Chapter 110: The Door Opens
Zhen Hua was just outside the door, ready to break into the door at any time, and told her loudly that he was too, and he had also loved her for twenty-nine years. Zhen Hua wanted to open this door and embrace Wen Zixin into his arms, but he hesitated, what was he hesitating? Before, because he couldn't be sure of the other party's thoughts, he held his love in his heart, and this suffocation lasted for twenty-nine years, not long ago, he came up with the idea of telling each other frankly, but he forcibly pressed it, and now? Wen Zixin has a clear answer, so what about him? What exactly was he hesitating about? Anyone in his situation should not hesitate to push the door in, and he should be, but he still hesitated.
Looking at the next room, there was a woman waiting for him, it was his woman, although he himself knew that at the beginning, he just used that woman as a substitute for affection, but now? Can he still do that? In fact, unconsciously, Lu Jing has entered his heart, he has fallen in love with Lu Jing, but he still loves Wen Zixin, so he needs to choose. If it was a week ago, he would not have hesitated at all, he could unswervingly choose Wen Zixin and ignore Lu Jing completely, but now the situation is different, he loves Wen Zixin, but he also loves Lu Jing, even if he even has the truth that he can't have both fish and bear's paws, but he can't make a decision, and even he has begun to move to his room, and vaguely he already has the possibility of making a decision.
He knows that his love is doomed to failure, because he is an indecisive person, but in the relationship, he is not allowed to hesitate, he needs to be decisive, favoritism is a must, he can't love both, and he can't love both, so he can only have one choice, who to choose? The wife of the dregs is still the love of youth, in fact, his heart is biased towards the latter, but he also dislikes the latter, because Wen Zixin is the person he loves the most, he can betray Lu Jing, but he can never betray Wen Zixin, he can ignore Lu Jing's future, but for Wen Zixin, he can't do it, his life has come to an end, he doesn't want to leave only regrets for his beloved before leaving, he hopes that Wen Zixin is better.
So rationally, he should go back to his room and pretend that he didn't hear anything, he pretended not to know anything, Wen Zixin is still the cold Wen Zixin he can't get, and he can die quietly, everything will go according to his will, except for himself, everything will be better. But he can't do it either, he can't deny his heart, he loves Wen Zixin, this is a fact, the person he loves most in this life is Wen Zixin, it is also a fact, he has been waiting for Wen Zixin's response for twenty-nine years, and it is even more true, now he wants to pretend that he doesn't know anything, he can't do it, because this is the expectation of twenty-nine years, he is eager to join hands with Wen Zixin for the rest of his life, even if the rest of his life is only a few dozen days.
In fact, he knows, everything is known, and everything is understood, but his temperament is like this, his indecision in the relationship made him waste twenty-nine years of each other, but that's it, he can't make a decision now, he can even ignore Lu Jing's existence, but he still can't make a decision, because he knows that he loves someone too much, loves someone to suffocation, then he doesn't allow the person he loves to be hurt in any way, but his death is the biggest harm to the person he loves, so he doesn't dare, He didn't dare to face this relationship, so even if he knew the answer, he could only pretend to be deaf and dumb, which may be sad, but this sadness was imposed on him.
Emotional cowardice is because of affection, so it is timid. The more you care and the more important you are, the more you will be blinded by obstacles and do many wrong things. No matter how monstrous the power is, no matter how iron-blooded the wrist is, when it comes to a love word, all the steels are soft. Indecision, suffering from gains and losses. In fact, once some people miss it, they will no longer take the initiative to contact her for the rest of their lives, they don't want to disturb her life, and they don't even have occasional greetings. Life is full of disappointments, not all the waiting can be fulfilled, he is right to laugh, do not panic. The best always appears inadvertently, and the best, he doesn't deserve it.
Love is not a game because they can't afford to play it. Love is to give sincerely and treat each other sincerely. Don't say love easily, make promises and owe debts. Love is not something that can be found if it is missing, and it is not something that can be changed when it is tired. To love someone, you don't have to have it; But if you have someone, you must love well. Love is not a one-man show, but a rivalry between two people! It is the face that women are fickle, but it is the heart that men are fickle. But Zhen Hua is a little paranoid, he has always thought that he is a very rational person in terms of feelings, he can grasp the size and know how to measure the distance, but in front of her, he messed up and lost his soul, is this the so-called love? He didn't know, he really didn't know, he just knew that the feeling was so beautiful and sweet that he didn't want to let go of it, and it was unforgettable. But in order to find someone, he missed a lot of beautiful scenery, missed the mood of watching the flowers bloom and fall, but he did not regret it, because it was the most beautiful encounter in his life, and when he found it, he had the color of flowers all over the world. The arrival of Wen Zixin swept away the loneliness of wandering the world for him, and his wandering soul no longer had to wander between the pavilions and pavilions, above the clouds and waters.
In fact, he knows that a woman who cries for you to the point of heartbreak loves you to the extreme, don't let her down. A woman who gives up everything for you loves you to the soul, don't give up on her, a woman's emotions are the same as a man's career, only for the person she loves the most. Wen Zixin's heart has collapsed, but he has not been a crazy person who is paranoid about love, although he loves Wen Zixin, loves very much, and is even willing to do his best to love someone, but in the face of love, he chose to escape, not not to love, but to love too much. Some words are destined to rot in the heart. Some wounds are destined to be difficult to heal. Some things are destined to be indelible. Some people are destined to be irreplaceable. The cruelest thing in the world is not that you don't meet someone you love, but that you encounter it but end up missing; The saddest thing in the world is not that the person you love doesn't love you, but that he loves you and then doesn't love you in the end. So he knows that he loves Wenzixin, but one day this feeling will fade, and he can't keep it for a long time, so what qualifications does he have to make Wenzixin sentimental.
He knows that as long as he pushes open a door, everything will be decided, and now the person who forced him to make a decision was Wen Zixin, who made Wen Zixin say these words, why did he hear it? He didn't want to hear it, if only he hadn't, but was that something that could change? This can't be, so he can only admit it, but there is no way, he has no way! He loves, but he can't love.
The heart is inexplicably sour, tears are left, this seems to be the first time he has cried, yes, the first time he cried in more than forty years of life, in fact, because of excitement, he got affirmation, proving that his twenty-nine years of feelings are not wishful thinking, but there is also remorse, because he dare not agree, so the affirmation he got seems to have no effect, maybe only when he completely closes his eyes, thinking about it, will he feel that there is no regret in this life, but unfortunately he knows that his heart still does not allow him to leave.
Wen Zixin in the room no longer "cursed", she was sobbing violently, fluctuating emotions, but she still quieted down, fell in front of the door, without a trace of strength, but she heard some different movements, it seemed to be the sound of water dripping on the ground, but outside her door was the corridor of the hotel, and it was impossible to fall to the sound of water falling to the ground, so what happened outside the door? She didn't care, but she knew that she was in a bad mood now, and the noisy sound outside the door didn't affect her unexpectedly, she wanted to go out to take a look, if it was a water leak or something, she didn't mind calling the hotel manager over and scolding her fiercely, if it was someone deliberate, she didn't mind moving her muscles.
But after pushing the door, she saw a crying like a child-like Zhen Hua, in her impression, Zhen Hua had never shed tears, even in the most bitter and difficult time, Zhen Hua did not shed a single tear, but at this time, Zhen Hua's tears fell to the ground in large pieces, heartbroken like a child who had lost her beloved toy, she panicked, she had never met such a Zhen Hua, she didn't know what happened, but when she saw Zhen Hua's location, could it be that Zhen Hua didn't leave at all just now, He had been outside the door all the time, and Zhen Hua had all the words he had just said, and when she thought of this, she couldn't help but take a step back.
Zhen Hua knew everything, Zhen Hua heard all the words she couldn't speak, Zhen Hua knew, she panicked, this is her biggest secret, in addition to this, she doesn't have any secrets in front of Zhen Hua, but this secret is difficult to tell, but Zhen Hua knows, what will happen to Zhen Hua? Will you stay for yourself? Look at the way he cries heartbreaking, will he? In fact, no one knows, because Zhen Hua himself doesn't know, and Wen Zixin's brain is empty for a while, so, will it?
Neither of them spoke, Zhen Hua was frightened, in fact, this was caused by feeling, but he didn't expect the door in front of him to open suddenly, Wen Zixin walked out of the door, and took a step back the first moment he saw him, this subtle movement was seen by him, he had already generated a trace of anger at that time, because when the woman she liked saw him, she instinctively retreated, even if he knew that it was because of his own appearance at this time to scare the other party, but he knew that he couldn't stand the person he loved resisting him, couldn't accept that the person he loved left him, so Wen Zixin was still in a state of confusion, but Zhen Hua had already hugged her into her arms and hugged her tightly, without giving Wen Zixin a chance to struggle.