Chapter Seventy-Nine: On the Road
Life walks slowly, life lives slowly, don't compare your life with others, don't lose your temper at will, although the vicissitudes of the world, the wind and rain change, but the flowers bloom more than one season, the beautiful scenery has been on the road, missed the spring flowers, we will also usher in the summer frog chirping, miss the autumn leaves quiet beauty, we will also usher in the winter snowflakes swaying. There is no right or wrong in life, there is no good or bad, just a choice, life is very difficult, time is also very short, on the road of life, meet kindness, learn to pay, meet ups and downs, learn to be brave, life is difficult, if you have the ability to laugh at life, you have the ability to enjoy life, if the heart is bitter, life becomes a bitter sea, the heart is sweet, and life is full of beautiful scenery.
Zhen Hua's time is running out, so he is still on the road, although no one knows what is ahead of the road, whether it is thorns, twists and turns, or a frank avenue, no one can make up his mind, Zhen Hua is just driving blindly, there was only one such stupid person, and now there is one more Lu Jing, this is helpless, but it is also the opportunity for him to give up the choice, and the rise and fall of life is only temporary, as time goes by, everything will disappear, no matter the vicissitudes of the world, We should restrain the infinite expansion of our hearts, go with the flow, and be at peace with what happens, so that we can return our hearts to ourselves, if we have time and opportunity to cry freely, it is always good, if we can shed tears, it means that the heart is not dry. Maybe Zhen Hua is just looking for a place where he can cry hysterically, honor and disgrace don't matter anymore, he just wants to prove that his heart has not dried up.
People are living is a state of mind, when their hearts are distracted, look down on the pain of life, indifferent to fame and fortune, positive and balanced, have something to ask for and do nothing, do not have to deliberately hide themselves, do not need to snob to serve others, just be a simple and true self, so so, even if you are frustrated, you will not care about gains and losses, frank and unrestrained, really calm and quiet, happy and happy. This is a very high artistic conception, originally at Zhen Hua's age, he would not feel this, but Zhen Hua has a deep experience, and even has practiced it, for no other reason, just because he is still alive, living is a state of mind, if he even wears out the mentality of living, maybe he will rest completely, and even the traces of struggle will gradually be lost.
Maybe no one knows where their path is, most people are just walking blindly, and walking and walking, maybe they see their own way, behind them is the road that stepped out of thin air, without the guidance of others, they broke out of their own way, Zhen Hua is such a person. So he went to different places, saw different scenery, knew different things, and felt different lives. And Zhen Hua's perception of life, may be a lifetime that many people can't experience, a dying person, when he is dying, what he thinks of, is really not much, but it is also the most precious, and out of danger again and again, his memories have naturally become life insights, unlike ordinary people, his light life and death are because his life and death have long been doomed, there is no possibility of change, so he can only go with the flow, this is a helpless choice, and what he feels and understands is also negative.
It is precisely because of extreme negativity that he can achieve a state of desirelessness that many people can't imagine, it is precisely because he will eventually lose, so it doesn't matter what he gets, and it is precisely because of this that he sees through everything, everything in this world can have nothing to do with him, so the road ahead is tortuous, it is open, and it has nothing to do with him, life or death ahead, and it can also go with the flow, he has no destination, he is just on the road, what he wants to prove seems to be only the current him, still alive, maybe he also wants to take his heart to travel, Looking at everything with a calm mind, writing, painting, and music seem to be what the ears and eyes do, but they are actually the feelings of the inner world. It can be perceived with the heart, and it is enough to precipitate it; Hearing good tidings and seeing good news is a blessing; It is already gratifying to carry a spoonful of flowers, pick a song of flowers, and let my heart feel relieved. It's a pity that this is not him, he can't do it at all, he is just an ordinary person, just a dying person, he has no leisure to watch or feel, although this is very beautiful, but because it is too beautiful, it has nothing to do with him.
Lu Jing sat in his co-pilot, this position belonged to her seventeen years ago, and now she is just sitting in this position again, but there is one thing she doesn't know, that is, this position, except for her, only Zhen Wenxin has ever sat in it, even Wen Zixin has never sat in this position, this co-pilot's position seems to have been occupied by her alone, and she is also rightfully occupied, because legally, she had a marriage with Zhen Hua, so this position has been reserved for her to this day, And when she sat in this position and looked at Zhen Hua again, she understood that there was no difference from seventeen years ago, the only difference was just that guilt, and it was precisely because of that guilt that Zhen Hua would take a non-rejection approach to herself. She was not a selfish person, but now, she had to admit that she had to take advantage of Zhen Hua's guilt, and she had to be selfish for her love, although she knew that everything had not changed at all, but at least she got it.
But what Zhen Hua thinks about is just a solo trip, a person's journey is closer to his heart, really stop, enjoy the moment of self-experience, what is the experience? Maybe real death. But maybe it's a glimpse of the light, outside of the lights, even if I have walked through so many cities, I still can't help but be curious about the unknown scenery. And his travel, only need, a backpack, a person to travel, a person to witness the scenery along the way, no need to take pictures, only need to burn what he sees in his heart, on the occasion of death to be able to meet for a moment is already content, Lu Jing's existence is really a burden, but he has no possibility of refusing, and he himself is guilty of Lu Jing, maybe there is also a hidden love in the guilt, but no one has noticed it, maybe so, but no one wants to know the answer, Because no matter what the answer is, it is just a distorted injury to Lu Jing.
And life is like a journey, encountering both touching and sad, exciting and disheartening, both wonderful scenery and only wind. Life is all about feeling the beautiful and the good, the ugly and the sick. And only in the journey of life full of hardships, always adjust your mentality of watching the scenery, can you be on the journey, understand life, and enjoy life. Zhen Hua also hoped that the road he took in the end was so beautiful, but in fact, he was just blindly wandering, without a goal, without stopping anywhere, and not being at ease with what happened, so what was he doing during this time? Giving up on yourself in your own way? Self-ending in your own way? Perhaps, in the eyes of others, he was just wasting his life.
So Zhen Hua doesn't need to think about where the road is, what he needs to know is what he wants to do? Originally, what he wanted to do was to visit his old friends, but over the years, all his real friends have been met, his social circle is not extensive, and it can even be said that it is narrow, and the only few close friends have been together alone during this time, and he seems to have nothing to do. By the way, he remembered, the reason why he left at the beginning was that he hoped to pick up his lost youth, find the original love, and repeat the love he started at that time, but time flies, he can't go back, and he can't return to his original state, the kind of juvenile impulse at that time, youthful blood, are gone, he can't do it, and even if he does it, he has lost his heart, so he can't do it, in fact, it doesn't matter, he is not a qualified lover himself, So it's better to bury that love in the bottom of your heart, maybe those memories before death are more profound.
One can never know what one wants, because one can only live once, and one cannot compare it with a previous life or correct it in a future life. There is no way to test which choice is good, because there is no comparison. Everything is experienced immediately, only once, can not be prepared. Therefore, talents will become confused, so they have to go through some roads to know the hardship; After climbing some mountains, I know that it is difficult; Wading through some rivers before you know the trek; After crossing some hurdles, you will know that you will transcend; After some things, I know the experience; After reading some people, I know the experience; After reading some books, I know wealth; After a lifetime, I know happiness. A little more happiness, a little less trouble, sleep when you're tired, smile when you wake up, how is life, put your own spices.
In fact, life flies quickly, the swaying life is over, Zhen Hua's life is about to end, so he doesn't care where it will end, but Lu Jing cares, Zhen Hua is the most unforgettable man in her life, so she attaches great importance to every decision of Zhen Hua, but it has been three hours since she got in the car, but she still doesn't know where she wants to go with Zhen Hua, but she didn't ask. I don't know what kind of trust it was, she just sat quietly.
In life, there will be flowers blooming in every season, time, you can experience a lot of things, and you can understand a lot of truths; It can prove many things and see through many people; It can be full of dust and cleanse a lot of dust. Time can seal many years and open up a lot of memories; It can heal a lot of suffering, but also wash away a lot of pain; can look down on the complexity of the world, and also calmly calm the warmth and coldness of the world. After so many years, maybe it's really fate, loving someone is scarred and blindly optimistic, and she looks back on the past because she hasn't experienced too many vicissitudes of life, and this kind of retrospective has a certain element of romance and vanity. After really tasting the ups and downs of the world, I probably don't bother to look back.
She's not strong, she's just good at disguise. Some people are not weak, it's just that they have really experienced too much, held back for a long time, and like to be alone for a while, and then cry well, and don't even know why they cry. After experiencing time and world events, I suddenly understood at a certain moment that this life will go through a lot of ups and downs and choices, and every step you take is closely related to the future.