I didn't think that the dark night starlight that had been sealed in my heart for a long time would be lit up for a moment because of him. Obviously, he is such an ignorant boy, he has the most flying youth, the most bright and wanton future, and has such an excellent and handsome face and arrogant and innocent attitude.

I once believed that human nature is inherently evil, and that no one would give everything, even their life, for another person without reservation. But Qianye made my once convicted belief that I was shaken for a moment. Maybe the innocent smile on his face was too kind, maybe the hand he stretched out to me was too warm, or maybe he knew what I was going to face after I took him out of the human world, but he still believed me stupidly.

Oh, such a fool, I am so disdainful, but I can't help but want to get close to that warmth like a child who is frozen in the rain.

The world says that I am cold and cold, or black-hearted and lungless, because I once thought so. But after a long time, when I saw again the man who had promised me prosperity in the Stygian Sea, when I saw that he was still trapped in the obsession I had left him even though he was crazy and stupid, it was undeniable that I felt that deep guilt, this feeling came violently, came inexplicably, and even made me a little overwhelmed. I think I am lonely and free, and my heart is like a stubborn stone, but after all, people are not plants and trees.

I once said to Yuan Qichen, "I always want you to taste the taste of loss, anything is good, there is always something in this world that you are reluctant to give up." "I've always been a person who has revenge, so in the end, I didn't break my promise, I succeeded in letting her fall into the abyss, and I succeeded in letting her see with her own eyes in her powerlessness that the people she cared about were trampled under my feet one by one.

But in the cycle of cause and effect, I have not tried the complex emotions of reluctance and discomfort.

And all this seems to have started when he met the appearance of a young man who was too beautiful to exist in the world.

The first time I met him, it was in the beautiful fantasy of a corner of the Wufu Sea, like a dreamlike crescent moon and a deep valley, the ethereal and agile singing as if from ancient times, the beautiful young man who was like a fairy falling into the dust, he floated quietly in the air, opened the ethereal and clear deep sea blue eyes, and he said, "I am also looking for you." ”

The young man's smile was as crystal as a little dew on a bamboo leaf, with a beautiful aura like the Nine Heavens Xuanchen.

At a glance for ten thousand years, the first sight is very happy. I've never seen such a good-looking teenager. A pair of blue eyes with the clear dream of ice and snow, crystal clear and bright like the stars and the moon. It is clearly a very small grade, but its temperament has both the cold and lonely cold of flowing wind and snow and the cold and quiet of the clear spring and light mist in the forest. Although it occasionally reveals childlike innocence and cuteness, it is difficult to hide the nobility and arrogance in the bones.

I named him "Zi Mo", Mo is like a jade, and the son is unparalleled. And he smiled lightly when he heard this, and seemed to be satisfied with the name.

And I, Sang Wushi, was decisive and ruthless, but I often wondered why God sent such a beautiful boy to me. I was afraid of sinking into the sweet dream of having him by my side, but when I woke up, it was empty, and I, as always, was alone.

I like Zimo's eyes, which are different from everyone's. When his bright eyes were slightly bent, he inadvertently hooked his lips and smiled, as if he had condensed the intoxicating stardust and the clear light of the stars and moon.

I am accustomed to the thick smell of blood, to the sneers of the so-called decent people, to the betrayal and deceit, to the restlessness and darkness of the deep cold night of the Futu Palace. But I will always have it, yearning for a sunny time. Maybe it's the glowing tree in the Futu Palace, or the butterflies flying in the Zimo enchantment, the dancing leaves, the smart and gorgeous flowers and trees, the cool and comfortable wind, and the clear and quiet valley.

I still remember that when I was in prison, it was as if I had been abandoned by the world, and everyone had betrayed my relatives. He is the only one who will bring slightly sour oranges and sweet spring water to my lips. The sweetness that welled up in my heart at that moment was better than all the delicacies in the world.

I once asked him in the Soul Locking Temple, "Do you know why I'm locked up here?"

"Because they thought I stole something, but I didn't. ”

"You didn't steal. He said.

At that moment, I cried.

Even if I am forgotten by the world, I still have him by my side.

Yunsheng is like a dream, and it is rare to rejoice. Zimo is like a beam of light, when it suddenly shines into my boring life, that rare peace of mind is like a stolen quiet time, precious and beautiful, so beautiful that I always suffer from gains and losses.

I don't know what Zimo means to me, but I don't want to let go of this beauty. I've been making a bet that he's not going to be a bystander to me forever. I am a very persistent person, so persistent that it borders on paranoia, and it is so persistent that I will not rest until I die. I'm betting that he's been different from me, and I don't want to be presumptuous about thinking that that will go to my ridiculous delusion, I don't believe it. So I want to bet, I want to wait. But in the end, until the moment I was wiped out in the flames, I didn't wait. I still lost, but the unwillingness and resentment in my heart were not strong, but overwhelming, and my heart was inexplicable.

I used to think of him, and my breath was as clear as ice and snow, but in the end, I only felt as uncomfortable as choking in my throat.

I am a person who was born in darkness and has never seen the light of day, a lone wanderer who has never been redeemed and has never longed for salvation, so the moment I touch the warmth given to me by others, my life seems to be like a blank sheet of paper rendered by colorful ink, outlining a unique color, like a ray of light in the bottomless cold pool, like the goodness of the dying struggle in the countless sins.

But I feel uneasy, like a person who is accustomed to seeing the night, when he suddenly opens his eyes and sees the light, he will subconsciously dodge, subconsciously cry, and I want to escape all the strange feelings that these strange people give me, because it will make me, and I will become indecisive.

So to a certain extent, I am very grateful to Chi Shu, that free and crazy madman, who used his absolute indifference again and again to tear apart the sinister and bloody nature of the dark human nature in the world and present it to me, so that all the messy sorrows and complicated shackles that I should not have have were thrown away. Because of him, I seem to have always been the original self, and even more numb.

He has the most prosperous face in the world, but he also seems to be the most indifferent and ruthless person in the world. I have hated his cruelty to me countless times, and I have watched his cruelty to innocent people countless times, but at the same time I am glad that such an unintentional demon has allowed me to spread freely in his world, and come and go freely.