Chapter 105: Hope for Healing
Wen Zixin still sat opposite Yang Dehui after all, she had already compromised with her heart, she still couldn't get around her inner choice, this was by no means a compromise with Yang Dehui, because in her opinion, Yang Dehui was nothing more than an old man of Zhen Hua, even if it was Zhen Hua's leader, it didn't mean anything to her, so she didn't have to care about Yang Dehui at all, and all the decisions she made were unlikely to be related to Yang Dehui, in fact, this was the "contest" between her and Zhen Hua, she was disobeying Zhen Hua, but she was also obeying herself, Of course, no matter what her choice is, in fact, Zhen Hua wins, because both choices revolve around Zhen Hua, and no matter what she chooses, it can only prove that she cares about Zhen Hua, and it doesn't prove anything else.
She lost, she lost unconsciously, she lost to her feelings, if a relationship is the beginning of her defeat, then she lost willingly, because she entered the game voluntarily, and there is no regret, maybe this is the power of love, can make such a shrewd woman lose her mind, and there is only love, but unfortunately she hasn't gotten it yet, this may be her only flaw, but Zhen Hua is her person, there is no doubt about it, even a bystander will not deny this, She is not self-inflicted, this is the case, everyone understands, just like those entertainment reporters who are afraid that the world will not be chaotic, often fabricate the lace news of her and Zhen Hua, although it is quelled by Zhen Hua every time, but in fact it is the truth, it is not fabricated out of thin air at all, at least most of it is true, and she has never denied it in front of the public, just laughing and not saying anything, so she has never lost the ownership of Zhen Hua.
"Mr. Yang is embarrassed, I hesitated again and again but decided to participate in this matter, no matter what the conditions, as long as there is a way to save Zhen Hua's life, I can agree."
Yang Dehui was actually very surprised, from Wen Zixin's resoluteness at the beginning, as well as his composure after hesitation, was enough to shock him, a battle-hardened veteran, he didn't know what Wen Zixin had figured out in just a few tens of seconds, but this decisiveness, without the slightest indecision of a little woman, he knew that this sentence of saving Zhen Hua at all costs was not a lie, Wen Zixin could really do it, even if the conditions were harsh, he believed that Wen Zixin would agree without hesitation, But in fact, what he wants Wen Zixin to do is very simple, but he can't do it, and others can't do it, maybe Wen Zixin can do it, but it may not be possible, this matter is not difficult, but Wen Zixin is the best candidate, of course, he has another choice, that is, Zhen Wenxin, but he doesn't want a little girl to come into contact with these, so he found Wen Zixin.
Miss Qiu Han laughed, in fact, this is not a big deal for you. Andy's condition has taken a turn for the better, I have asked the doctor, as long as Andy can actively cooperate with the hospital's treatment plan, not to mention a complete cure, but prolonging life for a few years is definitely not a problem, I have contacted the top doctors in country M, as long as Andy is willing to cooperate with the treatment, it is not impossible to be cured. ”
"In that case, why don't you tell Zhen Hua?"
Wen Zixin felt very strange, since he already had a treatment plan, why didn't he tell Zhen Hua directly, Zhen Hua didn't need to wait for death boringly, what was the use of telling himself? The person Zhen Hua is hiding from is himself, and Wen Zixin has no idea what medicine he sells in his gourd.
"In fact, Andy knew about this matter from the earliest, who would wait for death in the first place? The treatment plan was in front of Andy's eyes early on, but he gave up. ”
"Why!"
"Miss Qiuhan, don't be in a hurry yet, wait for me to continue. Treating cancer is a long process, the first thing you need to go through is chemotherapy, that kind of pain is very unimaginable, and Andy's lung cancer has reached the middle and advanced stages, the probability of his recovery is almost equal to zero, and the treatment he needs to receive is also very long, even if receiving treatment can prolong his life for a few years, but those years may be the darkest time in his life, maybe at that time he wants not to be cured, but to end his life as soon as possible, he knows that it will be such a result, So when the doctor told him that he only had half a year, he decisively chose to leave. ”
Wen Zixin was already stupid, she knew that what Yang Dehui said must be the truth, because this could not be made up, and in other words, she would make the same choice as Zhen Hua, that kind of inhuman life is simply not more simple than death, rather than being a waste person and stealing life, it is better to spend the only time you have left. She supports Zhen Hua's choice, but she also understands that what Yang Dehui said is to make her oppose Zhen Hua's choice, because Yang Dehui wants Zhen Hua to live, and Yang Dehui thinks that she also wants Zhen Hua to live, but Yang Dehui doesn't know that she wants Zhen Hua to live, she wants a healthy, complete Zhen Hua to live, not a dying person who can only move in bed.
"I understand, thank you for everything you have done for Zhen Hua, but I think the decision made by Zhen Hua is the result of careful consideration, instead of being a waste person and stealing his life, it is better to wait quietly and accept his fate, he is not wrong, I don't want to watch him be destroyed by drugs every day, he can't survive or die, there is no need to continue such days."
Throughout the ages, how many people can really see through life and death, and how many people can live in seclusion and have few desires? Summer cicadas and winter snow, but at a glance, on the path of life and death, how many people regret the eternal because of a fate, life and death are up to heaven. I don't know the fate, I don't believe in scoring, but I can't match a sentence of destiny. Hongchen has seen through it, but it is just ups and downs; The years have seen through, but it is impermanence; Love is seen through, but it is just gathering and scattering; Life is seen through, but life and death. Everything in the world, everything is fate. This seems to be the truth that only people of Yang Dehui's age should realize, but Yang Dehui doesn't, but Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin understand, maybe this is called fearless life and death, but Yang Dehui wants to say that it is better to die than to live.
Yang Dehui is already an old man, in fact, life and death should have been looked down on, because he may leave this world at any time, but he is still unwilling to accept it, he is afraid of death, because he has desires, because he has things to do, but don't these Zhen Hua have? Why can Zhen Hua be bearish? In the final analysis, it is because there is nothing worthy of Zhen Hua in this world, even if the success rate of treatment is infinitely close to zero, but there is still hope after all, which is worth a fight, so Yang Dehui hopes that Zhen Hua can fight a hand, the big deal is death, the survival rate of ten years after success is still very guaranteed, and then pay attention to conditioning the body, maybe it can be effectively controlled, even if it cannot be cured, you can continue to live, and you have all the hope of being alive.
"Miss Qiu Han, I try to ask half a year later, the condition has completely deteriorated, Andy can only wait for death, or now receiving treatment, to bet on the probability of prolonging life for ten years, which choice is better? If it were me, I would choose the latter, because I know that people can have everything only when they are alive, and when they die, there is nothing, when I was bankrupt, my wife was separated, and everyone in the outside world speculated that I was dead, but I didn't, I was still alive, in the face of such despair, I still believed in the endless way, so I waited, now I am different from me at that time, but I just steal my life, maybe every day needs to live in endless torment, but as long as I live, I am full of hope, You're a smart guy and you know this very well. Besides, can you bear to watch Andy die silently like this? ”
To be honest, Wen Zixin was moved, but she was not moved by those tirades, including Yang Dehui telling her past, she was not moved, because she knew that she couldn't bear to see a Zhen Hua who was worse than death, but Yang Dehui's last sentence "Do you bear it" made her change her opinion almost instantly, did she bear it? How could she bear it? How could she accept Zhen Hua's death, it was too difficult, she couldn't do it, although she had been convincing herself, but the sentence "Can you bear it" pulled her back, because she couldn't accept Zhen Hua's death at all, I want to save it, no matter what the price is!
But to live, this choice is too cruel to Zhen Hua, this is almost a desperate choice to close Zhen Hua, and it is also a fatal choice, life is better than death, it is really better to die than to die, but only in the face of life and death can people have a thorough consciousness, and only by thinking about the ultimate existence will there be a sublimation of texture. Perhaps a person's life is constantly circling and precipitating in repeated trampling, and finally ending again. What they experienced, and what they experienced, left mottled traces in the world, annihilated in the vast expanse of time and earth.
So she was still afraid, she was afraid of facing Zhen Hua's death, she couldn't bear it!
"Tell me, what should I do? I hope that when I see Zhen Hua's painful expression at that time, you don't appear in front of me, otherwise I will definitely be unable to help but deprive you of everything. ”
Yang Dehui smiled and said nothing, he knew that Wen Zixin's anger was inevitable, if he cared about a person, he would definitely not be able to struggle painfully under the torture of the drug, what Wen Zixin said angrily, he didn't care, on the contrary, he was happy for Zhen Hua, because Wen Zixin cared about Zhen Hua, and it was not easy to meet a person who cared about himself in life, Zhen Hua was so lucky.
"You just need to bring the documents I prepared to Andy, and then persuade them, in fact, I don't need to say more, if even you fail, then I can't do anything, Andy is a good person, but good people don't live long, and we can't do anything."
Wen Zixin knew that this was putting all her hopes on herself, but did she really have such a great influence in Zhen Hua's heart? Even she herself was not sure, but she knew that only she could say this most appropriately, because Zhen Hua did not dare to perfunctory herself, and if she was someone else, even if it was Zhen Wenxin, Zhen Hua might be perfunctory, but it was absolutely impossible for her to accept his perfunctory, so she accepted it, and she took on this heavy responsibility single-handedly.