Lin Kongkong only realized at this moment that in fact, Li Shunjuan was unhappy. For so many years, she has been so respectful of her father that she has given people the illusion that their marriage is beautiful. In the past, she was the head of the Ji family, graceful and luxurious, very elegant and dignified.

Lin Kongkong had never even seen her speak loudly or do something against her father's wishes. She is always gentle and decent, and it seems that she has no other responsibilities except to take care of her father and her food, clothing, housing and transportation, and manage the Ji family's inner house.

She never seems to have lived for herself, her identity is Ji Zhongliang's wife, Mrs. Ji.

Li Shunjuan thought for a long time before she said: "There is another thing that has been pressing on my heart for many years, and there have been many times when I wanted to tell your father, but in the end, I didn't have the courage. Now that my time is short, let me tell you about it! Hopefully I can make up for some of my guilt for your mother. ”

Lin Kongkong was in a fog by what she said, and asked puzzledly: "Why do you say that?" ”

Li Shunjuan began to reminisce about the past: "I was only twenty-three years old when I married your father, and they were all relatives given by both parents, and they were the right match. After marriage, although he has a cold personality and puts almost all his energy into work, we can be regarded as respectful of each other. I know that I can't escape the arrangement of fate, and my marriage can't be determined by myself, so I will try my best to fall in love with my destined husband.

A man of your father's status, from a wealthy family, young and promising, more or less outside, will have some women. I grew up in this environment, and I've heard and seen a lot about this situation. But your dad still respects me, no matter what he does outside, he never lets me know, and it doesn't affect family life. And I also know that most of the time, it wasn't his intention, he was just acting on the spot.

A year after I got married to him, he once went to Hangzhou to talk about work, and when he came back, he was a little distracted, and he often rubbed a painting in his study by himself. I secretly saw a portrait of a young woman, and I have never envied anyone in my life, but at that time I was very envious of her, and I envied the woman in the painting. Because, she was born so beautiful, and her eyes are clean, just like your eyes are now.

I thought your father would run aground when he thought about it, but I didn't expect him to go to Hangzhou for the second time and stay there for as long as a month. After coming back, the whole person's mental state changed again, and he was full of energy.

He has always been steady and cold, but at that time, he was like a hairy boy who was in love for the first time, sometimes in a daze, sometimes inexplicably smirking. He would talk on the phone softly, and he would go to the market to pick up some little things to please girls, and he always spent half of the month in Hangzhou.

I guessed at that time that he had someone else outside, but I thought, men always like the new and hate the old, that's their nature, just like cats, how can they not steal fish? As long as he doesn't bring it home, doesn't affect our family life, doesn't threaten my position, I pretend I don't know.

But I didn't expect that my repeated concessions did not get your father's understanding, but made him even worse. He moved out of the bedroom and lived alone in the study, in a separate room from me, and no matter how much I hinted or reminded him, he would not share room with me again. This is a great shame for me, I am his wife, the wife of Ming Media, but he has to guard a woman of unknown origin.

I paid someone to hire her, and it was easy to find out who she was. She was the principal of the most famous dance company in China at that time, she was dazzling on the stage, and in the eyes of men, she was a peerless style. How many men have fallen under her pomegranate skirt, in order to make her laugh, or to capture her heart, and spend a lot of money. But she is notoriously proud, and she can't even look down on any powerful and rich people.

I was really stupid at the time, I thought that your father must have been, and I was fascinated by her fox tricks, as long as I let her take the initiative to leave, and no longer pester your father in the future, my life can return to the same as before.

I brought a lot of money to meet her, very old-fashioned and cheesy plot! Undoubtedly, I was rejected. When I actually met her in person, it became clear to me why your dad would fall in love with her. She doesn't look like that kind of public figure at all, and she doesn't have that kind of dusty air on her. On the contrary, the whole person gives people a feeling of being very cold and pure, like a hollow valley orchid, elegant and refined.

The preconceived notion made me think that a woman like her, the purpose of his father is to fly on the branches and become a phoenix, to live a worry-free life, and to be Mrs. Ji. But I won't let her succeed, and my mother's family is very powerful, and your father won't dare to do anything to me.

So, that day I brazenly humiliated her with words and embarrassed her. She was surprisingly calm, and only told me that she didn't want to be a third party, she didn't want to destroy other people's families, and she really didn't know that your father had a family. But I thought she was pretending to be innocent and didn't believe what she said, and I even let her stay in the dance company.

I thought that in this way, she would not pester your father anymore, and I would give her a large sum of money when she was in trouble and could not live, and then send her abroad, completely cutting off your father's thoughts. I didn't expect that when she was forced by me to the end of the mountain, she still refused to accept my money, but she agreed to leave and no longer have anything to do with your father in the future.

Since then, I have lived a peaceful life, while your father lives every day worse than death. He searched everywhere he could, but still couldn't find anyone, so he ran to the edge of the West Lake and waited for three days and three nights. But in the end, what I waited for was a cruel goodbye that I forgot about each other, and your mother didn't even appear there, but asked someone to bring him the painting "Smoke and Rain in the Sky", which hazy his love in the mist.

After he arrives in City A, his temperament will change drastically. It's the first time I've seen a person who is so cold and affectionate would do so many ridiculous things for a woman. will not wash, do not work, do not pay, do not eat or drink, and completely close themselves off; will also get drunk to the fullest, and then cover his heart like a child and say that it hurts; will also talk to himself to the air, saying that it is the same sentence, you can leave whatever you say, and I don't want it if you say you don't want it.

I knew he really liked her, so even if she was completely out of our lives, I still wouldn't be at ease. I always felt that only by sending her out of the country, to a place out of your father's reach, would she not affect my life.

When I found out that she was living in seclusion in a small village in the middle of nowhere, and that she was pregnant, I was terrified and went to see her in person. She had a huge belly alone, and it was very hard, and I sympathized with her at that time and left her a sum of money, but she still confiscated it. She said that her savings were enough to support herself and her children, and that I should not bother her in the future.

After I returned to City A, I couldn't sleep and eat every day, I was afraid that your father would divorce me if he found out about her pregnancy, and he would let her in if he was married. It's not that I'm infertile, I've tried a lot of things, and I want to have a baby. But your father always rejected me in various ways, and since he met your mother, your father has never touched me again, nor has he touched any other woman.

It's ridiculous! I'm obviously Mrs. Ji, but I really only got this one identity. I'm not reconciled, I feel that my tragic life is all caused by your mother, I want her to pay, I want her to pay back.

I took someone to find her, and I wanted her baby to be stillborn, and I wanted to destroy her top chips, but I didn't want her life. She was in the third trimester of pregnancy at the time, and she was only a month away from her due date. I wanted to forcibly take her to the hospital, but she naturally refused, and during the argument, I pushed her down.

I saw her red, dark red blood, staining her plain dress. She was so pale that she refused to say a soft word to me, and I knew that if I didn't save her, I would have to die twice. I didn't want to hurt anyone, I didn't want to do it at all, I regretted it, I was scared, and I sent her to the hospital.

I actually witnessed the birth of you and your sister as a family member, and when I saw the two weak children in the incubator, I felt that I had really lost my heart and sinned. I didn't want to hurt you and your sister, and I didn't want to hurt your mother, and for the first time in my life, I apologized and stood in front of her hospital bed. After the cesarean section, she was extremely weak, and the person who should have hated me the most, but he didn't bother to look at me, and he didn't accept my apology, only saying that I should stay away from her and not disturb her life in the future.

Then your father found you, and I thought your mother would tell him all about what I had done. But she didn't say anything, and she didn't even say a word about me in front of your father. Your father did not want to be completely cut off from her, so he asked for one of you, and he thought that your mother would have a relationship with her child because she missed her child. His idea at that time was also very simple, as long as he could meet your mother from time to time and talk to her, he would be satisfied.

But your mother is really ruthless, she gave your sister to him, so that he would not be entangled with her in the future, and from then on, each of them will have their own destiny.

Since then, a man who has lost his love has become hard-hearted and ruthless. In the end, his exhaustion of the tricks finally pushed him to the pinnacle of success. But I know that his heart has never forgotten the woman on the edge of the West Lake, the woman who once made him willing to use everything he has to love. He still misses her and often calls her by name in his sleep.

I have been husband and wife with him for so many years, and I stupidly keep this marriage that exists in name only. In the end, I didn't wait for him to fall in love with me......"