If a moment can be turned into eternity, maybe the moment between the two of them is eternal, they don't interfere with each other, and they are in the same space, and their way of getting along is just that. The helpless person is Zhen Hua, and the persistent person is Lu Jing, most of the time there is no outsider who can interfere with them, it is like an invisible magnetic field, and no one can enter, so one person smokes at the window, the other person is melancholy at the door, no one can intervene, and finally Lu Jing left the knot.

Zhen Hua can't be discharged from the hospital yet, so the door of the ward is locked, Zhen Hua heard the sound of locking the door, but he doesn't want to do anything except light the second cigarette, he is a caged bird, and it doesn't make much difference whether this door lock is locked or not for him, because he has been locked here, and the guilt for Lu Jing has imprisoned his heart, maybe it is the end of his life, hoping to redeem the conscience he discarded at the beginning, so he has to stay here, of course, he has nowhere to go, in this place, He only has two places to go, the inn and the ward, and it just so happens that Lu Jing exists in these two places, and he can't escape.

Life will inevitably encounter ups and downs, sadness, guilt, confusion, helplessness, etc., and if you are not careful, you will be imprisoned by the heart prison built by yourself. Therefore, Zhen Hua never expects the salvation of others, the shackles of his soul are fastened by himself, and only he can open it. Even if you have nothing, even if you are alone, even if you are in a difficult situation, you must live calmly and laugh at life, even if life is so short that there is almost no fun at all, but there are countless guilt and self-blame, I hope you can make up for it. I also hope that there will be no regrets and regrets, and it will all be fine.

I hope it doesn't backfire, in fact, Zhen Hua knows that some things, since they have been done, then don't regret it, let alone say sorry, because from the time he decided to do it, he deserved guilt and self-blame. It is sad that when you are selfish, you are aware of your own selfishness, and you are tormented beyond recognition by the burning guilt. There are always regrets in life that you miss. Every time I recall the past, I always blame myself deeply, sink into the lost mistakes, suffer and look forward to it, and fantasize about the next time. If you miss the person who may be with you for the rest of your life, it will be a lifetime of regret, and the pain of loss will be deeply engraved in your heart, and you can only swallow the tears, flow in the bottom of your heart, and slowly hide the scars.

A former guilt, a current kindness, after all, is owed to Lu Jing, whether it is guilt or kindness, Zhen Hua can't make up for it, he can't afford it, the only thing that can be exchanged is his own feelings, but he can't take out his feelings as a quid pro quo, just like the years hidden at the bottom, never mentioned, but season after season of pain, frightened, awakened by nightmares, self-blame, innocence is scraped very little. The grayest moment, thinking about the end of life, that kind of heartbreaking will never be forgotten for a lifetime, very reluctant but helpless. He has said and done things that hurt the hearts of others, and it is possible that he will forget them all in a blink of an eye, but he may not be able to forget them for the rest of his life, and he will not mention it just because he doesn't know what to say, in fact, he can't tell whether it is guilt, self-blame, regret or helplessness.

Some of the mistakes that have been made are due to being too late, some are due to deliberate avoidance, and more often they are standing aside in a daze. I made mistakes again and again, but I never knew how to learn from them and do some introspection. The greatest difficulty for people is to know themselves, and the easiest thing is to know themselves. Many times, Zhen Hua never recognized himself clearly, just because he put himself in the wrong position and gave himself an illusion. Therefore, I am not afraid of the bumpy road ahead, but I went in the wrong direction from the beginning. Many people love someone by mistake because they are lonely, but many more people are lonely all their lives because they love someone by mistake. They can't love each other, but they are also destined to not be able to stay together. It's not that Lu Jing doesn't love enough, it's just that Zhen Hua can't accept it, this love is definitely not correct, but how can love be absolutely wrong.

Zhen Hua has been imprisoned in this ward, and has no intention of escaping at all, he is willing to stay here, as long as there is enough for his pastime, Lu Jing put down two cigarettes on the bedside table before leaving, it should be enough for Zhen Hua to pass the time, maybe when he is bored, only the burning of cigarettes can bring him a trace of the pleasure of being alive. The passing years took away the sandalwood that remained on his fingertips, and his slightly cool heart was a little more melancholy. Those familiar pictures were once scattered thousands of miles away by the wind, singing in the lonely city, the wind and the waning moon, leaving deep thoughts in vain. The years that go by are finally the end of the song.

In this world, there are places that cannot be reached, people who cannot be approached, things that cannot be accomplished, feelings that cannot be possessed, and defects that cannot be repaired. Time may be able to influence some things, but feelings are an exception, because it is not limited by anything, it is the most uncontrollable emotion, but when a person insists on this emotion, then the erosion of time will also turn into nothingness, because emotions will only gradually precipitate with the passage of time, but will never dissipate because of this.

Zhen Hua knows how much he condemns himself over the years, how much he feels guilty about himself, his love, Lu Jing was ruthlessly abandoned by him, who does he resent? That weak self? The decision from the beginning was wrong, so when did his weakness begin? Maybe it started from the moment he fell in love with Wen Zixin. If it weren't for the fact that he has made some achievements in his career over the years, I'm afraid he would have collapsed a long time ago, he is a psychologically distorted weakling, and the weak person with a distorted mentality often bullies people who are more miserable than himself, and releases his resentment in the misery of others. Although what he "bullied" was only a rival in the business field, which was a reasonable competition, he had to admit that only in this way could he let go of his timidity and cowardice.

No one knows how their love will begin and how it will end, but what if there is one person who has arranged everything and is just waiting for that person to come in? Zhen Hua can't choose the beginning of Lu Jing and himself, but their end can be chosen, and they can even practice, of course, their end does not need to be deliberately arranged, because both parties know each other's intentions, so the deliberate will seem false, and the natural end will be what he wants, but unfortunately no one will know the ending, because the ending set by Zhen Hua is not controllable, and when he will face death, that is, the moment they end.

Of course, Zhen Hua hopes that he can stay in the world for a longer time, but the longer they stay together, it will be a kind of torture for Zhen Hua and Lu Jing, but who doesn't want to live longer? Zhen Hua is also an ordinary person, people will be afraid of death, he has tasted the taste of being close to death twice, so now he only has awe left, even if the real death comes, it will no longer affect Zhen Hua, so what Zhen Hua has to do next is just to live the rest of every day.

In fact, he didn't expect that he would go to the end with Lu Jing one day, so thinking about it had nothing to do with him, and then he didn't want to, recuperating with peace of mind, and passing the boring time with cigarettes. The mobile phone has been turned off for a few days and nights, and Zhen Hua has no intention of opening it, the current network information is spreading too fast, especially for a superstar like Wen Zixin, maybe he will see Wen Zixin's news inadvertently, so he didn't turn on his mobile phone, and the TV in the ward had already been turned off by him, he refused to accept all news from the outside world, just to insist on the current numb feelings.

After acquiescing to Lu Jing being with him, he didn't even dare to think about anything about Wen Zixin, because he knew that as long as Wen Zixin appeared in his mind, then it was impossible for anyone to be able to accommodate anyone in his heart, even if it was just a bystander position, Lu Jing could not have it, but he had already acquiesced, so he could only avoid everything about Wen Zixin as much as possible.

Desert time, ruthless years, leaving only a lovesick ethereal, only a wordless silence. The picture in the memory is so sparse, the memory is an endless sad road, pick up the heartbreak of a place, twist a piece of elegant petals in your hand, shallow sadness is like a cool breeze in the air, stranded the time of scattered memories, along the place by her, share some elegant and faint romance, maybe it is already the best care, he and Wen Zixin, can not do hand in hand, can only forget each other in the world.

The vicissitudes of the sad years, like to walk in the dark night, boundless, bitter and happy companionship, a little affectionate, three points of voluntariness, wandering in the world, no longer make a long-lasting promise for anyone. When the prosperity recedes, wash away the lead dust, find a landscape, choose an elegant place, take your hands, watch the flowers bloom and fall, and the clouds unfold. In the world, love is not so important.

There are two kinds of people worthy of admiration in love, one is a woman who accompanies a man to live a hard life when she is young, and the other is a man who accompanies a woman to live a good life when she is older. Happiness, there is never a shortcut, there is no flawless, only management, only by sincerity, Lu Jing belongs to the former, and Zhen Hua belongs to the latter. Lu Jing married Zhen Hua when Zhen Hua was the poorest, and almost regarded the company as her home that year, and left when Zhen Hua's career improved slightly. And Zhen Hua has now achieved a successful career, but he is still willing to accept the current Lu Jing, maybe their relationship is similar to love, although this is not, it is already quite close, which is not easy.

Zhen Hua has always had a question in his heart, how far is the distance between hearts, and why he can't always see each other's positions. In a thought, it is already the end of the world, and it is so simple to turn around, and the barrier of a chasm has finally become an embankment that cannot be ferried. A cigarette scattered his thoughts thousands of miles away, perhaps because he was already fearless, so he stayed alone in the ward, except for the sound of smoking breathing, there was no noise.