Chapter Seventy-Seven: Deep Thought
Wenzixin can't forget it, her emotions are only hers after all, it has nothing to do with Zhen Hua, nothing to do with Zhen Wenxin, and nothing to do with Lu Jing, what should be put down, what is the benefit of persevering? The matter has become a foregone conclusion, although Zhen Hua did not clearly indicate her relationship with Lu Jing, but now it is very clear, there is no need to say more, and this is not self-inflicted at all, she knows far more than Zhen Hua thinks, and her feelings are far deeper than she imagined.
But everyone understands, so everyone is more vulnerable, and friendship can further become love. Love takes a step back but is no longer a friend. Everyone knows, no one will puncture, everyone has a beautiful love in their hearts, but when the two start to live, most people always feel that good love is so vulnerable in front of life, and often love is not expected to be so beautiful as a dream at this moment! Love is picturesque, but life is concrete, which is like philosophy, theory meets practice. There is helplessness, and perhaps more of a philistine self-disturbance. Time is not old, the heart has been vicissitudes, there are disappointments, there are sorrows, and it is not easy to be beautiful in front of life.
Zhen Hua doesn't know how to refuse, he is always afraid that his words and deeds will make others unhappy, he always tries his best to meet every request of others, but no one appreciates him, because in the eyes of others he does what he deserves, so he intensifies, he doesn't know why, in fact, he is too painful because of himself, who makes him care too much about others but ignores himself, just like now, he and Lu Jing, why? Isn't it because he is used to not refusing, so there is the tragedy of the year, and the absurdity of the present, who is the loser? Maybe he didn't know, he thought that the person he hurt was only Lu Jing, but he didn't know that Wen Zixin was also among them.
So what is he wronged, he is not the only one in the world who loves him deeply. He doesn't look for Wen Zixin, is Wen Zixin not looking for him? He didn't look for Wenzixin, he gritted his teeth to save some self-esteem. Wen Zixin is his dream of gains and losses, but he is a dispensable person in Wen Zixin. It's a pity that liking is like multiplication, as long as one side is zero, the result is zero. But this is not the case, but Zhen Hua unilaterally believes that he has always been unrequited love, he doesn't know Wen Zixin's intentions, in his opinion, all things over the years are just friendships between friends, and there is no connection to feelings at all.
Maybe this is an emotional idiot, how much I love you, and in the end I become sorry. How much I'm sorry, in the end it all doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how much you have, and finally said thank you. Sad love also has sad beauty: it starts with I love you and ends with sorry. From saying goodbye to thank you for loving you. Love is extremely complicated but also simple to death, and it is just: I love you, I'm sorry, it's okay, thank you. This may not be said to be dull, it is more likely to be sensitive, but this is just a concern, what Wen Zixin has done over the years has been regarded by him as an act of friendship, and his own love has been closed by those unwarranted concerns.
In the relationship, it is very tiring to chase it, and it is not beautiful to force it. Those who miss him will always take the initiative to look for him, and those who don't want him will ignore him if they find him. has been inferior, and can only belittle himself; Repeatedly compromised, I can only be embarrassed for myself. In fact, people who have him in their hearts, no need to ask, no need to ask, no need to find, there will always be a problem. People who don't have him in their hearts don't have to be entangled, don't have to stay, are unnecessary, and are not worth looking forward to. Time is stretched out by dark light and shadow, but memory is on the verge of ending. Only then did I know that the farthest distance in the world was not for him standing in front of Wen Zixin, who didn't know his love. Rather, no matter how much time it takes, he can't miss it in the memories he remembers.
Two people who love each other deeply, the more they understand each other's hearts, the more critical they will be about the person they love, and the easier it is to cause harm. Because they love each other deeply, they will become extremely sensitive. Love and hurt are always a pair of brothers, hurt because of love, hurt because of love. If the love is too deep, it is easy to see the scars, but as long as the true love is still there, the scars will become a commemorative coin of love. Zhen Hua was afraid, he knew too well the relationship between himself and Wen Zixin, their relationship was too close, and they were such close friends and became lovers, the probability of such an ending was too great.
In everyone's life, there should be a time when they forget themselves for someone, don't ask for results, don't ask for peers, don't ask for what they once had, don't even ask him to know, just want to meet him in the most beautiful years. And everyone knows that if you don't try to be good to someone, that person will love you desperately. Worldly feelings inevitably have a realistic side: you are valuable, and your contribution is valued. But Zhen Hua has been doing this silently for twenty-nine years, maybe he is just looking for a paradise, chewing on pain and tasting sweetness; Or find a big tree and enjoy the shade and quiet to wither; But he was just looking for a lover, and he was with him in tears and laughter.
And walking, has reached the age of not being able to play, slowly understand that a long time is not necessarily love, but must be able to see people's hearts and gradually understand, no one will be like parents, has always tolerated and forgiven themselves, began to no longer be good to everyone, but who is good to him, he is good to whom, slowly found that he has changed, become less paranoid, to some insistence, no longer so persistent at this age, let him understand the true meaning of happiness, not how big his house is, but how sweet the laughter in the house is not how good you eat and dress well, It's that he is not sick or sick, I hope everyone can live in the moment and be happy in time, but unfortunately he didn't do it, and he doesn't need to do it, what age he has reached, he knows in his heart, how long his life is, but who understands his suffering, and Wenzi's pain comes from his worries and depression, and where does his worries and depression come from?
Time is like fine sand hidden in the hand, always sneaking down from your fingers. She is silent, but she can always leave some imperceptible traces. Just like a flower blooms and falls, when the petals fall, there will always be a dark fragrance left! So inadvertently, people in the flow of time, each old, time has passed nearly thirty years, they are no longer young, but time has not changed anything, they still maintain the same appearance thirty years ago, except for the old face, they have not changed.
Sometimes life has to live like this, the heart has been withdrawn, and they are still feeling the pain of peeling off the cocoon, time slows down, the heartbeat is about to stop, minute by minute, and then it is suddenly realized that he is experiencing death, the process of death is very slow, but it has been going on, and it has never stopped. Relief came at once, and he couldn't feel anything, maybe loving someone is indeed more terrifying than death. The shyness of one heart requires the bravery of another; The joy of one heart needs the laughter of another; The crying of one heart needs the comfort of another; The confusion of one heart needs the guidance of another heart; The call of one heart needs the echo of another heart; The sincerity of one heart needs the touch of another heart, but the two hearts have recognized each other, but they cannot be blended, maybe this is also a kind of sadness.
I heard that when you don't love, you have to go away. For love, he should be able to walk away freely, but he can only miss the original time, but he still loves, but has gone away. Some things, some people, can't forget for a lifetime, just like he can't forget Wenzixin, he also wondered if he closed his heart, he wouldn't be surging for Wenzi's heart anymore, but he didn't do it, and it couldn't be done.
Love is like a child who does not understand the world, unaware, unscrupulously releasing his character - romance and hurt. Inadvertently, smell the ups and downs, or joy, or sadness. I want to break free, but I am like a swamp and can't extricate myself. Youth is actually just for a while, but it has been stranded in memory for a lifetime. Do a good job in the present and make the present happy, so that when he leans on crutches and leans against the sunset, the fragrance of memories is enough to warm the vicissitudes of those years. It's just that Zhen Hua has no chance, and the person who accompanies him is Lu Jing, and at dusk, the only person who can send the funeral is Lu Jing.
Zhen Hua didn't care about Wen Zixin at all, when he woke up, he saw the scene of Lu Jing talking to someone on the phone, but he would never have thought that the other end of the phone would be Wen Zixin, if he knew, he would never stay here for half a minute, because of the last experience, he already knew how terrible Wen Zixin's impulse was, a helicopter flew directly over, and was seen by countless people, how much of a sensation it caused? How much effort did it take to calm things down after the fact? Zhen Hua knew all these in his heart, without his own constraints, no one could stop Wen Zixin's impulse, and he didn't want that to happen, of course, he didn't want to see Wen Zixin, and he was also afraid that he would not be able to bear the love in his heart.
It's like everyone has a number in their phone book that you will never call or delete; In everyone's heart, there will be a person you will never mention and never forget. There is no doubt that Wen Zixin is the person in his heart, and they all say that love is sad nine times out of ten, but he still wants to stick to it as always, so he loves it, but he also complains, loves Wen Zixin, and complains about himself.
Maybe he and her will never see each other again, they won't be lovers and they won't be friends, maybe that's the end of it. In fact, there are still a lot of things I want to say to her, but every time we meet, I don't say it, if we can meet in the future, of course, there will be no future, but he is still not sure if he can say it, I hope to meet after the ascension, and I hope never to see each other again, but if I have the opportunity to meet, at the funeral. I used to think about what I would be like, but now I look like I'm half-dead, but now I think it should be a calm smile, after all, they have been friends for too long, and they hope to see Wen Zixin's presence at their funeral.
The regretful likes of youth, no matter how reluctant he is, do not belong to him. Well, Wen Zixin is the person he wants to see, but he also knows that he has pushed away all possibilities, and he is gradually learning to forget. Maybe this is the normal state in the world, no matter how beautiful it is, it can't stand forgetting, and no matter how sad it is, it can't withstand time.