I don't know how much pain Ouyang Jin has to endure at this time, but I know that after losing a child, the pain is something that nothing can fill it.

So I can only do my best to make him feel better at this time, so that he can forget about it for a while.

"Ouyang Jin, I want a child!"

Ouyang Jin seemed to be waiting for my words, and after a pause, he began to move, his enthusiasm and fierceness were unprecedented. I'm afraid it's his wound.

"Ouyang, be careful, the wound is about to crack open."

But he continued to move like he didn't hear it, and I was driven by his movements under him and went crazy with him.

I wanted to scream, my hands gripping his waist tightly as I watched him sweat beads on top of me, panting.

Finally, after the passion, we lay side by side, half loud and did not speak to each other.

When I got up to look, I saw that the gauze on Ouyang Jin's abdomen had been soaked with blood, but he didn't feel pain at all.

"Ouyang Jin, you're bleeding." I hurriedly went down to the medicine box, and then came over to change the gauze for him.

"You are so careless when you have injuries, why do you care so much about yourself." I complained to him as I busied, and when I lifted the gauze, the wound had been stitched up and was slowly oozing blood.

I cleaned up the blood, disinfected it, and sprinkled the powder to stop bleeding on it.

"Ouyang Jin, you're really crazy!"

"How can you have a child if you're not crazy, I want to do it again, you wait for me to slow down and continue immediately." He even had the heart to joke and squeeze it on my chest.

I slapped the back of his hand so hard that I felt my face burn with shame.

"Can't you be serious, it's really hard for me to understand you when you're hurt like this and have the heart to joke. Don't you feel pain? I put the last bandage on, looked at him, and began to pack the medicine box.

"It doesn't hurt, but isn't it with you? I don't feel anything with you. "Ouyang Jin always gives me an illusion like this, and I sometimes can't tell which of his words is joking and which is serious.

"You're the one who talks the most!" I stood up and went to put away the medicine box, but I was actually trying to avoid the way he looked at me, and I didn't know what to do.

After I walked away, I could clearly hear Ouyang Jin's laughter spreading behind me.

"Come here, there's nothing I'm not familiar with all over my body, what are you doing so shy."

When I slept until midnight, I felt thirsty, and I woke up and wanted to pour water to drink, but as soon as I opened my eyes, I saw that Ouyang Jin's eyes were exceptionally bright in the night, when did he wake up?

"What's the matter, I woke you up." When Ouyang Jin saw me wake up, he immediately returned to normal and turned on the small lamp at the head of the bed.

"No, I woke up because I was thirsty." I sat up as I spoke, but he took me closer to his arms.

"Here you go!" As he spoke, he reached out and brought me a glass of water from the bedside table, and I drank it from his hand.

"Why don't you sleep, is it because it hurts and you can't sleep?"

"No, I woke up from a dream and wanted to sit down." Ouyang Jin put the cup away, and then we snuggled together and talked.

"Ouyang Jin, is there anything I can help you with?" After much thought, I decided to speak up, at least to help him share the burden, so that he could talk to me to ease his pain.

"What can help me, what do I need help with?" Although Ouyang Jin was smiling, it was extremely far-fetched.

I don't know how much courage it takes in his heart to persuade himself not to be so sad and sad, although I don't know what his real life is like, but I know how the pain of losing a child is unforgettable.

"I'm sorry to tell me today how your injuries came about, but I want to help you share a little." In the dim light, his face looked illusory, and his eyelashes cast two shadows under the light, making his already melancholy eyes even more sad.

Ouyang Jin looked at me, and then put his head close to my chest, he was now as dependent as a child, as overwhelmed as a child.

"Xingzhu, I never gave her enough time to take care of her, I didn't even know that she was sick, she has always done well, no matter what the aspect is, she is excellent, just to make me happy and let me spend more time with her." Ouyang Jin cried as he spoke, his tears dripping on my chest, burning hot, and my heart hurt.

"Xingzhu, I'm really not qualified to be a father, I rarely invest time and energy in her for such a good and excellent daughter, and now I don't even have time to regret it."

I listened to Ouyang Jin's confession over and over again, and my heart was both distressed and sad.

But why do people always wait until they lose to know how to cherish it?

"Ouyang Jin, each of us has to go through some heavy and sad things to know how to cherish it, I thought about dying on the night my child gave birth, but then wanting to die can't undo everything I have experienced. Only by living can I slowly forget the pain," I said silently, holding Ouyang Jin on my chest like a child, both for myself and for him.

"Ouyang Jin, maybe you didn't get close to her because you didn't love her, but you just didn't know how to love and how to get close, her departure was indeed very cruel and sad, but I don't think she wants to see you treat herself like this and blame yourself, she loves you very much and doesn't want to see you blame yourself."

"She's only six years old, and I've rarely been with her since she was born, but she doesn't care at all and doesn't hate me at all. Every time I came to see her, she cheered, as if she would never snub her than me. I didn't come in time for her birthday last time, but then she was still kind to me when she saw me, I did a lot of bad things and shouldn't have such an angelic child, but I just had it, but now I have lost her forever. ”

Ouyang Jin muttered, he had never been so helpless and sad as he was today, blaming himself and sad. I looked at him and felt extremely distressed.

He curled up in my arms, as if he was deeply wounded but helpless, and finally found a place to speak.

At this time, I lost all the emotions that I had before because of Ouyang Jin's concealment from me, and all that was left was my distress for Ouyang Jin and my pity for his little daughter.

"I met her mom at a bar, and I only met once, and at that time I was getting drunk every day because of the start-up business and a lot of problems. Something that shouldn't have happened to me that day when I got drunk, and then she got pregnant and I persuaded her to get rid of it, and she insisted on keeping the baby and disappeared for a while, and when I found her again and saw her, her belly was too big to have an abortion. The child was very beautiful when it was born, and it was almost full moon when I went to see it," Ouyang Jin recalled, and I was taken into a bitter imagination by him.

"The first time I saw such a small child, so fragile that people didn't dare to touch it, I didn't hold her, but when I touched her hand, she gently held my fingers, and I felt very touched at that moment. Later, my business got better and better, and I wanted them to live a better life, so I sent them here, but I neglected to take care of her because of all kinds of busyness. It should be said that I was not fully prepared to meet this child in the first place, so I did not do well in the future. The child's mother has long been dead to me, and just wants the child to live in an environment with parents. ”

There is no emotion in the first place, but they are locked together because of the child, but why does the child's mother insist on giving birth to the child, is it out of love and infatuation with Ouyang Jin?

"The child's mother just suffered too much emotional injury and wanted to live alone, but she just wanted a child to accompany her, so she chose me. She has never bothered me since the birth of the child, she is completely alone with the child, but now the child is gone all of a sudden. ”

Ouyang Jin and his own child's mother are only one-sided, and the child's mother just wants a child. They take what they need, but afterwards they are connected by a vague connection, just because their children need a complete home.

"I'm sorry," I can't imagine an angel-like child who has been by my side for so many years, and now it's all of a sudden, what kind of mood it feels like to be a mother, but I understand the crazy behavior of the child's mother, and even if the injury on Ouyang Jin's body is serious, it can't be replaced by the child's vitality. "Ouyang Jin, it's just that I don't know how to persuade you."

Ouyang Jin leaned over and kissed my forehead.

"I'm sorry, but it's just so unfair to you."

Is he apologizing to me for hiding from me?

"I don't want to apologize, as long as you're okay."

I feel like the two of us are like a couple who snuggle up to each other and comfort each other, always worried that each other is not doing well, always worrying that we are not doing enough, and always worrying that what we give each other is not perfect enough.

Ouyang Jin didn't speak again, and hugged me tighter.

When I woke up in the morning, I found that the bedside was empty, Ouyang Jin didn't know when he had gotten up, I stretched out my hand and touched it, it was cold as if no one had ever slept before.

I woke up sleepy-eyed and rubbed my eyes as I walked out to find him.

He wasn't in the living room, he wasn't in the kitchen, I searched every room and didn't see him. Maybe he'll need some time to get himself out of his grief.

After all, he is now the same as I have ever experienced, losing his child.

I silently changed clothes, brushed my teeth, freshened up, prepared breakfast by myself, and when I was about to go to work after breakfast, Ouyang Jin came back.

He came in and saw me sitting on the edge of the shoe cabinet changing my shoes. I looked at each other in the same amazement as he did.

The two of us looked at each other like that and didn't speak, and I suddenly felt strange. The long window was open, the sun shone in through the window frame, the wind blew in, lifted the curtain and danced with the wind, and I suddenly felt that this moment was beautiful but strange.

It's like a couple of men and women on the journey, unintentionally acquainted, and then slowly get along with each other, as if everything is so natural and natural, everything that should have happened has happened, but after everything has happened, the two people realized that the journey has ended, and the two of them should go their separate ways.

"Go to work?" Ouyang Jin broke the silence first, and when he asked me, his tone was steady, without any emotion or meaning, just a very casual greeting.

Perhaps, it would be better for us not to be so honest with each other. Ouyang Jin is such a proud person, he shouldn't be so stripped by me in front of me, and he shouldn't be seen by me in front of me.

"Well, it's almost late." I promised, but I couldn't fasten the buckle on my shoes.

My hands shook so badly, and he stood in front of me, and I looked weak in front of his straight body, so clear that the distance was separating us.

Ouyang Jin squatted down, he reached out and took the button from my hand, and fastened it for me very carefully. Then look at me.

"I'll send you!"

I didn't speak, I didn't object, I didn't agree. Actually, I want to ask him where he went, but think about why I asked, in what capacity and in what capacity.

I don't know if Ouyang Jin also has this feeling, just like the Ouyang Jin I have always known is cheerful and frivolous, now I have a deep understanding of his world, and I know that he will be sad when he is as sad as me, and he will be as fragile and helpless as me, but he is not willing to show his fragility and helplessness in front of others. And it just so happened that I was the one who saw his most obscure side.

The two of us went out one after the other, and the door was gently slammed shut behind my back, and I don't know if the next time I opened it again, it wouldn't be the two of us coming in together.

Ouyang Jin closed the door and came to put his arm on my shoulder. His hand was still very strong and hugged me tightly, and I naturally enjoyed this moment of my doting and warmth.

Ouyang Jin probably felt the subtle changes between us like me, embarrassed, unfamiliar, and overwhelmed.

"I have some things to do today and can't accompany you, don't worry about me alone when I come back early from work at night." When Ouyang Jin spoke, it was like explaining to a child who went to school, and his eyes were full of affection that I had never seen before.

Is it a delusion? Didn't Ouyang Jin plan to break up with me peacefully?

"Will you come in the evening?" I turned my face to him and looked at him, and I didn't have the courage to look at him, so I had to bow my head.

"Of course it will, but it may come back later today, so you don't wait for me, go to bed early."

It turns out that everything is that I think too much, and Ouyang Jin doesn't want to break up with me, but I think too much.

"What's the matter today?" My voice was so small that I couldn't even hear myself.

"The child's funeral is today, and I'm going to attend." How much courage and perseverance did Ouyang have to show such disdain, so quiet and indifferent, he was going to attend his child's funeral.

"Do you need me to accompany you?"

I asked tentatively, for fear that he would be angry.

"No, I can do it alone, I don't want you to be sad with me."

Ouyang thought about it for a while, he didn't plan to take me with him, I just thought he didn't want me to see his sad and soft side again.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine. I just don't want you to worry about me. ”