barely completed the mission, and was about to return to the base, but I met Lu Jing who was about to hang herself, I saved her, and then I fell in love with her."

Brother Snake said to himself, but this story doesn't seem to be exciting, just like the performances in many TV series, and Zhen Hua clearly remembered that he and Lu Jing divorced seventeen years ago, and the three-year vacancy in the middle also means that that suicide has nothing to do with him, as long as it has nothing to do with him, then what Brother Snake said later naturally has nothing to do with him, but after all, he is his own life-saving benefactor, so his impatience can't be too obvious, but he can't talk to him, after all, in front of Lu Jing's husband, He can't show that he cares about Lu Jing, otherwise it will cause a gap between their husband and wife, but it will be a hundred deaths.

"For a long time, she was reluctant to tell me the reason why she chose to commit suicide, until I confessed to her, she told the truth, since then, even when I retired, I only took on the role of taking care of her, never dared to disturb her love life, she has been like a puppet all these years, if no one is driven, she doesn't know what to do, sometimes she sits alone in the room in a daze, she can spend the whole day, which makes people look particularly pitiful, but I can't do anything, I think only you know, Why is she like this? ”

Zhen Hua looked at him with a confused expression, thinking that his divorce from Lu Jing was a decision made by both parties after negotiation, Lu Jing did not object at the time, although he was indeed quite excessive and ruthless back then, but after many years, no matter what kind of pain, under the healing of the years, it should also be better, and the three-year vacancy has already shown that Lu Jing's suicide has nothing to do with him, as for Lu Jing's emotional bruising, it may indeed be his own reason, but what does Brother Snake want to do? Are you going to settle accounts with him? I am still a patient, and my life was saved by them, so I shouldn't poison myself.

"I love her very much, I never thought that I would fall in love with a woman so madly, but this woman doesn't love me, she said that there is a person living in her heart, although that person doesn't love her, but she can't let go of that person, I have tried hard to replace that person's position in her heart over the years, but all this is in vain, do you know who that person is?"

Zhen Hua's intelligence has not yet reached that level, if he is facing a passerby, how can Brother Snake say such a thing, so who that person is, it is naturally self-evident, Zhen Hua did not expect that his charm is so great, he can make a person and a woman love for so long, how Lu Jing has insisted all these years, he doesn't know, and he doesn't want to know, and he can be said to be indifferent to Lu Jing now, he didn't love it before, and it is even more impossible to love it now. Zhen Hua originally thought that Brother Snake and Lu Jing had been married for many years, but he didn't expect Brother Snake and Lu Jing to get along like this, which shocked Zhen Hua, but this made Zhen Hua quite embarrassed.

"I've been separated from her for a long time, and this is the first time we've seen each other in more than ten years, and if you think she still loves me, don't worry, I already have a family of my own, and I can't have anything to do with my ex-wife. Is there still smoke? ”

Zhen Hua's hands had already been burned by cigarette butts, and before he knew it, a cigarette that had only taken two puffs burned out, so he asked Brother Snake for another one, but he didn't want to continue to discuss everything about Lu Jing. I don't know why, there is a sense of guilt in his heart that can't be dissipated for a long time, not to mention that knowing that Lu Jing still loves him makes his guilt even stronger, so he doesn't know what to do, or escape from this place of right and wrong as soon as possible.

Brother Snake didn't continue to speak, because he had heard what he wanted from Zhen Hua's words, and there was no point in continuing to ask, and he knew that Zhen Hua was already full of sadness, presumably what he said had caused trouble to Zhen Hua, so now he just lit a cigarette and sighed out the window, and what Zhen Hua did was surprisingly consistent.

"I bought the porridge with preserved eggs and lean meat. Zhen Hua: Why did you get out of bed? Brother Snake, why didn't you stop him, and let him smoke, the doctor said that he couldn't get out of bed during this time, let alone smoke or drink. ”

Lu Jing returned to the ward, she didn't have time to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, the clear tears made it clear that she had cried just now, and why she was crying, it didn't seem that Zhen Hua should be concerned, Zhen Hua just honestly returned to the hospital bed, took the porridge handed by Lu Jing, and also refused Lu Jing's kindness to feed him.

Love is the most unreasonable thing in the world, it is not God's way to reward hard work, not that you can get 100% return through hard work and dedication; It is not a mathematical problem, as long as the calculation method is correct, you will definitely be able to find the correct direction and exit, and find the correct solution; It takes two people to be in love with each other and work together to be sustained – only to be fragile and paralyzed by either unilateral abandonment. They were like this back then, maybe Zhen Hua unilaterally ended the relationship, but after all, there was someone who was unwilling to let go, so he didn't know how to deal with it.

People who can really let go will not spend energy explaining the past, but face the present, live happily with the present, and tolerate the past relationships and relationships. A love affair should be cherished with kindness and say goodbye with gratitude. It's a pity that Zhen Hua is not such a person, and neither is Lu Jing, maybe it is this same concept of love, so they can barely get through the years, but they insist on their own concept of love after all, so they finally separated, but after all, there is one person's insistence, it is the other party, so the end of seventeen years ago is a relief for Zhen Hua and a new beginning, but for Lu Jing, it is just a period of separation.

Maybe the time will be very long, but Lu Jing doesn't care, missing is a kind of happy sorrow, a sweet melancholy, and a kind of warm pain; Missing is the long precipitation of yesterday and the yearning for a better future. Of course, no one wants to be lonely, but loneliness is also a helpless choice, loneliness is because you haven't found a suitable companion, loneliness is for the relief behind loneliness, and the process of loneliness is a process of finding true love. For Lu Jing, true love has appeared in her life as early as seventeen years ago, and she has also spent her happiest year with that person, of course, happiness is impossible to be satisfied, the short years are only waiting to disappear, the back is thin, only to see her face gradually aging, the pain of life, through to the profound, those unspeakable stories, those intoxicating words, are weathered in the folds of the years, the dream is barren, the reincarnation is longer than the promise, the lonely cloud window, the light step rhyme, the duckweed disperses, remembering the past.

Perhaps, there will always be something left in the deepest part of life, deep and shallow traces, be careful to gently brush, no longer feel pain, only a numbness. Drinking coffee, bitter taste. Happiness and sorrow, everything has become a thing of the past, and the truth and touch, hypocrisy and sadness can still be felt. Tears, quietly dripping into the coffee. This is Lu Jing's life over the years, what Brother Snake wants to tell Zhen Hua, because these Brother Snake are all in his eyes, but why tell Zhen Hua this? A person who doesn't love you, no matter how miserable you are, can't arouse any sympathy and pity from him, and Lu Jing doesn't need any pity.

When the thoughts accumulate too much, they are as deep as a burden, which will make some distant memories of the words float to the lips, and people can't help but want to listen to them again. Because no one can send it, I can only borrow a pair of ears and tell it to myself. Lu Jing thought that one day, she would completely forget her love and Zhen Hua, but one day, she saw Zhen Hua's dying appearance, and her tears fell, because this appearance made people feel distressed. I thought that when time passed, I forgot that I once loved someone without hesitation, forgot his care, and forgot everything he did. It's a pity that she is inexplicably strong, strong enough to survive the erosion of time, but it seems to be even more miserable.

Don't say at every turn that you leave everything to time, and time is too lazy to clean up the mess; Nothing lasts forever, and nothing lasts long. Make an excuse and anyone can go first. Zhen Hua only knows to hand everything over to time, it seems that this is already his habitual thinking, but he doesn't know that he has withstood the destruction of time and insisted on the love of his heart, so why can't others do it?

In everyone's life, there will be some traces engraved in the heart, which are difficult to erase; There are always some memories that are stuck in the memory and cannot be let go. So I learned to disguise, even if it was not a play, but every time in the dead of night, I gently took off the mask of disguise, and then quietly wept at the pale face in the mirror. Meet, leave, many years later, in the encounter, suddenly there is a feeling called difficult to let go. The wound may heal over time, but the knot in the heart may not always be relieved. Therefore, her life is not necessarily a chaotic fork in the road, she must let go and cherish what she has. This is what Lu Jing has said to herself every day and night for more than ten years, but she can't do it at all.