I sat on the shore of the lake, watching the cold smoke rise from the lake, and the cold air was in full swing all around, and the snow was falling.

I like to hide in such a deserted and extremely deserted place more and more, such a cold place, Yan will not come to it, because she doesn't like the cold, just like she doesn't like me who is cold in her bones.

In the past six months, I have had the happiest and most entangled time. Yan is finally with me, and she spoils and takes good care of me in every way.

But I can always see worry and helplessness in her eyes, probably because we all know that this kind of life will not last long.

I don't know what kind of existence I have in her eyes, even if she takes good care of me, but I can still feel sadness and ridicule in her thin and cold eyes.

In this world, she believes that anyone can be with her, except me. Probably, she didn't have enough courage to be with me, and in her heart, she and I both held grudges against each other. And these hatreds will only decay with the passage of time, making them more hurtful and sad.

I don't dare to ask her why we've gotten into this situation and she can hurt our feelings with peace of mind. Is it in response to the sentence "the loved have nothing to fear"?

What do I love about her? I can't tell myself, as if she really said it, maybe what I love has always been my feathers. And she's always been my feather.

I remember the first time she came to beg me, she was so aggrieved that she promised herself, I said, Yan, you are tired, have a good rest. But she told me categorically that she wanted me.

At that moment, my heart was dripping with pain, I knew that she was for Qianfei, to disturb Bai Lan and Gu Moyun's sight, and to ask for the strength and power of me, the demon king of the Western Regions. Such a proud person is so desperate that he puts himself in the bed of a person he repels very much.

I instinctively rejected her, but after so many years, wasn't it just to get her? I don't even know if that day was a chance or a punishment given to her.

I've been waiting for her to give me orders, waiting for her to exhaust my Western Regions Demon King and the power of the Western Regions, waiting for my imaginary and presumptuous behavior to exhaust our affection. Perhaps, in my eyes, she will be no different from other women, they are all the same.

But later, she didn't even ask for anything from me, on the contrary, she was at my mercy, but her heart was still not mine.

She said, Roselle, we have no results, you don't have any more extravagant hopes.

But, Yan, the more you are like this, the more unlikely it is for me to let go.

I'll admit that I just have a face that looks gentle, and a temperament that makes people feel like they should be gentle. Even Yan feels that I am the most gentle person in the world.

But the violence in my bones, the arrogance in my bones, and the arrogance in my bones are like ice, hidden under that gentle skin. When facing enemies, such as Gu Moyun. He could see my cruelty, but he didn't care that much about me. In his eyes, I am a defeated general, and I have been, is, and will always be.

Is it because of my self-esteem or what? I always want to win against Gu Moyun, so I do everything possible to not allow Yan to have anything to do with him.

I know that I can't stop Yan, so I can only express my possession and control of Yan almost to the extreme, and I want to borrow the mouths of people in the world to trap Yan. When everybody knows I love her, when everybody sees that I'm willing to do my best for her, when everybody thinks I'm supposed to be with her. So, what is Gu Moyun?

Yan is a very nostalgic person, and because of this, I can tell me every time about what she owes me in the past. I admit that my means are despicable, obviously I use the good in the eyes of others to control my face, but I have to be in the name of deep affection.

Yan is right, I am a real villain, and the love I give is too domineering and ruthless. I didn't think about whether she would accept it or not, whether she really liked it, so I blindly giving, and then I was unwilling.

In my life, it was as if everything was blank and nothing left was emotion. Except for Yan, my life can't make a ripple.

When he was in Lin'an, those eighteen years of love and hatred, eighteen years of nostalgia, and eighteen years of extravagant hopes were all ruined by a person named Gu Moyun. When the fire burned and the whole village was reduced to ashes, so did my heart.

At that moment, I realized that without strength, there can be no happiness. So after that, I will never back down again.

When Yan was still Lin Ajiu, she always disliked me for being cowardly, disgusted for my incompetence, and disgusted for me swallowing my anger. Come to think of it, she was half right. Since I was a child, I have known that giving in is always in exchange for peace of mind.

If you are used to giving in, you are used to losing your smile, and you are used to being cowardly, and you can no longer be strong.

Just like the first time I saw Gu Moyun, I only felt that that man was so powerful that I was suffocating, and I knew that Yan sincerely appreciated him. His appearance seems to be a new world, Yan must like it very much, like it, but in the seventh day, she will leave her marriage contract with me and leave Lin'an.

When I went to the Demon Realm, I met Yan again, and that day was the day of the great waves in my life. I couldn't sleep at night, and the person who thought about it day and night became as powerful as Gu Moyun and appeared in front of me.

At that moment, my heart hurt so much.

I really want to ask, Yan, your skills, arrogance, and freedom, did Gu Moyun personally teach you?

Yan, have you had a good time with him over the years?

But I didn't dare to ask after all, Gu Moyun was on the side, he looked at me with indifferent eyebrows, with vigilance, I knew that he was on guard.

He was also afraid that I would snatch Yan away at that time? Just like me when I was on the head of the chicken nest, embarrassed, and had no merits. Jealous of Gu Moyun's strong man's aura, and afraid that Yan would really follow him. And the most terrible thing about fate is that whatever I am afraid of, I will come.

That day, I saw the panic in Gu Moyun's eyes, and at that moment, a trace of comfort, a trace of joy, and a trace of excitement flashed in my heart. Gu Moyun, do I finally have the capital to compete with you?

I looked at Yan who was pressed under me, and the fear and confusion in her eyes were like sharp blades, which broke my hot heart little by little, and cooled it.

She doesn't remember me, Yan, how can you forget me?

In a blink of an eye, she called for help to Gu Moyun, just like when she was in Lin'an, she asked Gu Moyun for help. She wants to escape from Lin'an, escape from the Lin'an that suffocates her. That day, she called Gu Moyun for help, just to escape from my arms.

I cried, and when the person who belonged to me no longer belonged to me, the pain of loss became more and more intense, and I finally could no longer calm down, and my heart, from that moment on, became more ruthless.

They will pay back what they owe me.

I couldn't help but ask her, how old are you and Gu Moyun's child?

The moment I asked, my heart was extremely flustered, they were talented and beautiful, they were born a perfect match, how was the child born?

I don't want to know! But I want to know!

Yan said, what the hell? Nonsense!

At that moment, I felt as if I had been redeemed, and my heart, which was about to die, came back to life. For so many years, Yan has always had me?

It turned out that she had forgotten everyone, and Gu Moyun was also one of them. No wonder, Gu Moyun was so flustered, we seemed to be playing again, standing on a new chess game, the same thing, our bet was still Yan. The difference is that at this time, the three of us are evenly matched.

Perhaps, from that day on, the struggle between us has just begun.

The enmity accumulated between me and Gu Moyun in our previous life, the enmity accumulated in Lin'an, and the enmity accumulated in this life all started to compete again from that day.

Gu Moyun obviously felt the pressure in his eyes, and he finally began to feel uneasy. The man who has been so powerful that it is suffocating finally has someone he can't control, and this person is also someone I can't control.

Perhaps, all my unwillingness is to start planning from that moment. I feel like my life has finally taken on a new look, and I can live my life to the fullest every day.

In the years that followed, I tried my best to get close to Yan, but the closer I got to her, the more sad I became.

I thought she was in love with the powerful Gu Moyun, but in the blink of an eye, she was so interested in an insignificant Bai Zijia.

In a land of wind and moon like Windy City, the matter between her and Bai Zijia is spreading, and it is difficult for me not to know.

Yan likes her? like a woman?

I was devastated. If Yan likes men, I can still find an excuse to comfort myself. But if she likes a woman, she likes a woman who is not as good as me at all, how can I comfort myself?

I always thought that with so many people surrounding me and liking me, I was the dragon and phoenix among people. At that time, I was already a leader in the demon world, and when it came to the Demon King of the Western Regions, who was not afraid?

Partial life, in her eyes, it is not worth mentioning.

Cher asked me what I liked about Yan. How can I tell her that what I like may not be Yan, I am just unwilling.

When I think of the past, I am left with only emotion and repentance. I was like a shackle, trapping that free and happy face, so that she couldn't escape, and she couldn't beat me. Seeing the fear and panic in her eyes, I didn't even want to let her go.

I don't know, I just know that I don't want to let her go, she can easily take my whole world.

I often sneak into the Windy City to see what the man who easily disarmed and surrendered was capable of. But she has nothing but enthusiasm, a sincere heart, and simple kindness. Powerful, never belonged to her. She doesn't even belong to any of the categories of people that Yan admires, but why is Yan so obsessed with her?

I stayed patiently in the Windy City, listening to Yan mention Bai Zijia after getting drunk again and again, and listening to Yan mention again and again the person who didn't understand her and went against her everywhere.

Yan said that Bai Zijia is just too tactful, she will always wait for Bai Zijia, wait for Bai Zijia to read the vicissitudes of the world and see through the glitz of the world. At that time, Bai Zijia will naturally understand her attitude towards the world.

I thought that Yan was just a whim, perhaps, Yan was just serious for a while. That featureless Bai Zijia, how could she make her wait so long?

Later, for a long time, Bai Zijia and Yan had no contact, and they were busy with each other's own affairs. I don't know when, I got involved in a Qianfei, I don't even understand, how could an indifferent and ruthless killer get mixed with Yan?

I went to the Valley of the Thousand Autumns angrily to ask for someone, and before that, I made a deal with them. I want them to help me find someone whose spirit is the flower of the other side, don't they know how much I care about this person?

Yan appeared, but they didn't tell each other, instead, they encroached on the people who belonged to me. Is it tolerable or unbearable!

I tried to punish the unruly Qianfei, she said, why do you say that Yan is mine? I laughed and mocked myself, yes, is it because I knew Yan earlier than anyone else, so Yan is mine?

Qianfei's eyes are too indifferent, her hostility towards me is actually because of Yan, I can't accept it!

A Gu Moyun came, a Bai Zijia came, and there was a Qianfei! God, the game doesn't play like this!