Chapter 118: Extra-Three Water Twilight

How fragile can others be? Why should I sympathize with an opponent who is already stronger than me? Even Gu Moyun, because he lost his brother, I sympathized with him, so I never doubted him.

I ignored that he wanted to ruin the Demon Realm too much, and the game between him and Bai Lan had already reached the white-hot stage, and he would definitely use everything he could to complete his layout. And I'm just one of the pawns.

It was I who caused you to be innocent and became his soul.

Qianfei, others think that I want to resurrect you in every possible way because of guilt and because I love you. Do you think so when you don't know it?

I must confess every bit to you, I can sacrifice my life because I love you. But I'm not going to kill innocents. As you said, if you really lose your day, let it be, everything is providential.

Qianfei, your death is like a nightmare in my heart, it shatters all my balance. You let me see the world clearly, you let me see the hypocrisy, you let me see the ruthless indifference!

So I began to lose my heart and go crazy, and finally betrayed Bai Lan, and finally went toe-for-tat with the justice stipulated by the world, and I only had one sentence in my heart: enter my demon path!

Perhaps, the true cultivation of the Demon Dao starts from that moment. If you cultivate the Demon Dao, you will have to disperse your cultivation and start all over again.

This may have been predestined in the dark, so I succeeded in cultivating the Demon Dao later.

When my heart is out of balance again and again, I am willing to kill innocents indiscriminately, I am willing to violate morality, I am willing to hate the world, play with power, and maliciously harm others.

Bai Zijia stood up and accused me, I cut off relations with her, and I can be like a stranger to her!

Emperor Luo Shen stood up to help me, I can use her, and even go so far as to bury all her sincerity!

If Bai Lan stops me, then I will do everything I can to mess with the world!

What is Gu Moyun's position? He is like a person who suddenly loses control of a chess game, and finally cannot control me, and I, step by step, have become a three-legged force to counterbalance them.

Emperor Luo Shen said before that I am the weight, and without me, the three of them are out of balance. And then, I was the extra weight, and once I leaned towards either side, the rest of the people panicked!

I saw them uneasy, frightened, and finally through me, I felt the resentment I had felt against them, the doubt about the truth, the howl of the unfairness of the world. I'm satisfied.

As I said, if it weren't for the fact that I'm still alive and breathing, if it weren't for the delusional desire to resurrect you, if it weren't for the chaos I've been making around, who among them would have remembered you?

Human life is like a mustard, and you are a living example.

Qianfei, that time was the darkest period of my life, I thought about suicide, let it go. But if I die, your death will be meaningless. What else do I have to fight for us, how easy it is to die, how easy it is to live, but I have to face many choices.

That's what you told me, and that's what keeps me alive.

I thought that when I was done, I could die.

Later, the gods and demons fought and were defeated.

When I finally learned from Bai Lan that Gu Moyun was the real murderer, I killed him, and I finally left everyone in the world behind.

If the world is so ruthless, why should I be merciful?

I've always been reluctant to treat the world with malice, but the world has always forced me to be malicious. It's because I don't cultivate enough to tolerate injustices in the world, so I lose both. But I will not regret it until I die.

Life is never about obedience. It is life that dies, and the true meaning of the soul never dies with the death of life!

Providence, what is it? How amazing is the word love?

The soul is gone, and there is no return, but you are back.

Far away in the Buddha realm, I can still sense your life and death, and feel your return.

Qianfei, at that moment, my dead heart came back to life.

I see you, you say, you love me.

But I can't love you anymore.

People in Buddhism, how can I love you for a long time?

Once again, our obsession and friendship have been violently impacted. The difference is that this time I can go to the soup for you without hesitation, and I will not hesitate!

You say, you're going to go back in time, okay, I'll fight for you.

You say, you love me, well, I love you too, even if this love has nothing to do with Fengyue.

You say, you're alone. Okay, I'll be the emperor for you! I want the whole world to be a force for you!

In their eyes, I am a rebel and thief, and they are swords against me, and I know very well that I have become the target of the public, and sooner or later there will be a bad end.

Or, I am truly the emperor, and my life can be saved. Or, I quit and take the end of my life as a stop to give an explanation to the people in the world.

Qianfei, will you forgive me? I still chose a compromise approach. I don't have the power to rule the world, and I can't live up to the promises of those who allow me to be so presumptuous. It's a big world, so big that I can't ignore their long-cherished wishes.

Long Haotian and others have been looking forward to Bai Lan's return, and their waiting and persistence make me feel that Bai Lan has become a real king, and I am really no longer a courtier. They are also like outsiders, who only see moral right and wrong, ignoring all unspoken unfairness.

The whole world is against me, and I am hard to beat.

So, I don't want you to be in danger again, I choose to let you hide behind you, and all the damage, I will bear it, and it has nothing to do with you.

Nightmare says, I've just been indulging your greed, I've been binding myself with guilt. But she was wrong, the reason why I indulged you is because I know that you are a moderate person, and all I want to satisfy is the balance in your heart. The same people who have lost the whole world, if I don't come to balance for you, what will your world look like?

The most ridiculous thing in the world is that everyone uses secular rules to judge whether it is fair or not, and never sees the ins and outs clearly before making decisions.

Just like you, your soul has been scattered, so if you don't come back to life, the world won't owe you? And if I seek justice from the world on your behalf, how has it become a kind of tyranny? How has it become a kind of cruelty? How has it become a kind of nonsense? How has it become the finger of thousands of people, and it has been spurned by thousands of people!

No one cares about the bitterness behind it, and even if they know, they will only sigh after all, persuading people to let go.

As the Buddhists say, put down the butcher's knife and become a Buddha on the spot. So, can I abandon this Buddha!

The world has slashed me with a butcher's knife! I want to see him as a Buddha the moment his conscience finally finds out, the moment he is tired and wants to give up killing?

If this is a Buddha, this is justice, this is truth, then I would rather be my demon!

I want revenge!

I want to grieve the ruthlessness of the world in my tears, I want to sigh under the butcher's knife about the injustice of fate, I want to repent of fate in killing!

I'd rather live like a hypocrite and be spurned by the world, but I'm real.

I may be a madman, but I know very well that I am a rational madman, and that's enough.

Qianfei, I finally chose to leave you out of desperation. Everything will be rewarded, and cause and effect will come at a time.

Between us, it's still the best, but I still can't protect you.

I tell you, I don't want to deceive myself anymore, I want to choose Emperor Luoshen, I didn't lie to you. Qianfei, I already have a her in my heart, I have been with you for fourteen years, and I have never had a love for you again. I don't know if it's because this affection was given to Luo Jiushuang earlier, so when facing you, I can't give it anymore.

If I can still get out of the way, then I may choose you and protect the Thousand Autumn Valley with you. But I can't, and you can't give up everything for me anymore.

You didn't let go of Qianqiu Valley for me back then, and now that you rebuild Qianqiu Valley, you won't give up Qianqiu Valley for me.

I'm just someone you love, not your whole world.

Qianfei, Luo Shen regards me as the whole world, she has given up everything for me several times, and I can't be unmoved.

When there is no more debt in my heart, I can finally let go of you and you together.

Do you hate me and hate me?

Breaking the mirror and reuniting is the rarest thing in the world, but Emperor Luo Shen has been able to do it again and again, and I am still tempted after all.

When I was exhausted, gave up my obsession, and only hoped that there would be a place in the world, Emperor Luo Shen was still behind me.

When I know that she escaped death, 14 years of inhuman treatment, 14 years of imprisonment, and 14 years of longing for demons. I can't be calm anymore, this is the person I love, how can I not feel distressed?

Emperor Luoshen, you are the person who loves me the most in this world besides me. You have always known that if you don't hurt the people I care about, you don't hurt me.

If you really have anything to be sorry for me, it is probably that you are also the murderer of Qianfei!

Come back again, it's not that I don't care about your hatred, I just want to ruin everything you have! Is your love domineering, possession, and aggression?

Maybe the world has only seen your infatuation, who has seen your cruelty!

For a long time, I forced myself to love you, and I even put myself in the game. Just like I knew that you might really just be trying to lure me in and end my unwillingness! However, I still chose to believe you once, I thought, will you be able to ignore the past when you really fall in love with me?

But in fact, you are only a layman, and you, like many people, remember the harm. Perhaps, it's not that you remember the hurt well, it's just because the damage done to you is really indelible.

Emperor Luoshen, these three words have become the deepest scar in my heart, the person I love the most, and the person who hurts me the most.

Even if you know what I want, you can't afford it. I can see Luo Xueer's love for you, I can see the difference between myself and her, I can see your coldness.

However, does loving someone meet all her requirements? Emperor Luoshen, you love your feathers, not me. I love my obsessions, not you.

So, after the passage of time, I can still let go of you calmly. I turned into snow for you in an instant, just because of guilt, and once loved you.

But I can't give up in my heart, isn't it only Qianfei?

Many times, I can't weigh the importance of you and Qianfei just as I can't weigh the importance of love and friendship. I used to think that friendship was supreme, but when I ushered in love, love easily hit friendship, and my balance was out of balance.

So, I tried my best to maintain my friendship. Trying his best to defend Qianfei and turning a blind eye to you.

I couldn't face myself, and I kept thinking that if my friendship turned into love, how happy I would be. Because I don't have to deal with those annoying choices like normal people anymore. However, when my love and friendship are separated, I can't help myself.

I'm afraid of failing my friendship, and I'm afraid I'm going to fall in love. Therefore, in this life, my biggest failure is to hide love in my heart and try my best to present it in the supreme position. I have love hidden in my heart, and I refuse to hold it in my heart to show others.

I had to admit that I was cowardly and ridiculous, so even Gu Moyun laughed at me for taking the blame and being a cocoon.

For Emperor Luoshen, I don't know what to say, whether I say it or not, it seems to be superfluous. I'm doing it, she's watching.

But she has always guarded me, I don't know what she loves about me, obviously I have already determined that I am just unwilling to lose to Gu Moyun, and I don't like it so much. Obviously, I still can't let go of Luo Xueer, but I also like it.

Could it be that we really like a lot of people at the same time, right?

Some people say that as long as the person you love the most is me, that's fine, and it doesn't matter if you love other people.