Chapter 116: Don't Lie to Yourself
It's been almost half a year since I came to modern society, and I still can't change this voice, but it's not really impossible to change, Jiang Li will naturally use me when talking to others, and only when talking to him, I will be used.
Lin Luo sometimes always wonders, is she still unable to give up the identity of the emperor, but she can't speak in front of others, so she puts up that little shelf in front of herself?
But she still looks like an emperor now, not to mention the rest, she even knows how to ask the price when she goes out to buy food, and then goes around a few circles to shop around, and finally picks the most cost-effective one to buy. It's almost time to bargain for another green onion.
Therefore, she should have given up that identity, at least she has subconsciously changed, no longer regards herself as an emperor, and jumped out of this identity.
As she said, I am a common man.
And what I said at that time was true, what I said at that time was - the people who called me.
Is there a people in the world who are worthy of me?
No.
Where is there a people in the world who are worthy of me? Since you are a common people, what kind of mentality do you have when you get along with me?
Do you want to remind yourself that you were once an emperor in this way? Or is it that after many days of getting along, there is actually something wrong in your heart, and you don't want to admit it, so you bluff through the self-proclaimed name 'I', trying to cover it up, so as to bring your heart back to peace?
Or can I simply ask, do you know whether you are calling this voice to yourself or to me?
You can't tell you clearly, you can't even see your own heart, how can you say such things clearly?
Lin Luo didn't question this sentence one by one, but just let her think about it for herself, and in the cold wind, he stood on the side of the road and waved.
A taxi with the overhead lights on from far and near, stopped in front of the two of them, and told the driver the location, Lin Luo opened the car door and pulled her into the back seat.
The two of them in the car didn't talk again, and after the taxi arrived at the gate of the community and got out of the car, Lin Luoshi asked out loud: "Do you have an answer?" β
"To call me is to call me, how can there be so many whys, it's just that I can't change it for a while."
"Really?"
"Why not?"
Saying that, Jiang Li turned his head to look at it calmly, "Or does Lin Ban have a different opinion?" β
"My opinion, if I say it, you may think that I am deliberately guiding you."
"Could it be that you want to say that I have feelings for you?"
"Nope."
Lin Luo shook his head, "If you say that you have feelings for you, you can only say that you have stuck to your heart from the beginning, and now . At least there is already a gap in your heart, such as the matter of holding hands, you push it all on me, thinking that I am deliberately guiding you, and you are in the midst of the light and the moon, and the pure one is self-purifying. It's just passive acceptance, from resistance to habituation, but have you ever thought that this is actually what you are willing to do? β
"Or let me ask you another question, we have been in the same room for so long, do you still feel that the wind and the moon are light?"
β.β Jiang Li couldn't help frowning when he heard this, he wanted to say something but stopped talking, the night was silent, and the snowflakes scattered from the air and fell to the ground, and then merged with the previous snow, and stepped on it to make a creaking sound.
I used to feel very calm, but now when I hear him ask like this, I don't know why I feel very awkward, not only when a lonely man and a widow are in the same room, but even now they walk side by side.
The two people seem to have the same amplitude of their steps, both of them first lift their left foot, and then put their right foot, there is a very inexplicable synchronization and tacit understanding.
It also made her feel awkward.
Jiang Li wanted to adjust, but it seemed to be a crutch again, and finally he couldn't stand it anymore, stopped slightly, and waited until Lin Luo took two steps out, then he slowly followed, and he was behind him in a position, no longer walking side by side with him.
Taking her actions into account, Lin Luo didn't understand it, looked back at her, and asked confusedly: "What are you going to do, you want to be a follower?" β
"You're the buttler!"
"Then why are you going behind me?"
"I can go if I want, I'm willing."
"Dead tsundere."
Jiang Li glared at him angrily, but Lin Luo asked rhetorically, "Do you know under what circumstances people can be arrogant?" β
"If you think very highly of yourself and refuse to face your heart, you will show a tsundere posture at this time, and you are exactly like that."
"I just said that there is a hole in your heart, and you are actually aware of it, but you don't want to admit it. Your sense of self-identity is too high, and you think how can you be like this, so you say that you are confused, but is it really confused? Not necessarily, right?
You don't want to admit it, you feel that you can't get over your face, so you subconsciously want to find another excuse, and it just so happens that I have been guiding you intentionally or unintentionally, so you naturally blame it all on me.
Don't you think it's ridiculous and naΓ―ve that I guided you to do this and that, and even you talked about me guiding you to have children? I'm guiding you, but no matter how much I guide, I can never get around your personal wishes, in other words, whether it's kissing and hugging or having children, I can only do it if you want to. β
β.β
"According to you, I am willing to hold hands with you?"
"Isn't it?"
Jiang Li said indifferently: "That's just what I'm used to, and I'm too lazy to refuse you." β
β.β Lin Luo stared at her for a while, and then walked forward, "I can see it, you have a hard mouth left all over your body." It's nothing for you to deceive me, I'll laugh and laugh and pass, but you even deceive yourself, and you've seen a lot of deceiving others, the first time I've seen you cheating like yourself, it's different to be the emperor."
The voice floated from the front leisurely, Jiang Li broke the gong in an instant, and no longer looked like he was senseless before, he followed angrily, and gritted his teeth: "You are sarcastic?!" β
"I'm not sarcastic, I'm just telling the truth." Lin Luo turned his head and said, "Do you remember what I said before?" The premise of living together. Not to mention finding someone you like, at least you have to find someone who can accept it, and then with the feelings that are slowly cultivated, acceptance will become like, and liking will become the so-called love. β
"Heh" Hearing this, Jiang Li said coldly: "I knew from the beginning that you were planning, and you really didn't have a good heart." β
Lin Luo generously admitted, "Yes, I am indeed planning, but haven't you accepted my original proposal, and then waited and watched the changes, and have been cultivating a relationship with me?" β
"Who's cultivating a relationship with you?"
"Getting along with each other day and night, eating and living together, isn't this cultivating feelings what is it doing?"
(End of chapter)