Chapter 199: Looking Back on the Past 1

In the past five years, you have rejected it several times (I can't look back, how can I remember how many times).

I still remember one time, you said this: how to say it? Some things I think are cruel to say, a person's life, always have to let down some people, and I am very sorry, I think I can't bear your feelings, destined to fail you, I know that the road is fruitless, and blindly insist, I think this is not infatuation but immature performance, it is not good for you and me, if there is no other choice, I would rather you forget me slowly.

Hehe, believe it or not, I was laughing and crying at that time.

In fact, I remember that the first time I was rejected by you was after the National Day of my freshman year, and I clearly remember that you told me not to fall in love in college. I was naïve and said, okay, I'll just wait for you to graduate, and tell me the answer when you graduate.

In fact, in my senior year, I learned from Silly Fei's girlfriend's best friend, Sister Mao, that you have already talked about a boyfriend. Although at that time, Fool Fei had already predicted the results, but he was slow to tell me that he thought I would be vulnerable, but in fact, I was much stronger than he imagined.

The first time I had an unpleasant relationship with you was in late May of the second semester of my freshman year, from my freshman year to my fifth year, I don't remember anything I learned in books, so it only proves that my memory is not good.

At that time, I was very stupid and naïve, and I often couldn't hide the little secrets in my heart, and inadvertently let the friends around me know the fact that I liked you.

So these little guys gave me all kinds of kind advice, but now it seems that it is so unreliable, but it was really small at that time, and I didn't think about it so much, let alone take into account your feelings, so that unpleasant thing happened. At the time, they were purely good for me, and the responsibility was all on me. I won't tell you, the first guy who knows your number is from my little notebook, and on my personalized little notebook, in addition to the dense Da Ri Rulai mantra, even your mobile phone number can be found.

For a while, I often listened to such a song called "Beauty Mole". There is a small mole above your lips, in my opinion, it is a beauty mole, and it is because of that mole that I think you are so perfect.

I like a song, usually because of a certain line or two of lyrics, like hearing Mayday's "I miss you so much", and at that moment, I really miss you so much.

Sublimation, I feel that behind this song, my story has been imprinted, and you are already in this story.

In your space music collection, there is a song "Little", so from now on, whenever I hear it, I think of you, the little oath is still unstable, and the little tears are still holding ...... There's one person in my heart from now on, and that's you.

On Christmas Eve in my junior year, I was scared for the first time.

That day, I flew to your school with the idiot, and at that time, I wanted to send you a message or call, but after thinking about it, I didn't dare, because it was only a little over a month since you last rejected me.

In the evening, after having dinner with a group of friends, I called you, and on the other end of the phone, you said that you were watching a movie in the city and were coming back, so I said to wait for you.

I smiled wryly and said to Silly Fei, wouldn't I be a little ridiculous if she came over with her boyfriend later? Because during the meal, I heard from my friend that you seem to have a boyfriend, and Silly Fei didn't say anything at the time, so he smiled at me, so we both laughed stupidly.

At that time, I was very afraid that you would appear in front of me with your boyfriend, and I thought to myself, even if you go to the movies with your boyfriend, don't appear in front of me together, I will be embarrassed and embarrassed.

So, I deliberately didn't stand at the gate of the school, and retreated to a position of more than 100 meters inside the campus, I was thinking, there is such a distance, I can let you separate, let you walk alone.

Thankfully, you showed up alone at the very end, and that's when I let out a long breath, maybe because it's dark, you won't see. You won't even see it, I was already cold and couldn't speak very neatly at that moment, but the moment I saw you, my heart warmed.

......

I have so many things to say to you, and I don't know where to start for a while. For example, when I was in high school, every time I went out in the morning, I would pay close attention to your position, and sometimes I would deliberately walk very close, and then follow you and watch you. Your position in the sixth class was frozen by me, and after constantly changing positions, I was finally able to see you from a distance while doing exercises, but unfortunately it was a little blurry after four classes.

For example, in the third year of junior high school, I would complain that the teacher didn't transfer me to you because of what I didn't transfer, and I could only sit behind or in front of you for anything, and I remember passing you a small note during the evening self-study, and I remember that you kicked my ass in the back (definitely more than once).

I can't help but smile at the thought of this.

But what's the use of me remembering this? There are a few things that can touch you. Suddenly I realized that my memory was so pitiful, so insignificant.

I don't know when the Tao began, but I understood a truth: never treat others as fools, your intentions, others will be able to see it.

For example, a few days ago, I was chatting with a classmate, and she said, you are a potential stock, and I asked Wei Lu what she said about it, and she said that she felt.

I just thought it was funny. To put it nicely, people really just feel it, and to say it ugly, this may have been said to countless people.

Even if she could briefly list one or two bases from me that could support the concept, I would think, Damn, I am really a potential stock. It's a pity that she didn't even find half of it, which only made me feel that either you don't know me at all, or, in me, I don't have the potential to be a potential stock at all.

Applying this principle to me, should I think deeply? I keep saying how much I like it, how sincere I like it, don't you question my sincerity, and so on, so do I really care about it, can you feel it?

Making a poster, writing a script, and conceiving an outline, with your heart, will move people, and it only takes one point to move people, but to grasp that point requires in-depth understanding, repeated scrutiny, and thinking from the shoes of others, it is possible to get it.

But now, I think, I haven't found that point yet! I'm at a loss, I just feel lost.

I don't know what I'm going to say next, but I said it at the beginning, I want to talk about me, about what I remember and about you. The above paragraph, even if it is my memory of you, below, let's write about me.

For a while, I was Baidu, and I asked Du Niang, what is called maturity. Du Niang told me, first of all, you are not mature enough, fortunately, you are not handsome, if you are a little more handsome, you are very small, and this life has something to do with the strange Shu millet wood.

Well, I think it's good to have a mature mentality.

But Du Niang told me that your mind is naïve, and you are active by nature, straightforward and fast-talking, and you have no city government and scheming, so you can conclude that from now on, you will be as mature and stable as a stranger.

At that moment, how desperate I was. (To be continued)