Chapter Seventy-Eight: Departure

So Wen Zixin could only spend her time in jealousy, no one could explain her, and Zhen Hua could only entertain himself in the boring ward, and Zhen Hua gave up all electronic devices, so his entertainment tools were only books and cigarettes, these two things were enough for him to spend time, of course, Lu Jing would come over to accompany him from time to time, but Zhen Hua barely opened his mouth, I don't know whether he was resisting or blaming himself, this is only Zhen Hua himself, so every time Lu Jing only stayed in the ward for a while, and then left.

This state lasted for a whole week, Zhen Hua, Wen Zixin, and Lu Jing all endured it, they calmly accepted this state, or they all had to accept it, this was not caused by one person, the three of them have experienced too many mistakes in the years, and the current situation is caused by the three of them, which is right and wrong between the three of them? Maybe it's a puzzle that can never be solved, and the real answer will never be possible.

Because they're all right and they're all wrong. Zhen Hua is right, he loves Wen Zixin deeply, he loves the person he loves, and he has persisted for so many years for this, so he can't have a trace of love for Lu Jing; But Zhen Hua was also wrong, he buried his love in his heart and did not reveal it, so that the person he loved could not receive his heart, and he also walked out of a wrong love because of that momentary impulse. Is he right? In his love, he insisted on what he loved in his heart, he was right, but he was also wrong, delaying the youth of another girl and missing the girl he loved.

How could Wen Zixin's heart not be like this? What's right and who's wrong? Wen Zi's heart is hard to speak. She still remembers how she fell in love with Zhen Hua step by step, it was Zhen Hua who pulled her out of an isolated and helpless situation, and it was Zhen Hua who proved to her what friendship was with her actions. Zhen Hua was her girl's pursuit, and because of her shyness, she never said her love, so she maintained a friendship with Zhen Hua for nearly thirty years, was she wrong? Maybe cowardice is a sin, but her insistence, isn't it? But she was still wrong, the company deliberately packaged and promoted it back then, she didn't inform Zhen Hua, she became a screen couple with the male artist, and then heard that Zhen Hua was married, and she didn't pay attention to it, so she let it go, and then Zhen Hua and Lu Jing divorced, she was called out by Zhen Hua to buy drunk, but she still didn't do anything, and now she can only wipe her tears secretly in the face of such a situation.

Of course, among the three of them, only one person has always done the wrong thing, that person is Lu Jing, of course, this kind of mistake is aimed at Zhen Hua, Wen Zixin and other others, but she herself has always had a clear conscience, because she pursues what she loves with her actions, what is wrong with this? There is only one point, she was wrong, which led to everything she did wrong, that is, the person she loved, did not love her, and this is the most fundamental reason, and she can't change it, the saddest thing is that she has always known this fact, and has always understood that she can't enter Zhen Hua's world, but she prefers to be reluctant and strong, she did it, she stepped on the thorns all the way, but all she got was scars all over her body, she tried, consumed her whole youth, and youth is gone, and now she, She is also a middle-aged woman.

So is it necessary for the three of them to argue about right and wrong? They are all right, they are all wrong, they are all in what they think is right, they have done the wrong thing, maybe it is because of so many mistakes that they have today, and to today, they must continue to follow the will of God to go to tomorrow, in the future they may continue to follow the current script, if nothing else, this state will be maintained until one party can not hold on, but no one's obsession will dissipate, the obsession that has existed for too many years is not so easy to let go.

A week has passed, their relationship is deadlocked, Zhen Hua and Lu Jing are silent with each other, Wen Zixin is crazy with jealousy thousands of miles away, maybe after losing it, even if he feels regretful and regretful, he can't rush to hope that it will reappear; After leaving, sad and regretful, but do not rush to hope for it, thinking that everything can go back to the past; After some mistakes have happened, you are embarrassed, helpless, and sad, but you should not be in a hurry to pretend that it did not happen, pretend that you did not disturb anyone's life, and pretend that you don't care, but unfortunately this is simply impossible.

As far as she is concerned, there are people who have never had the opportunity to meet, and when they have the opportunity to meet, they hesitate. Some love has never had a chance to love, and when it has the opportunity to love, it can no longer be loved. When she was a girl, she believed that one day, there would be someone who would read all her Weibo, accompany her to every festival, and listen to her favorite songs; has endless love words to her every day, just to make up for the late time, and except for the last point, Zhen Hua has done it, and when she was a girl, she always hoped that person was Zhen Hua, Zhen Hua did it, but in the end, Zhen Hua was not the identity she hoped for. They have spent a long time together, and time may not prove many things, but it will certainly see through many things. I feel more and more that taking care of myself and not causing trouble to others is an important step in my growth, but she has been harassing Zhen Hua all the time, and she has always been causing trouble to Zhen Hua.

Zhen Hua is very happy to accept such trouble, but unfortunately he can't take it now, Wen Zixin will no longer cause trouble, and he is no longer by Wen Zixin's side. This is the seventh day of his admission to the hospital, and it is also the seventh day that Wen Zixin fell into jealousy, but one thing is to be thankful, Zhen Hua can be discharged from the hospital, in a week's time, his injuries have been completely healed, and his body has been roughly fine, so after he has been examined, he has directly gone through the discharge procedures, and at the entrance of the hospital is Lu Jing, who has long been ready to greet him.

In fact, there should be another person, the person who rescued him from the snow mountain is not only Lu Jing, Brother Snake is also his life-saving benefactor, but from beginning to end, he only saw Brother Snake once, and they never saw each other after that, Zhen Hua couldn't get out of that ward, and Brother Snake just didn't want to see Zhen Hua again. Compared with them, Brother Snake sees it more thoroughly, maybe this is the outsider's opinion, and he will always see it more comprehensively than the person in the game. So he knew that he should leave, he was a truly rational person, and a person who could afford to let go, after saying that to Zhen Hua, he left, without saying hello to anyone, he left here, and the inn was also given to Lu Jing, and before Lu Jing could shirk it, Brother Snake left, leaving only the lawyer and the transfer contract, which seemed to be intolerable to Lu Jing's refusal.

In fact, Brother Snake is also a pathetic person, he loves someone who doesn't love him, how is it different from Lu Jing? But there is a difference, that is, without the interference of external factors, he can insist on what he loves, but after knowing that Zhen Hua is coming, what reason does he have to insist? He is an emotional person, otherwise he would not have persevered for so many years for a person who does not love himself, but in the face of the facts, he had to remain rational, he left, silently.

But what did Brother Snake's departure cause? Zhen Hua and him just met in Pingshui, they couldn't talk about friendship, and it was impossible to be sentimental about his departure, and Lu Jing didn't treat him as a thing from beginning to end, what he played was just the role of a spare tire, and whether he left or not didn't have much impact, so Brother Snake left and didn't take a cloud with him, maybe his existence itself was a mistake, at least it was a mistake to appear in Lu Jing's feelings, because Lu Jing's feelings could no longer tolerate others.

In fact, Lu Jing was attracted by Zhen Hua before she was in the world, so her concept of love was also assimilated, in fact, she was not such an affectionate person, Zhen Hua was not her first man, she had several relationships earlier, but in the end they all died without a problem, and Zhen Hua's feelings for Wen Zixin completely distorted Lu Jing's view of love, which was originally just the pathology of two people, but it evolved into the pathology of three people because of Zhen Hua, which may also verify that these three people are the same kind of people. None of them got the love they wanted.

Once upon a time, they all thought that they had found the happiness they wanted, but when they gave unreservedly, they found that it had always been wishful thinking. But they all understand that some losses are doomed, and some fates will never come to fruition. Loving someone does not necessarily have it, having a person must love her well, but having it is a responsibility, they can't do it hand in hand, and they can only be secretly sentimental.

They always fall in love with that person at the wrong time, in the wrong place, and then have to spend their whole lives forgetting. But no one knows, it's just that love can't be explained, and some wounds, no matter how long it takes, still hurt when touched; Some people, no matter how long it takes, still hurt when they think about it. Love is like this, there is no reason to talk about it, what you want to give the most, but it is not what he wants. Even though you have a thousand advantages, he only covets the shortcomings of another person. It is doomed to the situation of these three people.

They are all like this, loving a whole time, from ignorance to maturity, from impulsiveness to quietness. Thanks to that person, he once gave them an empty joy. Love so worriedly, hurt so thoroughly. They never know how hard it is for that person to be loved to think about them.

Now, Zhen Hua walked out of the hospital, and what was waiting for him at the gate was Lu Jing, as well as his car and luggage, which he had instructed Lu Jing early in the morning, and Lu Jing was also unconditionally obedient to him. And Zhen Hua just wants to leave as soon as possible, this place, he doesn't want to stay longer for a moment, if it weren't for the hospital to keep him, otherwise he would have left a long time ago, why wait until now, and now he only needs a car, of course, the additional conditions are a person, Zhen Hua has already agreed, there is no one to argue, let alone anything to resist, he has already accepted, so there is no need to hide it, the two of them left openly, as for where to go, that is not what Zhen Hua needs to consider.